(08-10-2015, 08:43 AM)LadyRochester Wrote: 1. Looking back at some of the first RP I engaged in, I cringe. Jesus fucking christ, I'd punch myself in the face. (And I started role playing about a year and a half ago, maybe a tad more.)
Technically, I started my first RP a couple of years back, but since I have participated in so little - relatively speaking - I still feel quite new to it and wouldn't dare call myself "experienced" or active.
...though having said all that, I have, on occasion, looked or thought back to some of my RP and I just.... don't know what I was thinking. I can't believe I was willing to write such things at the time and I become really, really embarrassed when I consider the idea that maybe my RP partner.... also... remembers.... *shudders*
It's like an even more intense sense of self-loathing than I tend to have with my appalling attempts at screenshot edits, haha ;;;;;
I also have a bad habit of altering some of my characters' dynamics because, due to the the large gaps I tend to have between RP sessions, my impression upon how or what they should be like/what I want them to be like differs from before. Not grossly, but it happens all the same.
And finally, I don't have a real talent for writing or story creation, so just today I was thinking about how my characters seem to lack... something. My friend has these characters who always have something going on in their own head, something other people don't know or don't see at first whereas I'm not sure I have ever worked toward emulating such a thing. I kind of just give characters a story along with their own internal conflict or reason for being a certain way at best but I don't really know... I am jealous of everyone elses' ability to write and conceptualise stories so well. Just once I'd like to create a character and story that my friend can love and be interested in rather than it always being the other way around. I realise I am relying on her to provide me with entertainment value but I am not doing enough to return the favour - or so I personally believe.
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Characters: Andre Winter (Hy'ur) / K'nahli Yohko (Miqo'te)
