Jajara was raised with a "duty first, love second (if at all!)" mentality drilled into her, and for a time she obliged it. It's a nice and lofty ideal and being able to have that while fulfilling all that she is "supposed" to fulfill is awesome - and, as she had noticed, not always how things play out. Since leaving her home, though, she has gradually pushed herself away from tradition and has come to accept and even want love for what she might consider to be wholly selfish reasons. And that's okay! 'Cause now she's got an adorable boy to watch after and she couldn't be more pleased about it. It definitely helps that he can cook! Wooh wooh!
She's pretty garbage at expressing all that junk, though. All that mushy stuff is definitely tricky. So she works and plays breadwinner instead.
Delial, on the other hand, is much more jaded about it. When she loves, she loves deeply, and it is too often the case that she loses those precious few in one way or another. Generally by her own doing - be it by some form of sabotage or even violence. As such she is much more reluctant to afford anyone more than casual encounters or flirtations, ever steeling herself against falling into the trap of that dreaded sentiment.Â
It isn't something she doesn't want, however much she might say. She even confessed to someone that she had at one point desperately wanted children, and she is getting to a point in her life where her priorities have to shift if she wants to fulfill those wants. Whether or not she can, though...
She's pretty garbage at expressing all that junk, though. All that mushy stuff is definitely tricky. So she works and plays breadwinner instead.
Delial, on the other hand, is much more jaded about it. When she loves, she loves deeply, and it is too often the case that she loses those precious few in one way or another. Generally by her own doing - be it by some form of sabotage or even violence. As such she is much more reluctant to afford anyone more than casual encounters or flirtations, ever steeling herself against falling into the trap of that dreaded sentiment.Â
It isn't something she doesn't want, however much she might say. She even confessed to someone that she had at one point desperately wanted children, and she is getting to a point in her life where her priorities have to shift if she wants to fulfill those wants. Whether or not she can, though...
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