My character has three fears:
1. Losing her freedom.
How she copes: She goes to rather extreme measures to preserve her freedom, to the degree she ironically locked herself in a place with less freedom than she started because of her own fear of losing it.Â
2. Losing her ability to use magic/manipulate aether. (And being an underachiever in that area.)
How she copes: This is one of the things that she really cannot control. Her obsession with magic has led to severely deteriorating her health. She's aware of how self-destructive she's being, but she thinks "Well, I've gotten this far, not going to turn back now." To her, magic is her life purpose, and it leads to very skewed priorities on her part.
3. Endangering/Losing a friend because of her own incompetence.Â
It takes a lot for her to feel truly close to someone, and endangering them because of her own stupidity is something she is unable to forgive herself for. She has done this in the past, and even years later, she still has difficulty feeling plagued by guilt. She's not a very guilty person either, but this is a huge blow for her.
How do friends respond? Only two people are aware of all her fears, but number 2 is the most evident to those who are closer to her. Her obsession is often met with disapproval, as many can see how destructive her behavior can be, even though she hides most of it pretty well. Her closest friend once said that he couldn't continue watching her destroy herself, and if possible, keeps an eye on her to make sure she doesn't do something stupid. Can't say many others have seen it enough to measure a reaction from them.
Will she ever get over these fears? I can see 1 toning down, 2 has he possibility of disappearing if she finally begins to prioritize her life over her research, but 3 is bound to remain for the rest of her life.
1. Losing her freedom.
How she copes: She goes to rather extreme measures to preserve her freedom, to the degree she ironically locked herself in a place with less freedom than she started because of her own fear of losing it.Â
2. Losing her ability to use magic/manipulate aether. (And being an underachiever in that area.)
How she copes: This is one of the things that she really cannot control. Her obsession with magic has led to severely deteriorating her health. She's aware of how self-destructive she's being, but she thinks "Well, I've gotten this far, not going to turn back now." To her, magic is her life purpose, and it leads to very skewed priorities on her part.
3. Endangering/Losing a friend because of her own incompetence.Â
It takes a lot for her to feel truly close to someone, and endangering them because of her own stupidity is something she is unable to forgive herself for. She has done this in the past, and even years later, she still has difficulty feeling plagued by guilt. She's not a very guilty person either, but this is a huge blow for her.
How do friends respond? Only two people are aware of all her fears, but number 2 is the most evident to those who are closer to her. Her obsession is often met with disapproval, as many can see how destructive her behavior can be, even though she hides most of it pretty well. Her closest friend once said that he couldn't continue watching her destroy herself, and if possible, keeps an eye on her to make sure she doesn't do something stupid. Can't say many others have seen it enough to measure a reaction from them.
Will she ever get over these fears? I can see 1 toning down, 2 has he possibility of disappearing if she finally begins to prioritize her life over her research, but 3 is bound to remain for the rest of her life.
