Confessions, confessions, hm.
Well, I suppose I can start with the same thing everyone else has - I started back on AOL chats for online RP, but my very first full RP experience was a 2nd Edition DnD game where I basically played myself as a wizard. It... wasn't as cringe-worthy as you might expect, but the group fell apart when my parents wanted to keep me away from the game for a while - so I've always held this slightly egotistical view that I was keeping the group together.
As for current RP, there's a few things I could probably fess up about.
1. I have this horrible need to have to explain why my character would be somewhere. I actively shoot myself in the foot here and there because I want to RP with someone, but they're over "there" and my character is over "here" and I somehow get it into my head that I can't have it happen because there's no IC reason for my character to be over there. Which conflicts with another sort of hypocritical issue I have:
2. I really want to try and roll with all the punches that get thrown my way. Improve my improv and general RP skills - but I'm generally not very good at it, resulting in situations where something is happening and I'm just sort of... standing there doing nothing or providing meager input as I try to figure out how I want to have my characters handle it. And if it's suitably off-kilter or wacky enough - the "one-way-to-win Berserker" or the NPC that was haphazardly discarded by having them take a tumble to their death - I'll resort to complaining about it more than working with it. Which gets worse as this flows into:
3. I really don't like blocking people, and rather try to deal with them ICly as part of Part 2. However, this also means I'm purposefully putting myself in annoying situations from time to time and then will openly complain about it later. Even worse, the general solution of "blacklist them" oftentimes just irks me and I get all defensive about it.
4. Like several others, I'm rather nervous and timid about initiating RP. I don't want to interrupt anything, I worry that I might not have anything to actually bring to the RP, and I even worry that the other person or people involved might not even like my character. Add this to Confession #1, and you have someone who often fails to get that RP they yearn for. So, I instead just quietly ask over LS or FC chat "Hey, anyone wanna RP?" and then fade into silence and go back to FATE grinding or leveling Chachan's crafting classes.
And, um... well... there's one more that I feel the most awkward about mentioning...
Well, I suppose I can start with the same thing everyone else has - I started back on AOL chats for online RP, but my very first full RP experience was a 2nd Edition DnD game where I basically played myself as a wizard. It... wasn't as cringe-worthy as you might expect, but the group fell apart when my parents wanted to keep me away from the game for a while - so I've always held this slightly egotistical view that I was keeping the group together.
As for current RP, there's a few things I could probably fess up about.
1. I have this horrible need to have to explain why my character would be somewhere. I actively shoot myself in the foot here and there because I want to RP with someone, but they're over "there" and my character is over "here" and I somehow get it into my head that I can't have it happen because there's no IC reason for my character to be over there. Which conflicts with another sort of hypocritical issue I have:
2. I really want to try and roll with all the punches that get thrown my way. Improve my improv and general RP skills - but I'm generally not very good at it, resulting in situations where something is happening and I'm just sort of... standing there doing nothing or providing meager input as I try to figure out how I want to have my characters handle it. And if it's suitably off-kilter or wacky enough - the "one-way-to-win Berserker" or the NPC that was haphazardly discarded by having them take a tumble to their death - I'll resort to complaining about it more than working with it. Which gets worse as this flows into:
3. I really don't like blocking people, and rather try to deal with them ICly as part of Part 2. However, this also means I'm purposefully putting myself in annoying situations from time to time and then will openly complain about it later. Even worse, the general solution of "blacklist them" oftentimes just irks me and I get all defensive about it.
4. Like several others, I'm rather nervous and timid about initiating RP. I don't want to interrupt anything, I worry that I might not have anything to actually bring to the RP, and I even worry that the other person or people involved might not even like my character. Add this to Confession #1, and you have someone who often fails to get that RP they yearn for. So, I instead just quietly ask over LS or FC chat "Hey, anyone wanna RP?" and then fade into silence and go back to FATE grinding or leveling Chachan's crafting classes.
And, um... well... there's one more that I feel the most awkward about mentioning...
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