There are some things similar and some things different. Generally I try to play a character as different from myself as possible in at least one theater. However there usually is some internal characteristic or focal point that I find innately sympathetic, or I will have trouble really grasping their character well.
Regarding Virara, she is as non-mental as she can force herself to be. I tend to mull over things and second-guess myself constantly; Virara never does this by conscious intent. Virara is insensitive and I've been accused of such, but I actually do generally feel pretty bad about making someone upset. The way I act on Balmung is actually super different than how I act in other places; I'm trying legitimately to be a lighter, softer me, because I've observed that people here can be very sensitive, and I don't want to bother them. Virara might honestly not care if she is indifferent to a person. She apologizes, but it is out of obligation and training, not true regret, unless it is to someone close to her. Virara values honesty, and so do I, but combined with her extreme insensitivity, she is liable to tell someone something crushing as long as it's true, which I've avoided doing before, to some degree of regret. I am naturally cynical, while Virara only plays at it; she worships a person with monomaniacal focus, and I cannot do that by my very nature because I doubt everyone. Virara is at once both more controlled emotionally and less controlled; I tend to fret over small things she would ignore, and at the same time she is not in touch with how she feels, so when she feels something intense, it is uncontrollable, whereas I have a sense of restraint she lacks.
I feel like my core is weaker, but more solid, in terms of self-esteem. Virara cannot look inward much or she will lose control, whereas I am self-absorbed, so I look inward constantly; nothing is going to disturb or surprise me. ^_^'
Big difference of course: Virara and I are both dense when it comes to signs of affection, but Virara has an excuse and I'm just stupid, lol. XD
Regarding Virara, she is as non-mental as she can force herself to be. I tend to mull over things and second-guess myself constantly; Virara never does this by conscious intent. Virara is insensitive and I've been accused of such, but I actually do generally feel pretty bad about making someone upset. The way I act on Balmung is actually super different than how I act in other places; I'm trying legitimately to be a lighter, softer me, because I've observed that people here can be very sensitive, and I don't want to bother them. Virara might honestly not care if she is indifferent to a person. She apologizes, but it is out of obligation and training, not true regret, unless it is to someone close to her. Virara values honesty, and so do I, but combined with her extreme insensitivity, she is liable to tell someone something crushing as long as it's true, which I've avoided doing before, to some degree of regret. I am naturally cynical, while Virara only plays at it; she worships a person with monomaniacal focus, and I cannot do that by my very nature because I doubt everyone. Virara is at once both more controlled emotionally and less controlled; I tend to fret over small things she would ignore, and at the same time she is not in touch with how she feels, so when she feels something intense, it is uncontrollable, whereas I have a sense of restraint she lacks.
I feel like my core is weaker, but more solid, in terms of self-esteem. Virara cannot look inward much or she will lose control, whereas I am self-absorbed, so I look inward constantly; nothing is going to disturb or surprise me. ^_^'
Big difference of course: Virara and I are both dense when it comes to signs of affection, but Virara has an excuse and I'm just stupid, lol. XD
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AV by Kura-Ou
Wiki (Last updated 01/16)
My Balmung profile.
AV by Kura-Ou
Wiki (Last updated 01/16)
My Balmung profile.