In Eorzea, adventurers are accustomed to monsters and foes, and with dispatching them, often lethally. We have warriors brandishing huge axes, thaumaturges slinging fire and lightning, and archers and machinists firing projectiles into all sorts of foes. Violence is a normal part of the adventurer's challenges.
However, Zigovali is not an adventurer.
Zigovali lived on Pearl Lane for many years, so violence was something he did see, though not every day, and rarely lethal. He himself has been non-violent, both by principle and by lack of means. But his recent and rapidly growing proficiency in arcanima has given him access to many new offensive spells, including his new favorite, Broil.
Yet until last night, he had only used Broil on practice dummies, or on sufficiently-protected opponents in tournaments. But last night, he finally used Broil on an enemy, and the resulting blast killed them. He did not realize what he had done in the heat of the moment, but once the dust had settled, it dawned on him, and sent him into shellshock.
Zigovali now has to deal with the crushing guilt of taking a life--something he is very unaccustomed to. He has only been skilled in wordplay and diplomacy until now; he is not at all the sort of man to be alright with killing someone personally, and he definitely lacks the mental fortitude to resist the guilt. Will he ever use magick offensively again, having taken a life? We'll have to see.
However, Zigovali is not an adventurer.
Zigovali lived on Pearl Lane for many years, so violence was something he did see, though not every day, and rarely lethal. He himself has been non-violent, both by principle and by lack of means. But his recent and rapidly growing proficiency in arcanima has given him access to many new offensive spells, including his new favorite, Broil.
Yet until last night, he had only used Broil on practice dummies, or on sufficiently-protected opponents in tournaments. But last night, he finally used Broil on an enemy, and the resulting blast killed them. He did not realize what he had done in the heat of the moment, but once the dust had settled, it dawned on him, and sent him into shellshock.
Zigovali now has to deal with the crushing guilt of taking a life--something he is very unaccustomed to. He has only been skilled in wordplay and diplomacy until now; he is not at all the sort of man to be alright with killing someone personally, and he definitely lacks the mental fortitude to resist the guilt. Will he ever use magick offensively again, having taken a life? We'll have to see.
