
Honor's Last Candle
Never did Kiht Jakkya think she would adapt to, nor appreciate, anything aside from the Shroud. However, La Noscea was not so unfavorable anymore. The sea air no longer burned her nose, and the judgement of nature did not feel as ever-present as it did in her home forest. She could enjoy the breeze, and the weather. There was a big lack of shade during the sun, but dusk brought a fairness to the air that she enjoyed.
The Keeper knew 'he' was on this island, but she did not know where. She still had eyes in many places like a stubborn spider who kept rebuilding her web even as countless strands were destroyed by the weathering of time and life.
Every time he called her ‘little sister’, the guilt would strike her like lightning. She had to drop this final burden of the past if she was to truly continue into the future.
"Osric, are you there? Do you still have this thing?" Kiht called into the linkpearl.
"....... course I still have this bloody thing. It's mine, ain't it?"
"Indeed, but with how we have gone through linkshells in the past... Nevermind. I need to speak with you."
A grunt. "Well, there's this pearl... 'n' if y'don't trust it, or you need t'speak with me in person... that's a tad tricksier. I'm. Ahhh. On Vylbrand. Where I'm wanted. Head, axe, that sort' of thing."
He was ever the man of discretion. When she first met him, he did not even speak his real name. He had always acted like someone who was trying to avoid notice. She supposed that came with his life. But this time, she needed to talk to him face to face. She would not hide behind the linkpearl.
"What I need to speak with you about is not really meant for the ears of others. I mean, I can tell you over the pearl if I must. It may become awkward..."
"Nah, nah... come t'Red Rooster. There's a, um... shite, the hells would you call this, Kana? A storage room? What'd the man tell you when y'asked t'rent out the space?"
"Storage, love." Another voice spoke; Kanaria's voice.
His wife was with him. She was surprised. However, she was not afraid to let Kanaria hear the truth as well. This involved her too, and she has always had a calming effect on him. It was good she was there.
".....I know where that is. Worry not."
"Aye, but it's got a table 'n' chairs 'n' everythin'-- oh! Oh. That's good. Be seein' you soon, then."
"Indeed."
Red Rooster Stead… How ironic that this was the place she first asked that woman to help her. The place she used her knowledge to help the Exiles interrogate that assassin. This is the place she first stepped into the mud, and even when one wades in with the intent to step out soon after, they will find that their feet are still dirty until cleaned.
"That's why I asked you t'rent it out. Bad enough that I can't afford t'be seen by jacks 'n' the Storm."
Osric Melkire sighed. "Pissin' Red Rooster... used t'bunk in the Quay when I needed to."
Kiht arrived and heard the voices. Despite her intent, she was not too nervous. It was time to clean off her feet.
She sniffs the air as she enters the storage room then closes the doors; making a light creaking sound. "Osric?"
"Round the corner!"
Osric smirked at Kiht, and Kanaria wore her usual smile.
"Lo, Kiht."
The couple sat upon stacks of boxes behind a wall in the corner of the warehouse. It was dim and dusty, and Osric looked like a vagrant pirate who had brought a fair maiden into a secluded place for a seedy affair. But even Kiht would not speak such a thought to them.
Kiht glances between them and smirks lightly. "How romantic."
"You ain't seen romantic 'til you've been to the Torch on the right night."
Kanaria spoke sarcastically with a smirk. "Very."
"Like the night I found you under attack? Well, that was day I suppose..."
"..." Osric scowled. "That doesn't count."
The huntress lets out a soft snort. "Nay, I suppose it does not..." Her expression grows more serious. "Mayhaps this is not the best time, but I am not sure when that would be. I need to speak with you about the past... So that I can look to the future."
Osric blinked and shifted to face the Keeper. "Been a lot o' that goin' around. Reflection 'n' foresight, that is. Fair's fair; you've helped us more'n we can count, 'bout time we can help you."
Kanaria tilted her head slightly, curiosity showing within her lavenders.
Kiht nods slowly. "Have I helped you, or have I simply tried to undo what I may have caused?" She lowers her head a bit. "I do not know anymore... That sun on the beach, well, you reminded me of a mistake I had made. I am not sure you know the extent of it."
Osric had the gall to look ashamed. "Errrr... don't mind what comes out o' my mouth. Gods know, 'n' so does Kana, that I'm one t'rave, rant, and ramble.... That said, might be best that you explain. From the beginnin'."
She shakes her head slowly. "I lied to you... Mayhaps it was long ago, but I did do it. I thought I knew what honor was, but I was a girl. I might still be a girl. Experience has humbled me, and..." A pause. "I do not even remember what lies were told by people and what truths were revealed. It was one problem after another."
"Truth 'n' lies went hand in hand back then," Osric murmurs. "We were still learnin' where we each stood, with 'n' against whom."
"I let her go... The first time. I let that monster go." She tries to meet his gaze. "I do not even fully know why. Fear I would not admit, or mayhaps I fooled myself into thinking I knew honor. Mayhaps I just did not have it in me to kill her right then and there."
"You speak o' Banurein."
Kanaria glanced up to Ossy then back to Kiht.
Kiht slowly nods. "You know she got away from me, but what you do not know is the first time I could have killed her. We were in the midst of Gridania, but I could have. She was helpless..."
"...and y'chose Mercy over Justice." Osric spoke those words with a casual air... but the emphasis on them was clear.
The Keeper’s expression turns to stone neutral, but with a hint of tension. "I did not know what justice was back then. I was not the law, not the military. I was barely more than one who hunted animals. I had fought before... After the Calamity, but it is different when the one you face is helpless before you; no weapons, no emotions. Just a woman sitting on a bench..."
Kanaria interjected. "Did you know she would come to ruin us all at that point in time?"
Osric glanced at Kanaria. "That's a fair point. Did you?"
Kiht closes her eyes and shakes her head. "Nay, I did not..."
Kana pursed her lips lightly, thinking for a moment. "Hmm... Then there is no reason to be beating yourself over this." She sat up, folding her legs to one side. "It would be very different if you had known."
Kiht opens her eyes. "I am not sure it is that simple. I will not lie again. I knew she was wanted. Osric told me to let him catch her. I had a choice, and I chose to talk to her first. I wanted to know if she was truly deserving of the fate the Flames had in store for her. I did not know Osric well at the time, and I judged wrong."
Osric frowned. "What's past is past. She disappeared, aye, but the only one likely t'hold you t'account for that is Grimsong... 'n' she ain't here, 'n' we're not like to tell her."
Kanaria bowed her head in a slow nod. "I see." Lavenders looked up to Ossy then returned to Kiht. "Aye, we are good at keeping things hush, hush."
"Still leaves us wonderin' what brought this up, though. You said you're lookin' to the future."
The Keeper's ears lower. She reaches to untie her bandana. It was getting uncomfortable on her head. Everything was uncomfortable... "Mayhaps you misunderstand. I am not worried about the law. It is you two who were most hurt by my choice."
Osric snorted. "Don't rightly see how. Banurein leaves us well enough alone. It's Roen 'n' Gharen 'n' Delial she plays with. Worst thing t'come o' her for us was Cedric mistakin' Kanaria here for Raelisanne." He shrugged. "Was tryin' to catch the bitch on account o' Grimsong turnin' her coat. That was her condition."
Kanaria nodded. "Yes, that was a /fun/ time. I've never been detained in my life."
"...there was that one time where y'--"
Kanaria's gaze jumped to her bonded, eyeing him. "When I what?"
Osric seemed to wilt before her eyes. "...nothin'. Forget I said anythin'."
Kana pursed her lips at him and returned her gaze to Kiht.
Kiht nearly snorts. "Then why were you so angry? Hells, I put this off for so long because I expected I would have your daggers at my throat." She pauses. "I helped to fix Gharen, I am not sure all that she did to him could be undone. Delial has shite she has done as well, she has no right to judge, and I already told Roen this..."
Osric stared at Kiht, and worked his jaw for a moment or two. "I had a lot o' cause for anger, back then. I'd better explain...."
Kiht's fists tighten at her sides. One clenches her bandana. "May as well. My feet are stuck here for a time..."
He reached up and pulled his own bandana off, shaking his hair loose with a sigh. "Five cycles, I'd served with the Flames, the night I saw you 'n' Xydane speakin' with Erik."
"Two o' those, I'd spent drillin' new recruits. Wastin' m'life away, as it were, on account o' pissin' off the rich 'n' wealthy somethin' fierce. For that, I'd spent two moons in the oubliettes. The Blades gave me these." Osric ran his fingers over his left cheek, and his right eye.
"I was sick 'n' tired o' bein' pulled around, powerless... helpless... no purpose...."
Kiht's gaze remains fixed on him as he speaks, but she is still tense like a statue.
Osric shrugged. "Stumblin' across Vale's handiwork? Discoverin' that Mynhier had gone missin'? That a Garlean coeurl was plannin' on blowin' up half the gods-damned Jewel? That gave me purpose. That gave me room to work with. 'n' it grew, 'n' grew, 'n' grew... more 'n' more. I could stretch m'wings. At a word, folks'd line up t'speak their secrets 'n' desires, because I'd forged connections. Links to a chain, one that I held.": "...and then you balked me."
"You balked me, 'n' then all the folk I'd gone t'such lengths to ingratiate m'self with, to earn their trust... they started lookin' at me funny. Lookin' at me sidelong."
"I /hated/ that, 'n' I hated you for bein' the cause." Osric scowled... but not at Kiht. At himself, more like.
"I missed m'chance at Banurein. Epinoch came along, and after the chaos he left in his wake, her pawn... Taeros... his power 'n' influence grew. Mine was left in /pieces/."
"Now d'you get it? Now d'you understand? I was a child throwin' a tantrum."
She goes quiet for a moment as she frowns. "I was a child trying to be a Matriarch. Mayhaps we had much in common... Even if our lives made us something different."
"Aye. I stopped hatin' you, y'know. After that talk we had o' jackals."
Osric fell silent for a moment, and then... then he whispered four words across the room to her. "After you accompanied Roen."
Kanaria Melkire thumbed over to Ossy. "You should see him when he's sick. Anyroad, I believe we've all moved on from that point, yes?"
"...oi!" Osric pouted.
Kiht raises both brows, and is made speechless for another moment before she gives a slight nod.
"So, little sister. We clear? You don't owe me anythin'. I was a fool, same as you."
The Keeper lets out a long exhale. "I recently learned that I need to understand honor. It is not something I have just by following a code. And that is why I am here. Not only to confess, but to tell you what I plan to do about it."
Osric leans to one side, towards Kanaria. "I hate confessions. Remind me o' gods-damned Ishgardian orthodox."
"...go on, then."
Kanaria snickered lightly, he was such an arse.
"We are clear, but I still feel I need to do something." She speaks after a pause.
"That's life, aye. We keep movin' or else the guilt gets t'us. This about Banurein in the end, then? Or are y'still goin' on about apologies 'n' Justice 'n' makin' things right by payin' off debts?"
"In the end, who did she serve? That monster in woman's form." Kiht asks as she regards Osric.
Osric blinks. "Huntress, I know not." His frown deepens, and he looks to Kanaria. "I'm startin' to talk like /him/. Slap me, next time."
"Garleans... I did not tell you that either? .... Shite. That part was not intentional. I mean, she serves herself, but she gets support from Garleans."
"...that'd explain Jameson's ceruleum-powered suit." Osric pinches the bridge of his nose. "Ain't a soul in Ul'dah who could make somethin' like that, not since the Ironworks moved to the Toll."
"That it would, and I will slap you." Kana adds.
"I said next time!"
Osric shuffles away from Kanaria and blows her a raspberry.
"Yes next time, not now."
"So. Garleans."
Kiht relaxes her posture a bit more now that the two are playing around. "I have decided to hunt monsters. I will not shy from ending them. But there are monsters at the throats of Eorzea as we speak. Those Garleans."
"...if you're meanin' their forces stationed at their castri, or the gods-damned spies 'n' informants they've slipped into our midst, good on you."
Kanaria lofted a brow at her but said nothing, her thoughts her own at the moment.
"But I /won't/ be hearin' o' you takin' on m'earlier request without the others. That's /suicide/."
Things were going smoothly, Kiht thought, and everything felt normal with Orsic interrupting her long, speech-like statements. People loved to do that to her…
"Many times they have encroached into East Shroud from Gyr Albania, and Castrum Orriens sits there in my home like a giant boar that thinks it is supposed to be there. I am tired of it. Are you not tired of them?" She asks like a grumpy old person who wants some kids off her lawn.
"...I am," answers the Lominsan after a moment's hesitation. He glances towards Kanaria. "But I've certain obligations, and... truth be told... my interest ain't in Oriens but what lays beyond it." He looks back to Kiht. "Word from the Flames has it that more 'n' more men and women are bein' sent north, to be stationed with the Resistance. I know one too many good souls... many o' which I instructed... t'just sit 'ere and not do what I can t'bring them all back home."
Osric speaks up again, before Kiht can. "That said! We're resolvin' business at the moment, both here 'n' with the Dauntless. Ain't sure how long that's like to take."
Kiht curtly nods. "Then you know as well? While Orriens and the Shroud -are- my concern, that is not my solution. Nay, I heard rumors of the resistance; the only people with the spine to take the fight to the Garleans in Gyr Albania. I am not Ala Mhigan, but I and a few of my friends have been thinking of joining their fight."
Osric eyes Kanaria, catches her attention, and just... stares at her. "Give us a moment, Kiht. While y'do, I've a question t'put to you."
Kanaria shifted her gaze up to Ossy, she glanced back to Kiht a few times before giving him an odd look.
"Ask me anything."
Kana smiled up to him and nodded.
"Are you doin' this out o' concern and a genuine stake? Or jus' because you're feelin' guilty as all hells?" He asks Kiht.
Kiht turns and paces for the door. "Call me back when done."
The huntress was surprised, and it seemed she surprised them. As she waited outside the warehouse, her mind had not left it. Even when she made it clear what she did, and why it was wrong, they let it go. It was like an old burden she had forgotten about had been lifted from her shoulders.
She was unaware he hated her once. Though the revelation did not surprise her. The Keeper’s old code had always been something most did not understand. Justice had always been something she saw akin to laws from city-states. Their idea of ‘justice’ was something she was never interested in. It was not this breach of Justice that made her regret her choice… It was how much she misjudged Raelisanne, and how she let someone go who brought suffering to others. Kiht let an enemy of Eorzea go even if the woman claimed not to be. She let a Garlean go even if the woman claimed not to be one.
In Kiht’s protest against city-state ideas of ‘Justice’, she overlooked a far simpler justice… Enemies and their allies must be stopped. Garleans bombed the Shroud before the Calamity, and they continue to try to invade. Anyone who works with them is not just an enemy of the city-states, but an enemy of those who call the forest home.
"Kiht? Y'can come on back, now." Osric's voice came through her pearl.
Kiht made her way back in. Her answer had been made long before she left the warehouse. He did not know how long she had been thinking on this.
"Your answer first. Then ours."
An audible breath escapes Kiht. "This place is stuffy." She composes her thoughts. "I am doing this for stake and concern. I give you my word. It is simply the guilt that opened my eyes. Made me see I have to fight the battles of those who fight the ones that invade my home. I must care for others; not just my little corner of the woods."
Osric considers that for a few moments. "That... is the answer of a matriarch. Yes. Our answer is yes."
Kanaria nods in agreement.
The Keeper smiles. "Grand.... What are you saying 'yes' to?"
"We'll help. Soon as we're clear of our own dangers, which we will be. Soon enough, anyroad. We'll come with when the time's right 'n' knock down the gates o' Oriens on both ends. Down the path 'til Ala Mhigo we'll go, if need be."
"On one condition."
Kiht grows an expression of understanding now. "Grand! That is good to hear. I... Do not have as many allies as I once had. I am glad you two are still among them."
She perks a brow. "What is the condition?"
"...Been some time since our paths crossed often." He throws a meek grin Kanaria's way, then turns back to Kiht with pride. "We've two daughters now. One's adopted, the other's blood. You'll understand if we keep our distance from the worst of it, for their sake."
"Aye." She blushed softly thinking of their little ones.
Her eyes blink as her mouth goes slightly agape. Her ears perk up as she grows a grin. "You have children?" Her voice squeaks a bit.
But she quickly clears her throat. "....Indeed, I understand. I am glad... I mean, congratulations."
As she concluded her talk with the two, and said her farewells, she could not help but feel some of her old strength return. She heard one more thing uttered from Osric as she left. "...That wasn't what I expected."
It was not what she expected either. The most challenging thing in nature is balancing fear and bravery. It is easy to get wrong; even for the oldest and wisest of us. It felt like every cycle brought her more caution. Wisdom tempered much in her. However, she was not ready to get rid of her bravery, and this dusk reminded her that she still had it.
She will no longer feel shame when he calls her ‘little sister’.