A Moment’s Respite
Roen sat at the edge of the cliff, her eyes looking out to the water. It shimmered under the night sky, the moon’s reflection a dancing white pool in the rippling dark sea. Her grey eyes followed a distant shooting star that streaked the dark canvas above, and as she watched it fade into the distance, she could not help but remember the last time she watched a shooting star. It was when she was ten, over the skies of Garlemald. She had managed to get herself onto the roof of her home -- after much coaxing since she was not fond of great heights -- and had spotted one: a streak of silver across the eastern sky. How beautiful she thought the sky was then. And it was under those stars that she declared that her path would be to knighthood.
How naive had she been? Striving for knighthood within the Empire meant she would do all she could to protect the citizens of Garlemald, and through that, the world, for the Empire sought to protect the world in its ever-expanding embrace.Â
But her ideals and patriotism were shattered like the lesser moon Dalamud that descended from another dark sky, its angry fire seeming to burn the heavens themselves. When she ran away from Carteneau that day, she also ran away from her beliefs, and all that she held dear. She lost her home and her beliefs.
But when this day dawned, Roen had been prepared to go back. She was meeting with a Garlean agent who was to arrange for her transport back to the Empire in exchange for the safe return of Brenden Deneith.Â
It did not go as intended. The members of the Ala Mhigan Resistance somehow learned of the Garlean spy within Thalanan and had interrupted their meeting. The man she had come with had come prepared, however, and had made his escape.
Roen had not. She was knocked unconscious, and when she had come to, she was greeted with pains and aches... and a familiar voice.Â
Gharen, her Master in Arms loomed over her. The face that she was often most eager to see was the one she least wanted to gaze upon now. But before she could explain why she was there, other members of the Resistance demanded to interrogate her. Gharen refused to turn her over. A fight ensued, despite her best efforts to stop them from doing so. After all, he knew nothing about her adoptive father being kidnapped, nor her intention to trade herself for his release. She did not want him turning against those he had allied himself with because of her mistake.
But when the fight came to an end and tempers calmed, they finally listened to her -- even the young Highlander girl who had been brought to unconsciousness by the hand of Master Gharen. The girl, Daena, woke up furious, but held her tongue long enough to hear Roen’s plea for her father. Roen learned that the girl's father was Ruva Ghurn, the man who had fallen from the bridge at Nanawa Mines. Roen also learned that while the Resistance was ambushing the Garlean agent she was meeting with, an assassin had come and killed Ruva Ghurn at Lost Hope.
The members of the Resistance who were there -- Hroch, Shaelen and Daena -- all remained suspicious of her, but… when she explained the events, and with Gharen Wolfsong’s support, they seemed to believe her story. And they agreed to help her rescue her father, who they guessed from the location he went missing that he may be in the Castrum in Western Thalanan. Daena even extended her hand to Roen at the end, and offered to help rescue him, in exchange for Roen’s help in whatever the Resistance needed. Desperate to help her father, Roen agreed.
And now Roen sat by the cliffs on the Northern end of the Black Shroud, looking out to the sea, while her Master at Arms worked behind her to set up camp. He had brought her to one of his remote campsites to stay under the Garlean’s notice while the woman named Shaelen worked to obtain schematics and plans to Castrum Marinum. Since the exchange never happened, Roen was still a wanted woman by them. Perhaps by staying hidden, she could buy some time for Brenden Deneith, if they thought she was captured as well by the Resistance. Unless they assumed that the ambush was a planned treachery on her part…
Roen lowered her head over her arms and rested against bent knees, finding the crushing weight of worry and dread for Brenden Deneith too heavy to bear. She closed her eyes, trying to shut out all of the events that had happened. Just yesterday she was standing in the ravine in Western Thalanan with Natalie...
“What are ye thinkin’ lass?†Gharen broke the silence that had fallen.
Roen glanced up behind her to her Master at Arms who had come to stand just behind her. A campfire was crackling behind them. She sighed. “I … passed.†She looked up at him wistfully. “I passed the Trials.â€
“For?†He arched a brow.
“Sultansworn. I passed all the Trials. Yesterday was the last one.†She looked out to the dark sea forlornly. “I suppose that does not matter now.â€
"Why? Ye think they would nae accept ye?" He settled to a seat next to her.
Roen blinked, looking at him. “Not after they learn where I was born.â€
"Who say's they're te know.†He shrugged. “An' worse case if'n they dinnae accept ye, tha' such a bad thing? Tis a title. An' one tha' binds ye at tha'."
She regarded him thoughtfully for a moment, then gazed back out to the water. "I will gladly give up any title if it meant saving my family." She nodded to herself . "I still have my Oath. I can still serve."
"Good, ye'd be a poor Sultansworn otherwise. 'Sides, no harm in bein' a lowly free paladin." Roen could hear a hint of sarcasm. "Able te serve all people rather than jus' those o' Ul'dah."
Roen paused and looked back at him. “You are a free paladin.†He was the one who taught her some of her skills after all.
“Aye. As part o' my training as a weaponsmaster, I follow tha' path." He nodded. “I think ye’d make a fine Sultansworn. But th' title carries with it many things, an oath tha' binds ye te th' word o' th' Sultana's fer one.â€
She sighed and rested her head on her arms again. “I will be lucky if I do not end up in the gaols. But after tonight, my future is the furthest thing from my mind, Master Gharen. Safety of those I care for takes priority. It is the reason I wanted to be Sultansworn in the first place.†She frowned, growing more sullen. “But instead I brought danger to their doorstep. Perhaps starting anew, was never meant to be. Perhaps you cannot run from your past.â€
"Oh come on now. Tis nae so bad. We'll wrestle yer da out from under them soon enough. An ye don' need some fancy title like Sultansworn te do tha'."
Roen blinked, looking back at her mentor, some of her darkness fading. "If you say we will, then I will believe in that. He saved my life. I will do the same."
He grinned back at her, lightening the mood. "Good. Sides how many o' th' stuffed n' shiny armor wearing folks in there can say they raided a Castrum an’ walked away? T'will be fine."
Roen’s lip twitched, suppressing a smile. "Aye." She nodded, as if to herself.
"Alrigh' then. We best get yer sword and armor ready.†He stood, extending her a hand. “Cannae send ye in there jus' armed with harsh language."
Roen blinked again, accepting his hand in getting to her feet. “I… would wield that poorly, I imagine.â€
She could see amused lines appearing around the corner of his eyes as the fire crackled beside them. "Aye, t'would be entertain'n te behold I bet."
Roen almost chuckled. After a pause, she met his eyes squarely. “Thank you,†she murmured, for all the things she could not say.
He regarded her thoughtfully. "I can understan' why ye dinnae say anythin' but I really wish ye had told me." When she furrowed her brows in shame, he gave her a look of reassurance. “Jus, no more surprises fer th' time bein' okay?â€
Roen nodded, lowering her gaze. They walked back to the campfire, and as he readied the tents, she attended to her armor and sword that she had retrieved from Ul’dah. She laid the cobalt winglet across her lap as she held the whetstone in her hand, and studied the reflection of the fire against the finely crafted sword. “This is a fine blade, Master Gharen. I thank you.â€
"Yer welcome lass. If anythin' ye deserve it." Gharen looked over his shoulder as he propped up a canvas of tanned leather for shelter.
“I did nothing to deserve it.†She shook her head. “I only seem to bring trouble to those I care for.â€
"...Ye worry too much lass. Ye know tha?"
Roen blinked. “Do I?â€
Gharen continued to set up the tent, hammering spikes into the ground to anchor some ropes. “Aye. There are some things ye cannae do anythin' about. Where yer born is one o' those things, what matters is what ye decide te make o' it and what ye do with yer life.â€
She pondered that for a moment. “And what do you want to do with your life, Master Gharen?†she asked, paused in her task, watching him.
"Used te be simple.†He shrugged. “Get by day te day, an' become a greater Ala Mhigan weaponsmaster than my Guardian claimed te be." He tugged on the rope to test the tension, the tanned leather canvas held aloft above their heads. He turned back to her. "Now? Tha's nae quite so important. Bein' a good an decent individual's th' goal."
A smile rose to her lips. “That is a worthy goal.†She began to work the whetstone against the blade, sharpening the edges.
"Strivin' fer tha, was my trainin' te become a paladin. Nae always easy, but bein' decent an' good te others certainly helps." He tied the last corner of the canvas, the rope winding around a trunk of a thick tree.
"But other than the ways of a shield and sword, being a paladin is..." She paused. "It is a path. And not an easy one. I am still struggling with it.â€
"Aye, one ye ultimately decide te walk on yer own. Was nae easy, if'n tha's what ye think.†Gharen sat down next to her and reached into a pouch to pull out a light blue soul stone. “When I received this, I had nae prayed te th' twelve in many cycles. Afterwards? I cannae count how many times or how many rivers I almost threw this inte."
Roen blinked. “It was given to you?â€
Gharen continued to study the small stone in his hand, rubbing his thumb over it. He was quiet for a moment before speaking. “Before we’d  met, a friend o’ mine had gotten ill, and I left lookin’ fer a cure in Coerthas. I was wounded after fightin’ a pack o’ wolves one night and was stranded in a cave by a blizzard. I thought I was goin’ to die there, so in th’ dirt o’ the cavern floor, I made symbols of Halone and Azyema and said a prayer fer my friend.†He glanced to the campfire, where the flames were dancing against the wind.
“I passed out after tha’ and sometime later I woke te find a fire started an’ my wound mended. A man was there, he asked me who I’d prayed for, an I told him. Cannae recall much else… but I passed back out soon enough. When I came to, he was gone an’ had left this behind.†He held out the stone as if to show her.
Roen blinked, staring at him then the stone. “He was a paladin then.â€
"Mayhaps, although there be no sign o’ him the day after. Fer a time I wondered if'n I was crazy an dreamed it all.†He let out a chuckle. "It took a lot o' lookin' inside myself an more'n a few visits te th' Sanctum o' th' Twelve to find th’ path. But in order te walk the path o’ th’ Dragoon and th’ Paladin, I needed to find th’ acceptable balance. †He tucked the stone away. "It has nae been... easy te say th' least."
“I see…†she pondered. “If anyone has the will and strength to find peace and balance, I would trust that would be you, Master Gharen."
"Well, I thank ye lass.†He glanced up at the drumming of heavy raindrops against the leather shelter above them. “Places like this help… when o' course it's nae droppin' a torrent o' rain upon ye."
And as he predicted, the raindrops quickly turned into a stormy downpour, the stars having escaped behind thick black clouds. Roen closed her eyes and breathed in the wet air, listening to the rainfall. She always could take some measure of comfort in the rain, heavier the better.
“I like the rain,†she said quietly. “It reminds me of her.â€
“O’ who?â€
“My mother,†Roen stared out into the rainstorm. “She smelled of lavender, and sung me lullabies when it rained.†A wistful sigh escaped her lips. “Not all Garleans are monsters,†she added, and looked back at her mentor.
His gaze upon her was warm. "Course, if'n I thought that I'd nae have started a fight back in th' cave. Problem is perception.â€
“Aye.†Roen nodded, and offered him a meek smile."I did not want to cause trouble for you. I am glad they listened. Eventually.â€
"Tis fine. Though I'd prefer next time I'm tryin' te defend ye," he grinned. “Don' turn yourself over."
Roen frowned ruefully. “I thought that would stop them from attacking you.†She rubbed at the side of her head where that ache had returned with the cold.
Gharen narrowed his eyes, then stood, setting out a bedroll near the fire. “Ye’d best try and get some sleep lass. That’s goin’ te be a hell of a knot when ye awake.†He then crouched by the campfire to stoke the flames. “Go on, sleep. We got a big day ahead o’ us tomorrow.â€
Roen set her sword aside and curled into the bedroll set out her for. Her eyelids were growing heavy as soon as she laid her head upon the ground. She had not realized how exhausted she was.
“Sleep well, lass,†she heard him say, as sleep took her.