K'ailia frowned at the lack of response but continued on as she continued decorating the desk, "When we returned to the tribe, I felt like a stranger in the camp. I kept feeling like I did not belong..."
She pulled from her bag some tribal hanging decorations and begun pinning them on the wall, "I thought maybe if I thought up a solution to the tribes problems, I'd find a place in the tribe I belonged... But the ideas were so alien to the tribe, the only ones even willing to hear them out was you and K'mana."
She turned and sat on the edge of the desk, "In a single instant of leaving the tribe, and experiencing the outside world, I became a stranger to the tribe... And I do not think going to any other city-state would of changed that..."
She sighed looking at the ground, "When we were on the scouting mission and K'ile said that you guys could not even mold me into a proper tribemate... I had knew then that I truly was a stranger to the tribe. And when I made the offer to learn from K'ile, and he told me to think twice because he'd make me mate, I realized, my only use to the tribe, to him at least, is to spread my legs and pump out kits."
She shook her head, "I will never mate. I will never look on a male with desires. I have no interest in any form of relationship of that nature. My only desire is to find where I belong... and I do not belong in the tribe..."
She looked to her mother, for any sign of the person she loved, who was there for every hurt she suffered, for the warmth she felt when she had a bad dream after the calamity. Was that loving mother still there?
She pulled from her bag some tribal hanging decorations and begun pinning them on the wall, "I thought maybe if I thought up a solution to the tribes problems, I'd find a place in the tribe I belonged... But the ideas were so alien to the tribe, the only ones even willing to hear them out was you and K'mana."
She turned and sat on the edge of the desk, "In a single instant of leaving the tribe, and experiencing the outside world, I became a stranger to the tribe... And I do not think going to any other city-state would of changed that..."
She sighed looking at the ground, "When we were on the scouting mission and K'ile said that you guys could not even mold me into a proper tribemate... I had knew then that I truly was a stranger to the tribe. And when I made the offer to learn from K'ile, and he told me to think twice because he'd make me mate, I realized, my only use to the tribe, to him at least, is to spread my legs and pump out kits."
She shook her head, "I will never mate. I will never look on a male with desires. I have no interest in any form of relationship of that nature. My only desire is to find where I belong... and I do not belong in the tribe..."
She looked to her mother, for any sign of the person she loved, who was there for every hurt she suffered, for the warmth she felt when she had a bad dream after the calamity. Was that loving mother still there?
