Okay, in the event that it will help someone somewhere, I'll share:
My views are unchanged as a person who has fought major depression alone, but I respect your feelings.
As I said, these hotlines are pretty amazing things. The most powerful medicine is talking about it. When you can have a conversation about it with someone who knows exactly what you're talking about and isn't humoring you or trying to throw sunshine and rainbows in your face, its so much easier to wrap your mind around what is going on. When you realize, "this isn't normal...and other people feel like me", you can start to either seek help or fight it yourself. I did not have access to the help. I fought on my own and then became the person my friends can talk to because I know what its like to have no one. But even then, I don't pity people who give up. It makes me angry.
One of the best habits I built for myself makes me look like a crazy person, but it does the job. When the emptiness, regret, and hopelessness start to haunt me, and my mind starts going over all the ways I've messed up,
I say, "Stop it." out loud. I command my mind to abandon those ideas. "Stop it stop it stop it." I'll whisper it in public. If I'm in my bed I'll say it at a speaking tone. The craziest part isn't how it looks but that is actually works.
My views are unchanged as a person who has fought major depression alone, but I respect your feelings.
As I said, these hotlines are pretty amazing things. The most powerful medicine is talking about it. When you can have a conversation about it with someone who knows exactly what you're talking about and isn't humoring you or trying to throw sunshine and rainbows in your face, its so much easier to wrap your mind around what is going on. When you realize, "this isn't normal...and other people feel like me", you can start to either seek help or fight it yourself. I did not have access to the help. I fought on my own and then became the person my friends can talk to because I know what its like to have no one. But even then, I don't pity people who give up. It makes me angry.
One of the best habits I built for myself makes me look like a crazy person, but it does the job. When the emptiness, regret, and hopelessness start to haunt me, and my mind starts going over all the ways I've messed up,
I say, "Stop it." out loud. I command my mind to abandon those ideas. "Stop it stop it stop it." I'll whisper it in public. If I'm in my bed I'll say it at a speaking tone. The craziest part isn't how it looks but that is actually works.
