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((Rather fitting theme for a rather bittersweet piece. Written in IC first person. Summary: Lili visits her late husband's headstone.))
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You were buried by the sea.
Looking out over the cliff face with the roaring waves and sea foam gathered at the base of the small drop, it felt like a fitting location for your resting place. Here, you could see the sunrise and sunset come and go on the same stretch of horizon. How the sky blushed maiden pink in the morning and grew a sleepy violet in the evening.
Even now, sitting besides your headstone, it brings a smile to my lips. The moment would be perfect, if only you were here besides me.
But...
"You're not." I said the words aloud, the sound being drowned out by the roaring tides but I knew you would hear me all the same. "Days like today have made me miss you. My heart. My Ghislan." I drifted my fingertips over the corner of the white stone. It was a beautiful headstone. His father carved it for us just before he passed, and it was one of the stonemason's finest works yet.
"As much as I miss you, and the children miss you, know that you are in our hearts. Especially in mine. Every time our son looks at us, I see you in his eyes. He's engaged, you know. To an Elezen. A -male- Elezen." I let that hang in the air. A spurt of wind blew my hair all over my face, making me laugh. "Hush. You don't have a say."
I let the silence linger.
"...I found someone."
Another little gust of wind, this time softer and more hesitant, blew over me.
"Well, two someones."
I didn't get a reaction for that one. Not that I blamed him. I could practically feel the incredulous torrent pouring off him. "It's complicated, dear, but...know that I'm happy. And they're good men. They treat Ado right, and that's one of the things that matters. It's not conventional by any stretch, but alas...I haven't been this happy in a while."
My eyes fluttered closed. Nothing but the cool sea air and the cold white stone beneath my fingertips. It gave me some time to my thoughts, letting the door to my inner thoughts slowly slide open.
"I have friends too. More then I've had in a while. I feel more comfortable letting others in then I once did. Especially since leaving the Vanguard. Yet...and yet..." There it came again. Every trip, without fail, that tightness in my chest began to swell and grow. Larger and larger, until I felt it may consume me. Drown me into nothingness.
"It sometimes feels empty. Because you're not here."
Looking out over the cliff face with the roaring waves and sea foam gathered at the base of the small drop, it felt like a fitting location for your resting place. Here, you could see the sunrise and sunset come and go on the same stretch of horizon. How the sky blushed maiden pink in the morning and grew a sleepy violet in the evening.
Even now, sitting besides your headstone, it brings a smile to my lips. The moment would be perfect, if only you were here besides me.
But...
"You're not." I said the words aloud, the sound being drowned out by the roaring tides but I knew you would hear me all the same. "Days like today have made me miss you. My heart. My Ghislan." I drifted my fingertips over the corner of the white stone. It was a beautiful headstone. His father carved it for us just before he passed, and it was one of the stonemason's finest works yet.
"As much as I miss you, and the children miss you, know that you are in our hearts. Especially in mine. Every time our son looks at us, I see you in his eyes. He's engaged, you know. To an Elezen. A -male- Elezen." I let that hang in the air. A spurt of wind blew my hair all over my face, making me laugh. "Hush. You don't have a say."
I let the silence linger.
"...I found someone."
Another little gust of wind, this time softer and more hesitant, blew over me.
"Well, two someones."
I didn't get a reaction for that one. Not that I blamed him. I could practically feel the incredulous torrent pouring off him. "It's complicated, dear, but...know that I'm happy. And they're good men. They treat Ado right, and that's one of the things that matters. It's not conventional by any stretch, but alas...I haven't been this happy in a while."
My eyes fluttered closed. Nothing but the cool sea air and the cold white stone beneath my fingertips. It gave me some time to my thoughts, letting the door to my inner thoughts slowly slide open.
"I have friends too. More then I've had in a while. I feel more comfortable letting others in then I once did. Especially since leaving the Vanguard. Yet...and yet..." There it came again. Every trip, without fail, that tightness in my chest began to swell and grow. Larger and larger, until I felt it may consume me. Drown me into nothingness.
"It sometimes feels empty. Because you're not here."
