It’s been moons since I wrote last. It seems as if I bring my pen to paper only when I am not feeling myself. It is saddening to think that if someone finds this some sun, they will know me for a melodramatic, melancholy individual. Ah well.
Everyone, well mostly everyone, is back from their breaks. There is a strong absence in the headquarters with Fearless missing. I believe that he desired to stay at home with his family and tend the farm. I hope he finds happiness there. Lily is sad that he decided not to come back. I do not blame her. I do not know what I would have done had Zenge not come back…correction, I know exactly what I would have done. It is better not to speak of it.
Zenge came back a different man. He is no longer around as much, running off to fight this or that, or train, as it were. He is gaining promotions quite quickly, and therefore is often busier than I would like. I miss him. And even when we are together, his sleep is restless. He thinks I do not notice, but he gets up often and sits in the chair in the corner…thinking of I know not what. Perhaps he will tell me some sun.
Kass has a new love in her life. I am happy for her. I really am. But because of this, she is leaving the building, and this bothers me. I just wish she had told me sooner. I like Endri, but I have a hard time swallowing that this is happening so fast. Endri knows much of the world, and Kass knows so little. I hope that she guards her heart well. I’d hate to see this turn into a situation like with Kal.
Speaking of, that was an amusing incident, in retrospect. I’m afraid I made a fool of myself in front of everyone, threatening Kal like I did. But he shouldn’t have hurt her like he did…he could have at least written. I swear to the Twelve, should Endricane hurt her…
Nel and Izzy got married not too long ago. They had two ceremonies, and unfortunately, I could only make the first. They asked me to perform the ceremony…I was flattered. I hope I did their words justice. It was a beautiful event. They looked fantastic, and everyone had a great time. Nel also announced that she was pregnant. I was shocked. It was amusing to see the lalafell’s reaction to that revelation.
Ah yes, the lalafell, I don’t think I’ve written of them. Riku and Miyuki have become our little mascots in a way. They’re teenagers who have happened to find employment here at Corvus. They have won my heart, surely. They seem to be so innocent, and yet not at the same time. I wish I could go back to their age. It was a good time.
Business has been rather slow, however, so I’ve been doing some training myself. I’m out most of the sun, and tired as hell when I get back. Haven’t really had much time to myself.
I did spend some time in Gridania this sun, however. It was a beautiful day for it. Traveled around the city, buying various things from the vendors…none of it was needed, of course. There’s just something about spending your gil in the community that you grew up in that brings a little warmth to your heart. The vendors seemed to be having a hard time of it lately. I hope that what I bought could help fund their next meal at least.
Once I was finished with my shopping, I walked by the Fane, inquiring if they needed any services from me. They seemed to be at a lull as well, with all of the adventurer’s storming their doors lately. Most of what they needed was far below my skill level, anyway, so I’m happy to let the beginning conjurers learn their trade with it. The glow in the Fane was comforting, so I spent some time perusing the library there, looking over the tomes of magic they had, trying to learn what new skills I could. There didn’t seem to be much there, however, that I didn’t know already.
Afterward, I took a trip outside by the pond and sat on a rock, just thinking about things. Mainly feeling bad about the whole Kass thing. It was comforting just being near nature again. I forget how in Ul’Dah how dead everything is. No songs of the elementals in that place…it’s as if they’d forgotten all about that wasteland.
Oskar came by. It was…odd seeing him again. Odd and yet comforting. I feel as if he left awfully abruptly. I hope it wasn’t because of anything I said…it was an odd conversation though. One fraught with old emotions. I can’t help but feel them some when he is around. As I told him, it’s hard not to fall into those old routines. His eyes were sad, and I felt bad. I hope that things get better between us…I hate feeling awkward.
He mentioned something about a storytelling that is happening soon. I remember those. They were nice. Perhaps I will try to attend…I’m not sitting next to him though.Â
Everyone, well mostly everyone, is back from their breaks. There is a strong absence in the headquarters with Fearless missing. I believe that he desired to stay at home with his family and tend the farm. I hope he finds happiness there. Lily is sad that he decided not to come back. I do not blame her. I do not know what I would have done had Zenge not come back…correction, I know exactly what I would have done. It is better not to speak of it.
Zenge came back a different man. He is no longer around as much, running off to fight this or that, or train, as it were. He is gaining promotions quite quickly, and therefore is often busier than I would like. I miss him. And even when we are together, his sleep is restless. He thinks I do not notice, but he gets up often and sits in the chair in the corner…thinking of I know not what. Perhaps he will tell me some sun.
Kass has a new love in her life. I am happy for her. I really am. But because of this, she is leaving the building, and this bothers me. I just wish she had told me sooner. I like Endri, but I have a hard time swallowing that this is happening so fast. Endri knows much of the world, and Kass knows so little. I hope that she guards her heart well. I’d hate to see this turn into a situation like with Kal.
Speaking of, that was an amusing incident, in retrospect. I’m afraid I made a fool of myself in front of everyone, threatening Kal like I did. But he shouldn’t have hurt her like he did…he could have at least written. I swear to the Twelve, should Endricane hurt her…
Nel and Izzy got married not too long ago. They had two ceremonies, and unfortunately, I could only make the first. They asked me to perform the ceremony…I was flattered. I hope I did their words justice. It was a beautiful event. They looked fantastic, and everyone had a great time. Nel also announced that she was pregnant. I was shocked. It was amusing to see the lalafell’s reaction to that revelation.
Ah yes, the lalafell, I don’t think I’ve written of them. Riku and Miyuki have become our little mascots in a way. They’re teenagers who have happened to find employment here at Corvus. They have won my heart, surely. They seem to be so innocent, and yet not at the same time. I wish I could go back to their age. It was a good time.
Business has been rather slow, however, so I’ve been doing some training myself. I’m out most of the sun, and tired as hell when I get back. Haven’t really had much time to myself.
I did spend some time in Gridania this sun, however. It was a beautiful day for it. Traveled around the city, buying various things from the vendors…none of it was needed, of course. There’s just something about spending your gil in the community that you grew up in that brings a little warmth to your heart. The vendors seemed to be having a hard time of it lately. I hope that what I bought could help fund their next meal at least.
Once I was finished with my shopping, I walked by the Fane, inquiring if they needed any services from me. They seemed to be at a lull as well, with all of the adventurer’s storming their doors lately. Most of what they needed was far below my skill level, anyway, so I’m happy to let the beginning conjurers learn their trade with it. The glow in the Fane was comforting, so I spent some time perusing the library there, looking over the tomes of magic they had, trying to learn what new skills I could. There didn’t seem to be much there, however, that I didn’t know already.
Afterward, I took a trip outside by the pond and sat on a rock, just thinking about things. Mainly feeling bad about the whole Kass thing. It was comforting just being near nature again. I forget how in Ul’Dah how dead everything is. No songs of the elementals in that place…it’s as if they’d forgotten all about that wasteland.
Oskar came by. It was…odd seeing him again. Odd and yet comforting. I feel as if he left awfully abruptly. I hope it wasn’t because of anything I said…it was an odd conversation though. One fraught with old emotions. I can’t help but feel them some when he is around. As I told him, it’s hard not to fall into those old routines. His eyes were sad, and I felt bad. I hope that things get better between us…I hate feeling awkward.
He mentioned something about a storytelling that is happening soon. I remember those. They were nice. Perhaps I will try to attend…I’m not sitting next to him though.Â