Poe's Journal Entry
My head is swimming. It is, I don’t really know what to think. I need to find Rose. She might have suggestions for me.After I ran off to see Relan, I returned to Ry’s place. It was nice that he was home that evening, he has been training so hard. A quiet night was exactly what I needed. And…then he said it. Yup, that he loves me. I go from having never heard it in my life, to hearing it from two different men once I join this crew. I….I was nervous at first. I remember when S’anhu had said it, I know he was under duress at the time, so that makes it different…or something.
Ry said it and I felt like he meant. He means it right? I even…I don’t even know if I asked him if he meant it, or just said that he must have meant it perhaps? I was so overwhelmed. I told him the same, because I do love him. He has been there for me, even if he hasn’t always seen eye to eye with others of the crew. Was it too soon? I fell asleep easily that night.
A return to Relan in the morning and I blurted it all out to him. The old man simply smiled at me and hugged me. I could tell by his face he thinks it cute…but he must not believe it’s real. I asked him outright and he smoked his pipe a moment, finally stating that we all having to go through different experiences to learn and grow; that my heart was big and I had the ability to care for everyone. So the old man thinks I am foolish….or I have much to learn…or something.
I packed my stuff for Lan-I-Mata’s. I just wanted to check on Joundi’s arm before I met her over at Fallgourd. I was directed toward where he was staying and walked in….he was swinging his axe around and I think I startled him. No one was hurt, but I could tell he was uncomfortable. Probably…well….he wasn’t wearing a shirt. He re-emerged once he was fully dressed and we talked about his arm…but the topic got off course. And then he was saying he knew I was with Ry but he just wanted to let me know he cared for me.
Rose….Rose! I need to talk to you right now!~
