Need lots of hugs.
My mom has been really badly sick for a while, and I've been taking care of her (which with my own health issues has been very difficult). Â However, she's been VERY very stubborn and refused to eat very much, and last month the doctor told her she was malnourished. Â Try as I might, I still couldn't get her to eat much. Â I can barely stand on my own two feet, so it wasn't like I could just hold her down and force feed her, you know?
Today she ended up being taken to the ER and is being kept at the hospital. Â On top of malnutrition and a few other issues, she also apparently has pneumonia. Â I thought she seemed sick lately, but when I tried to suggest going to the doctor she would get violently aggressive. Â
I've been so panicked all day that I've had to take the maximum dosage of my already high dose anti-anxiety meds and I've been, shall we say, "praying to the porcelain god" quite a few times today. Â
I'm just so terrified that things are just going to get worse or that they are going to find something else is wrong. Â Our family has a history of bad health issues (I'm a cancer survivor, and so are both of my biological sisters and several cousins, and there are numerous other major health issues across our family). Â
And on a somewhat selfish note, I'm also pretty hurt that she doesn't want me to come see her. Â I can't drive, so I can't just show up. Â She also made sure to explicitly tell my sisters and my grandparents NOT to bring me to the hospital. Â I don't know if she's worried about my compromised immune system or if she's mad or what because she won't tell me.
My mom has been really badly sick for a while, and I've been taking care of her (which with my own health issues has been very difficult). Â However, she's been VERY very stubborn and refused to eat very much, and last month the doctor told her she was malnourished. Â Try as I might, I still couldn't get her to eat much. Â I can barely stand on my own two feet, so it wasn't like I could just hold her down and force feed her, you know?
Today she ended up being taken to the ER and is being kept at the hospital. Â On top of malnutrition and a few other issues, she also apparently has pneumonia. Â I thought she seemed sick lately, but when I tried to suggest going to the doctor she would get violently aggressive. Â
I've been so panicked all day that I've had to take the maximum dosage of my already high dose anti-anxiety meds and I've been, shall we say, "praying to the porcelain god" quite a few times today. Â
I'm just so terrified that things are just going to get worse or that they are going to find something else is wrong. Â Our family has a history of bad health issues (I'm a cancer survivor, and so are both of my biological sisters and several cousins, and there are numerous other major health issues across our family). Â
And on a somewhat selfish note, I'm also pretty hurt that she doesn't want me to come see her. Â I can't drive, so I can't just show up. Â She also made sure to explicitly tell my sisters and my grandparents NOT to bring me to the hospital. Â I don't know if she's worried about my compromised immune system or if she's mad or what because she won't tell me.
