...When you're sitting on the drawing board planning out every minute change to your character should something happen.
...Trying not to let the existential dread sit in that you've so many ideas. Poured so much time and effort into the character that no one (senpai) will probably ever notice them. Or that little quirk of theirs that doesn't even happen in actual rp because no one's triggering the right conditions spontaneously. Yes that obscure.Â
...Put a name to their parents' pirate ship and or sundries shop located in Gridania. That no one ever mentions or even goes to. A family that's supposedly wealthy and is a player in the Ul'dahn markets but bad decisions make your OOC gil hit only as much 6 digits. THAT EVERYTHING OOC IN THE CHARACTER HAS TO BE IC AS WELL THIS i210 GEAR LOOK DOES NOT MAKE NAH LOOK LIKE NAH IT BETTER SETTLE WITH THE i160 GEAR INSTEAD OF GLAMOURING IT! RAMEN/RAMOMO/REI HAS TO BE SITTING ON AT LEAST ENOUGH GIL TO BUY 5 LARGE GOBLET HOUSES! KURT WHY YOU NO HAVE PETTING ZOO?!
That it just eats you on the inside that you don't have the OOC resources to put IC locations up or otherwise IC aspects up. Oooh Amariyosities would look nice in the Lavender Beds.
Then you just sort of sit there. Trying not to let the existential dread sit in on the thought of the months of your life that'll go into making all of that a reality because you only have that one crafter that has a handful of glamour stuff on sale and some HQ i115 gear. The slow pace sets in...And the realization that maybe some of your plans may not happen. A personal relic that'll probably be even harder than all of the steps combined.Â
Then you try to find alternatives and spend weeks sorting through plans B-Infinity then go back to plan A because it feels right. Again the dread sets in and you start questioning what you're doing with your life.Â
Realizing you'll be putting for all that effort when you don't know, for example, how to OOCly run an IC shop that deals with all manner of stuff. A shop that no one will probably even be visiting. Two offices of characters who could sort of afford one that has no one in it not even yourself because you've other places to be like the Quicksand and no matter how much your character ICly prefers Gridania or Limsa they still end up staying in Ul'dah, complaining about the heat because most of the rp happens in Quickie Sands anyway.
The futility of your resistance sinks in.
The Quicksand pulls you deeper into its embrace as you struggle to stay away from it. All manner of crazy people hitting on your midlander guy and moonkitty in particular. Shh it says as it advises you to go quietly into the good night. Your raging against the dying of the light only making the demise quicker.
There is no escape... Momodi rules all rpers the same way Rowena rules all adventurers, raiders and pve'ers no matter how much they deny the glorious revolution. To the point that ICly your characters also acknowledge the true authority that dwarfs even the sultana. The House of Splendors is splendid indeed.
tl;dr OVERTHINKING THE THINGS. ALL THE THINGS, THE EFFECT THINGS, THE PAST PRESENT AND FUTURE THINGS, THE CAUSE THINGS, THE FAR REACHING THINGS, THE IMMEDIATE THINGS, THE TYING PVE AND RP THINGS. MY GOD I AM SORRY FOR THIS RANT.
...Trying not to let the existential dread sit in that you've so many ideas. Poured so much time and effort into the character that no one (senpai) will probably ever notice them. Or that little quirk of theirs that doesn't even happen in actual rp because no one's triggering the right conditions spontaneously. Yes that obscure.Â
...Put a name to their parents' pirate ship and or sundries shop located in Gridania. That no one ever mentions or even goes to. A family that's supposedly wealthy and is a player in the Ul'dahn markets but bad decisions make your OOC gil hit only as much 6 digits. THAT EVERYTHING OOC IN THE CHARACTER HAS TO BE IC AS WELL THIS i210 GEAR LOOK DOES NOT MAKE NAH LOOK LIKE NAH IT BETTER SETTLE WITH THE i160 GEAR INSTEAD OF GLAMOURING IT! RAMEN/RAMOMO/REI HAS TO BE SITTING ON AT LEAST ENOUGH GIL TO BUY 5 LARGE GOBLET HOUSES! KURT WHY YOU NO HAVE PETTING ZOO?!
That it just eats you on the inside that you don't have the OOC resources to put IC locations up or otherwise IC aspects up. Oooh Amariyosities would look nice in the Lavender Beds.
Then you just sort of sit there. Trying not to let the existential dread sit in on the thought of the months of your life that'll go into making all of that a reality because you only have that one crafter that has a handful of glamour stuff on sale and some HQ i115 gear. The slow pace sets in...And the realization that maybe some of your plans may not happen. A personal relic that'll probably be even harder than all of the steps combined.Â
Then you try to find alternatives and spend weeks sorting through plans B-Infinity then go back to plan A because it feels right. Again the dread sets in and you start questioning what you're doing with your life.Â
Realizing you'll be putting for all that effort when you don't know, for example, how to OOCly run an IC shop that deals with all manner of stuff. A shop that no one will probably even be visiting. Two offices of characters who could sort of afford one that has no one in it not even yourself because you've other places to be like the Quicksand and no matter how much your character ICly prefers Gridania or Limsa they still end up staying in Ul'dah, complaining about the heat because most of the rp happens in Quickie Sands anyway.
The futility of your resistance sinks in.
The Quicksand pulls you deeper into its embrace as you struggle to stay away from it. All manner of crazy people hitting on your midlander guy and moonkitty in particular. Shh it says as it advises you to go quietly into the good night. Your raging against the dying of the light only making the demise quicker.
There is no escape... Momodi rules all rpers the same way Rowena rules all adventurers, raiders and pve'ers no matter how much they deny the glorious revolution. To the point that ICly your characters also acknowledge the true authority that dwarfs even the sultana. The House of Splendors is splendid indeed.
tl;dr OVERTHINKING THE THINGS. ALL THE THINGS, THE EFFECT THINGS, THE PAST PRESENT AND FUTURE THINGS, THE CAUSE THINGS, THE FAR REACHING THINGS, THE IMMEDIATE THINGS, THE TYING PVE AND RP THINGS. MY GOD I AM SORRY FOR THIS RANT.
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