I'm ashamed that I was planning to sneak out from the house before any of them was aware that I had been there at the Dusk. I guess it was probably good that was more exhausted then I thought. Warren must have found my pack on the stairs when I came down. I'm not sure how long he had been there when he woke me. I guess, it was those moments when I could have lied but Warren probably would have saw through it so I told him the truth. The rumors among the guards, how I wasn't feeling as if I wasn't doing any good, and that I no longer felt like I was connecting with any of them. Even now, it still hurts, knowing that I fail in something I wanted to do, something that my sister has done for Eorzea.
I stay there for the rest of that night into late afternoon before I finally slip back to Ul'dah with my tail between my legs. Sam was there when I walk into the home and I admit I wasn't sure why he was there, til I saw the transfer papers in his hand. Thaliak's grace, he tried not to look it but I could see the 'I told you so' in his eyes. I'm not sure how long I cried again how many more tears I will shed before the hurting stops.
At least being in Ul'dah full time with allow me to check in on Joy more. I've been wanting to work with her math skill a little more. It was also good to be back in the clinic more now, though today was and 'odd' day. A couple of miners decided to brag over drinks and that lead to a fist fight, which lead to them being ship off to our clinic. I probably shouldn't have been standing over the highlander when he woke up because his fist ended up meeting my head. I remember a wave of anger, Pick's voice in my head, and then Mom was looking at me with concern as she was healing the knot on my head.
I look down trying to figure out why the ground was moving under me and I was startle to find the highlander out cold and that I was sitting on top of him, one of my daggers in my hand. I panic and was hiding when the Brass Blade came to haul the highlander off. Mom gave a full statement, and omitted how I used the handle of the dagger to knock him out. I'm not sure what is happening to me but it seems to have started since I used Pick's memories to not be John when I attend Khyran's trial. Maybe it just stress still playing havoc with me, especially with how I got back to Ul'dah after I went to the meeting last night. I'm not going to mention what happen at the clinic to Warren and the others. They would worry over something that has been clear up already.
I stay there for the rest of that night into late afternoon before I finally slip back to Ul'dah with my tail between my legs. Sam was there when I walk into the home and I admit I wasn't sure why he was there, til I saw the transfer papers in his hand. Thaliak's grace, he tried not to look it but I could see the 'I told you so' in his eyes. I'm not sure how long I cried again how many more tears I will shed before the hurting stops.
At least being in Ul'dah full time with allow me to check in on Joy more. I've been wanting to work with her math skill a little more. It was also good to be back in the clinic more now, though today was and 'odd' day. A couple of miners decided to brag over drinks and that lead to a fist fight, which lead to them being ship off to our clinic. I probably shouldn't have been standing over the highlander when he woke up because his fist ended up meeting my head. I remember a wave of anger, Pick's voice in my head, and then Mom was looking at me with concern as she was healing the knot on my head.
I look down trying to figure out why the ground was moving under me and I was startle to find the highlander out cold and that I was sitting on top of him, one of my daggers in my hand. I panic and was hiding when the Brass Blade came to haul the highlander off. Mom gave a full statement, and omitted how I used the handle of the dagger to knock him out. I'm not sure what is happening to me but it seems to have started since I used Pick's memories to not be John when I attend Khyran's trial. Maybe it just stress still playing havoc with me, especially with how I got back to Ul'dah after I went to the meeting last night. I'm not going to mention what happen at the clinic to Warren and the others. They would worry over something that has been clear up already.
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