(March 18th, 2015)
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I have nothing else to do at the moment. Finally, that headache's gone and I can think, but it's a hot day today. When isn't it?Â
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Conjury lessons went well for the most part. There was a point that I got to take a break from my lessons, so [blot] I thought perhaps I could find an escort scout to take me to the Lavender Beds to possibly visit people-- maybe hear about Lainse. Time works at a crawl in boredom, but with a destination, it spared me no mercy! [blot] I wasn't going to make it, so I mingled in Bent Branch, "attempting" to skip rocks. I've only caused for big splashes at the moment. I still need to ask-- but anyway, Lainse was there too, in Bent Branch, it was such a nice surprise, and I was so happy to see him too! We caught up, quite a bit, got those things out in the open and-- [blot] I realize just how bad I am at this. I only mean well with what I say, but it came out so... [blot] bad. I didn't really have time to clarify, only to hope that he understands what I mean.. and we can go from there! It turns out his expedition was cancelled... I missed nothing, but I still want to prepare for a next time! I guess he wasn't informed about mine and Eiji's leaving from Harbingers.Â
That's alright, I'm glad I got to say it myself anyway, and I worried over nothing!Â
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That caused for a pretty big distraction when I got back to my lessons. Those mentoring us could sense it, well, not that-- that would be uncomfortable if it could be specific! Anyway, they asked that I go meditate with nature for the time being, and "come back when my head has cleared". Who knows how long that would take, right? I could use the excuse to get out though. I thought maybe Lainse would still be around, but he wasn't. Logical that talking it out more would clear my head, right? They wouldn't have needed to know!
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So, walking along the river was the next best thing. There were some sprites on the water-- I thought maybe I could practice-- not with spells, but try to feel something with meditation? Because, honestly, doing that with the incense in the actual guild hall wasn't doing anything for me besides building my stamina to hold in sneezes. [blot] I know that's terrible to say, but-- anyway. It was a peaceful experience, for as long as it lasted. [blot] I can't remember what I felt anymore, but I do know it was interrupted.Â
There was this giant water-skater of a creature that I completely missedin my wandering that made itself a little too close. I panicked-- I--[blot] hit it with water? Not splashing, that' s stupid-- but I actually willedsome conjury in the water? I pushed the creature away from me and ran-- oh the headache that came after. I could barely see.  I don't know if it's something to be concernedabout. People talk about aether sickness,just something to get used to. [blot] Something I think I'd be used to by now. [blot]
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Anyway, just as luck would have it,  guess who had to come find me like that out in the woods? I felt awful. I feel like a big enough jerk doing what I did with my sneaking out before-- I'm trying not to do this anymore. The guy doesn't deserve it.  He seemed okay with it though, well, not the situation, but... proud I managed to defend myself? -- Not that I did, really, kind of. Sort of.
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I thought it was later than it was when we did get back to the Aetherite plaza-- Oh, and let me say, getting back was a not-so-pretty sight... But- anyway, I thought I had been dumb enough to be wandering the woods way too close to the time I was supposed to go home with Eiji but-- the bells were off. Good timing as always with Eiji, I guess! I'm lucky for that.
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I'm taking it easy for now. [blot] I'm finding some odd jobs around the city because I'm tired of sitting around with my craft if I'm not out getting myself sick with excessive travel and weird situations!! [blot]   I could have sworn I was going to convince someone to give me a chocobo today, but it didn't happen. I mean, I'm not surprised. I found out that night too that I'm all Eiji has out here, apparently. Yeah-- he was around while I was taking care of birds. He said he was just enjoying the quiet night, but I'm curious just how long he was sitting there, across the street. Enjoying the quiet night. InUl'dah. Busiest city ever. Yes, alright,Eiji.
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This obligatory guardianship --- if I can call it that? I'll make it work, so we can be friends, and not some strange rendition of Guard-to-Sultana-Commonfolk Edition!
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It's going to happen!
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I have nothing else to do at the moment. Finally, that headache's gone and I can think, but it's a hot day today. When isn't it?Â
Â
Conjury lessons went well for the most part. There was a point that I got to take a break from my lessons, so [blot] I thought perhaps I could find an escort scout to take me to the Lavender Beds to possibly visit people-- maybe hear about Lainse. Time works at a crawl in boredom, but with a destination, it spared me no mercy! [blot] I wasn't going to make it, so I mingled in Bent Branch, "attempting" to skip rocks. I've only caused for big splashes at the moment. I still need to ask-- but anyway, Lainse was there too, in Bent Branch, it was such a nice surprise, and I was so happy to see him too! We caught up, quite a bit, got those things out in the open and-- [blot] I realize just how bad I am at this. I only mean well with what I say, but it came out so... [blot] bad. I didn't really have time to clarify, only to hope that he understands what I mean.. and we can go from there! It turns out his expedition was cancelled... I missed nothing, but I still want to prepare for a next time! I guess he wasn't informed about mine and Eiji's leaving from Harbingers.Â
That's alright, I'm glad I got to say it myself anyway, and I worried over nothing!Â
Â
That caused for a pretty big distraction when I got back to my lessons. Those mentoring us could sense it, well, not that-- that would be uncomfortable if it could be specific! Anyway, they asked that I go meditate with nature for the time being, and "come back when my head has cleared". Who knows how long that would take, right? I could use the excuse to get out though. I thought maybe Lainse would still be around, but he wasn't. Logical that talking it out more would clear my head, right? They wouldn't have needed to know!
Â
So, walking along the river was the next best thing. There were some sprites on the water-- I thought maybe I could practice-- not with spells, but try to feel something with meditation? Because, honestly, doing that with the incense in the actual guild hall wasn't doing anything for me besides building my stamina to hold in sneezes. [blot] I know that's terrible to say, but-- anyway. It was a peaceful experience, for as long as it lasted. [blot] I can't remember what I felt anymore, but I do know it was interrupted.Â
There was this giant water-skater of a creature that I completely missedin my wandering that made itself a little too close. I panicked-- I--[blot] hit it with water? Not splashing, that' s stupid-- but I actually willedsome conjury in the water? I pushed the creature away from me and ran-- oh the headache that came after. I could barely see.  I don't know if it's something to be concernedabout. People talk about aether sickness,just something to get used to. [blot] Something I think I'd be used to by now. [blot]
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Anyway, just as luck would have it,  guess who had to come find me like that out in the woods? I felt awful. I feel like a big enough jerk doing what I did with my sneaking out before-- I'm trying not to do this anymore. The guy doesn't deserve it.  He seemed okay with it though, well, not the situation, but... proud I managed to defend myself? -- Not that I did, really, kind of. Sort of.
Â
I thought it was later than it was when we did get back to the Aetherite plaza-- Oh, and let me say, getting back was a not-so-pretty sight... But- anyway, I thought I had been dumb enough to be wandering the woods way too close to the time I was supposed to go home with Eiji but-- the bells were off. Good timing as always with Eiji, I guess! I'm lucky for that.
Â
I'm taking it easy for now. [blot] I'm finding some odd jobs around the city because I'm tired of sitting around with my craft if I'm not out getting myself sick with excessive travel and weird situations!! [blot]   I could have sworn I was going to convince someone to give me a chocobo today, but it didn't happen. I mean, I'm not surprised. I found out that night too that I'm all Eiji has out here, apparently. Yeah-- he was around while I was taking care of birds. He said he was just enjoying the quiet night, but I'm curious just how long he was sitting there, across the street. Enjoying the quiet night. InUl'dah. Busiest city ever. Yes, alright,Eiji.
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This obligatory guardianship --- if I can call it that? I'll make it work, so we can be friends, and not some strange rendition of Guard-to-Sultana-Commonfolk Edition!
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It's going to happen!
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