Lust vs. Chasity: 2
Easily the lowest of Eva's scores, but not something she would inherantly consider 'wrong', she has not had many romantic partners. Â She is exceedingly slow to fall in love, but once she does she gives over to baser desires and has a voracious sexual appetite almost unbefitting the rest of her character traits. Â This said she is content being unattached for lengths of time. Â When in a relationship she is driven by a strong sense of devotion in a monogamistic relationship and the focus of her lust will nearly always be an individual who has taken a considerable (exorbitant?) amount of time to prove to her that her affections are being firmly reciprocated (pun was not originally intended XD). Â In short, her sense of lust is there and often reined in by careful discipline. Â It would take some extreme circumstances for her to act on such impulses without a well-cemented foundation of a relationship underlying the encounter. Â Her upbringing was such that infidelity was viewed as the greatest of sins and she grew up in observation of its consequences. Â So few will ever see this side of her.
Gluttony vs Temperance: 9
Gluttony is one of the more dynamic of these ratings for Eva's character. Â She grew up under circumstances where she was around well-cooked food often, the daughter of a knight-turned-chef. Â From the age of 8 or so after moving to Gridania and growing up somewhat ostracized as duskwight living in Gridania - a primarily wildwood culture - her insecurities manifested themselves and she ate herself into obesity over the next several years. Â It wasn't until her mid-20's that she began to learn other ways of coping with her problems and found more happiness in her life. Â Since that time she has lost a good deal of weight and is much more cognizent of her sense of self-control. Â She now eats very small portions and seldom ever overindulges. Â I didn't give her a 10 outright because she does still have a strong fondness for tea, and considers chocolate to be her weak point and will occasionally give in despite her self-interest.
Greed vs Charity: 10
Eva has never been greedy. Â She grew up with that which she needed and was taught to be grateful for it. Â The victim of the Calamity she has lost most of her belongings and simply didn't care. Â Her values are the people close to her and her friendships. Â She gives most of her time and gil to others and only keeps what she absolutely needs for herself and her babies, at times lamenting that she wishes she had more time and money to give.
Sloth vs Diligence: 9
As with Gluttony/Temperance, this was dynamic of Eva's character and her score would have been much lower when she was younger. Â Now in her mid-30's she realizes the importance of leading a somewhat kinetic lifestyle only after spending most of her 20's with her nose buried in books. Â She is an avid swimmer, runs during the colder months, and trains regularly now. Â She still feels that book knowledge is good, but has come to learn - perhaps later in life than most would-be adventurers - that going out into the world and experiencing life for herself is even more important.
Wrath vs Patience: 9
Eva is a paragon of patience - to the point of sometimes seeming to be a bit of a pushover in certain ways. Â There are reasons that I am not going to get into in this post why she is extremely slow to anger. Â This is not to say that she does not get annoyed or bothered by certain things, but in the three or more years we have been RPing her, she has only reached what could be considered true 'anger' on one occasion - and it wasn't pretty. Â She is also a new mother though, which almost certainly brings with it a slew of opportunities for anger. Â I did not give her a 10 because she does feel irritation or annoyance sometimes with certain people or in certain types of situations, though is usually good about veiling this.
Envy vs Kindness: 10
I don't think Eva is capable of feeling jealousy. Â As a fatalist she believes things are as they are for a reason and derives solace from this. Â She is not one to covet possessions, status, wealth, power, or anything else. Â She shows kindness to all, with only a limited amount of caution, until someone gives her a reason not to. Â And even then she has shown kindness in the past to those who do not like her for various reasons. Â It is just her way.
Pride vs Humility: 7
This was a tough one to rate because I can see instances where she can fall at both ends of the spectrum. Â Eva generally abhors arrogance and vanity in people. Â She is also recently aware of her own self-image and how she sometimes appears to others and inwardly may feel some sense of pride at how she overcame some difficulties in her life, lost a lot of weight, and while the stares of men (and I suppose some women) made her feel awkward she has grown more accepting of it in recent times. Â In deed and in word she is modest, dresses conservatively (unless there is some tactical reason to flaunt curves - hardly ever), is considerate to everyone, and truly feels she is no greater than anyone else.
Does your character lean more towards the Sins or the Virtues?
Eva by and far leans a lot more towards the virtues than the sins. Â She is a priestess, counselor, caregiver, and is aware that her role in life is one that is more selfless. Â She is a listener and as a RPer she is very much more reactive than proactive.
Which Sin does your character most emulate?
I don't think any of the given sins are really vast portrayed in RP. Â Lust was given the highest rating, however this is not a trait that plays out publicly. Â And even then I'm not she sure objectifies her mate, nor sees her impulses as being something she's unable or unwilling to control.
Which Virtue does your character most emulate?
Kindness and Charity are probably both the virtues that are emulated. Â She gives of herself to her family, friends, people in need, strangers. Â She does this for no ulterior reason nor to make herself feel good. Â She truly views herself an instrument of the Twelve and wants to help make Eorzea better, even if only in small words and small deeds.
Which of these Sins or Virtues do you and/or your character believe they need to work on the most?
I think changing any of them too much would feel wrong. Â It has been awkward as Eva's lost more weight and grown more 'attractive' (I'm using this term loosely because social conventions, etc. Â I am fully aware that not everyone finds hourglass figures and huge boobies to be attractive) because her self-awareness has increased. Â She spent most of her life being a wallflower and not wanting to be noticed and now she's being gawped at and the progression has been slow and natural but it's still a much different thing than it was 3 years ago before Dalamud and all that back when she was still kind of pudgy. Â The character herself, if asked, would probably say she needs to work on charity more, and give more back. Â She is constantly looking for ways to improve things for the people around her - particularly her babies and her "babies" - those friends and acquaintances she cares about, even the ones who can be a bit stubborn or resistant to her way of showing her motherly affections.
"One of the deep secrets of life is that all that is really worth doing is what we do for others." Â ~ Lewis Carol
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