If you tried really, really, really hard, perhaps you got to give yourself a look? Maybe you expect too much? Maybe you don't make your character exactly fun to interact with? Maybe you got too high standards what you want from random people?
What I can give as an advice, and I know it's not a luxury for everyone, but when I wrote Virella (temporary) into a corner, together with her partner OOC being away for a little while, I simply made Ave. Made a completely different personality, Hells, I even gone as far to roleplay a melee based character, a thing I never did in my roleplaying 'career'.
Maybe that is an option as well? Sometimes characters have an expiration day, and roleplaying them past that point isn't just worth it, even if it just to get a fresh breath of air before you can dust them off again. I know FFXIV isn't the most alt friendly game, but that's the thing what helped me to get back in the roll of things. I'd simply created a way too hard character to roleplay at this point (although plans are being made to get her back into the swing), and gone "fuck it, time for something new". Perhaps you should try that? I don't know, I'm just throwing some random thoughts out in here.
What I can give as an advice, and I know it's not a luxury for everyone, but when I wrote Virella (temporary) into a corner, together with her partner OOC being away for a little while, I simply made Ave. Made a completely different personality, Hells, I even gone as far to roleplay a melee based character, a thing I never did in my roleplaying 'career'.
Maybe that is an option as well? Sometimes characters have an expiration day, and roleplaying them past that point isn't just worth it, even if it just to get a fresh breath of air before you can dust them off again. I know FFXIV isn't the most alt friendly game, but that's the thing what helped me to get back in the roll of things. I'd simply created a way too hard character to roleplay at this point (although plans are being made to get her back into the swing), and gone "fuck it, time for something new". Perhaps you should try that? I don't know, I'm just throwing some random thoughts out in here.
