After a lot of thinking, I have decided not to go through with this idea and to play a simple swordsman instead.
While we did established that it is indeed possible for an Au'ra dark knight to be made, the necessary IC loopholes, the lore bending and the suspension of belief required to all that would interact with me are in my opinion not worth it. When I first came up with the idea, I had figured it would be much more simple but I underestimated the importance that Ishgard have to this job, a city and a society that does not appeal to me in the slightest. And thus I can't RP something so bound to that place (or well, I don't want to).
I could have gone through with "the mentor is an exile" route, but I don't think I should. I do not usually take issues with bending the lore a little bit (thus proposing this idea in the first place) but there are limits to how much something can bend before you break it. And I believe this is where I draw the line for myself and my own standards.
It is true that some valid arguments were made in favor of the concept, but it would make me feel too much like Sidurgu. A lore figure that is special even by his main character standards. And that is not something I am comfortable to roleplay AS (not with, mind. I will never say what others can and cannot do, my point is about what I am doing for myself and my own enjoyment).
In the past few days, I have read many awesome posts of people offering their kindness and advice and some sent me very supportive PMs that gave me hope and inspired me to try write more about it. And that is why posting this is a bit difficult for me, I do hope they wont feel betrayed.
But ultimately I shall put the lore above my own desires, least I end up RPing in another universe altogether before I realize it. Even within the boundaries imposed by myself and the lore I am sure I can still make a character worth RPing with and as, which I am eager to present!
But please do not think all of this talk was for naught. If it wasn't for the feedback I read in here, I would have gone through with it and again, I would have still come to this conclusion. The harsh way.
So thank you everyone for your wisdom and support! I'll be seeing you in Eorzea and beyond.
While we did established that it is indeed possible for an Au'ra dark knight to be made, the necessary IC loopholes, the lore bending and the suspension of belief required to all that would interact with me are in my opinion not worth it. When I first came up with the idea, I had figured it would be much more simple but I underestimated the importance that Ishgard have to this job, a city and a society that does not appeal to me in the slightest. And thus I can't RP something so bound to that place (or well, I don't want to).
I could have gone through with "the mentor is an exile" route, but I don't think I should. I do not usually take issues with bending the lore a little bit (thus proposing this idea in the first place) but there are limits to how much something can bend before you break it. And I believe this is where I draw the line for myself and my own standards.
It is true that some valid arguments were made in favor of the concept, but it would make me feel too much like Sidurgu. A lore figure that is special even by his main character standards. And that is not something I am comfortable to roleplay AS (not with, mind. I will never say what others can and cannot do, my point is about what I am doing for myself and my own enjoyment).
In the past few days, I have read many awesome posts of people offering their kindness and advice and some sent me very supportive PMs that gave me hope and inspired me to try write more about it. And that is why posting this is a bit difficult for me, I do hope they wont feel betrayed.
But ultimately I shall put the lore above my own desires, least I end up RPing in another universe altogether before I realize it. Even within the boundaries imposed by myself and the lore I am sure I can still make a character worth RPing with and as, which I am eager to present!
But please do not think all of this talk was for naught. If it wasn't for the feedback I read in here, I would have gone through with it and again, I would have still come to this conclusion. The harsh way.
So thank you everyone for your wisdom and support! I'll be seeing you in Eorzea and beyond.
