Poe's Journal Entry
Hesitant writing fills the page…Mota has shown up. It was confirmed this evening. Ace, Rose and Ry have all met her, spoke to her in and around town. I guess it was a matter of time. I didn’t find out right away. I had gone to the ship to say hi to everyone. It….was awkward. New Elezen seemed nice enough. Not much a fan of wine? Nev seemed ready to introduce him to all sorts of liquor. I like her.
Lina and S’anhu were at the table too. I don’t know why he spoke to me. There isn’t a lot to say, I ended up feeling awkward. They were asking him about his emotions. Menphina, I kept my mouth shut, I didn’t say anything. I…I wanted to but I didn’t. And he looked at me before he answered. I had to look away. Telling more lies others what they want to hear. That’s why he ever said it to me. I guess he didn’t want me to feel unwanted….too bad that backfired. And then S’anhu left. It was because of me. I can tell.
I…I had to get off that ship. I went to go fish, but came across Ami and Ace speaking. Talked with them both a few, I hope Ami is ok…then Rose showed up, said she had been talking to Ry. That was when I discovered Mota had been around. Mota using her typically tactics, Rose and Ace…I could sense that storm brewing. But we were able to focus on the issue. Aether crystals? I remember when I was young, my mother dragging me constantly to see this…I suppose medicine woman. Always asking about my connection with the aether flow.
Perhaps mother is jealous? Maybe she wants that power for herself…or for Mota? I know she had the medicine woman come out and do something with the very earth we had our garden in. Perhaps that power is failing, mother needs another to ‘fix’ the land so she can still continue to make a profit?
But with this discovery of Mota…came the questions about why I left the family in the first place. I tried to explain, I didn’t want my mother choosing a mate for me, for us…And I couldn’t stay there, watching Mota follow in her footsteps, caring little for those she hurts. I…I am not sure what they thought.
Ry called over the pearl and we ended up in a conversation about Keeper ways. Ry had stated to me before he had been claimed. I guess…well, we know they can be…unclaimed. Ry pulled me aside while Ace and Rose…settled their disagreement about Mota.
It’s clear by the large splotch of ink either the writing tool rested there a moment or it broke somehow…
Ry said he had feelings. That was why he kept saying he was afraid he would hurt me. Perhaps this heart of mine is a curse. I care about others….I care deeply. But I am not fragile. I would rather hear nothing than hear falsehoods. I am not sure how to take this information. I mean, we all have feelings…right? I am not sure if he meant…more intimate feelings?
Regardless…we have to go forward with finding information in Aleport. Find out why Sula needed those shipments times. I need to speak to Relan as well, not sure if his missing merchandise could have anything to do with this. I…Gods, I hope Relan is not mixed up with this.
