Damnit. Damnit all.
I don’t know if I can mend the broken pieces…they’re shattered…
I want so badly to crawl back into bed and undo this sun…but what would have been worse, today, or tomorrow, or not telling him?
At least I have that…
If it would have done any good, I would have told him I was more than happy to settle it in bed…but I don’t want to imagine his face if I had said that…Already it’s too much to remember…the nothingness…
Twelve help me…I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to fix it. I don’t know if I can. Everyone says I shouldn’t bother…but…
I just wish he could see past this, see me, like I see him. It doesn’t matter what Zenge has done in the past…he’s my friend. It doesn’t matter. And Gods! I love Oskar. And that’s what’s important. I’ll prove it.Â
I don’t know if I can mend the broken pieces…they’re shattered…
I want so badly to crawl back into bed and undo this sun…but what would have been worse, today, or tomorrow, or not telling him?
At least I have that…
If it would have done any good, I would have told him I was more than happy to settle it in bed…but I don’t want to imagine his face if I had said that…Already it’s too much to remember…the nothingness…
Twelve help me…I don’t know what to do. I don’t know how to fix it. I don’t know if I can. Everyone says I shouldn’t bother…but…
I just wish he could see past this, see me, like I see him. It doesn’t matter what Zenge has done in the past…he’s my friend. It doesn’t matter. And Gods! I love Oskar. And that’s what’s important. I’ll prove it.Â