Entry 11 - The Need to Rebuild:
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Arcadeus is scattered, but we're still doing our best to keep going. We still have people coming to us for employment and it all feels rather strange considering the circumstances. Despite the tragedy, many have remained hopeful and so have I. I do believe that Arcadeus can rebuild and rise again, out of all of the things that I've given up on, Arcadeus is not one of them.
Deep down, part of me wants to just give up, it would be so much easier if I did, but I always manage to ignore that thought and fight; It makes my life so damn difficult. Part of me hopes that maybe, just maybe this will convince Valen to come back, that's only if I can find him. Even after he gave his final goodbye, I couldn't help myself and continued to look for him. Of course, it proved to be of no avail and it just made me feel worse.
I know where Valen is, the others don't. Dami and I have organized a time and place for everyone to meet up, there is much that needs to be discussed and I'll be damn sure to tell them the last place I saw Valen.
I've realized that this isn't something I can do alone and after having a few suns to myself, and the help of a friend an acquaintance, I've also realized how pathetic I am.
I'm sorry for failing you, Valen. Perhaps everyone else who cares for you will convince you to come back and that you don't have to fight alone.
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Arcadeus is scattered, but we're still doing our best to keep going. We still have people coming to us for employment and it all feels rather strange considering the circumstances. Despite the tragedy, many have remained hopeful and so have I. I do believe that Arcadeus can rebuild and rise again, out of all of the things that I've given up on, Arcadeus is not one of them.
Deep down, part of me wants to just give up, it would be so much easier if I did, but I always manage to ignore that thought and fight; It makes my life so damn difficult. Part of me hopes that maybe, just maybe this will convince Valen to come back, that's only if I can find him. Even after he gave his final goodbye, I couldn't help myself and continued to look for him. Of course, it proved to be of no avail and it just made me feel worse.
I know where Valen is, the others don't. Dami and I have organized a time and place for everyone to meet up, there is much that needs to be discussed and I'll be damn sure to tell them the last place I saw Valen.
I've realized that this isn't something I can do alone and after having a few suns to myself, and the help of a friend an acquaintance, I've also realized how pathetic I am.
I'm sorry for failing you, Valen. Perhaps everyone else who cares for you will convince you to come back and that you don't have to fight alone.
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