As a thick molasses poured over bread did the commanding strains of the organs fill the cathedral. Echoing off stone walls, between pillars, and rattling the carefully set colored pains of glass in each window. A blissfully cacophonous noise that served to clear the mind of nearly anything but a sense of awe for the massive likeness towering over the first row of pews. Towards the back and strategically placed between the candles at the extremities of each row, Coatleque sat in shadow with her head bowed. Her lips parted occasionally though no sound accompanied the movement.
The heavy clap of armored boots slowly rose to match the sound of the music; the tell-tale sign of another approaching to either pay homage or offer supplications to Halone. It did not register at first that the newcomer had stopped just before the very row she sat within. Scanning the room with determined grey eyes, the familiar silhouette she was looking for was not present today. Her head canted when she spotted someone else. Someone she did not seek but was no less familiar.
Roen exhaled a long, measured breath. Her feet froze where she stood, an obvious hesitation in her balance as she shifted her weight from one foot to the other. She may have even considered simply leaving at that moment. Finally she set her shoulders straight and decided to approach the woman before her. A few more steps brought her to the edge of the row where she stopped once more to examine her from the side.
"Ser Crofte." The name was spoken quietly as if to keep it from traveling too far to disturb others yet just enough to carry over the sound of the organs. Coatleque made no move or acknowledgement at first. Her eyes remained closed, brows slowly creasing as she continued her own supplications. Whatever whispers may have carried to the other gave the impression of one asking guidance and forgiveness. She stopped at length yet did not turn her head. "Ser Deneith. You are here."
Only then did the realization occur to Roen that her former friend may have been in prayer. The gathering of her own thoughts and nerves to approach the Sworn had left no consideration to her meditative state. Not that it was an odd thing to find in this place - it is why most came to the cathedral. Yet she herself had yet to utter a single one herself. A few steps more were ventured into the row of seats but she did not rest herself. Not just yet. "I am surprised to find you here."
Coatleque's mouth twitched just at the edge but broke no smile nor belied any change of emotion. Yet the tenseness in her brow seemed to relax. "I could say the same of you, if not for Miss Llorn." She ventured no further explanation as none would be needed between the two of them. A slight tightness came to Roen's lips though her tone remained quiet and neutral. "Spahro." The woman's name was all she could say. There was another pause before she unhooked the scabbard from her belt and set it with her shield aside to take her own seat. A few fulms were left between them. A visible sign of the tension present in the air.
"Have you been looking for me?" The Sworn finally opened her eyes at the question but did not turn her head. She focused on a particular crack in the stone tile at her feet. Perhaps she was not ready to actually see the woman next to her. Perhaps she did not want to believe it was even her yet. "No," she replied matter-of-factly. "We've made our peace, or so I had thought. I've no reason to dig up wounds; no matter how old or fresh they are. I had hoped not to find you, in truth."
Roen nodded and some of the tension in her frame ebbed away. She had been expecting quite another answer, and felt relieved to hear otherwise. A few moments of silence passed as the music ebbed and flowed. "A bit far from the Sultana's side, are you not?"
Coatleque's voice came slow and measured now as if she was weighing her response carefully. "We go where we are needed. I only pray my time here is short. I dislike the snow. And you? A bit far from Othard, is it not?"
The woman flinched not an ilm... no movement was made at all. "Why Othard?" Roen's voice grew slightly hoarse.
The Sworn's head tilted to her left with the barest of turns. "When last we spoke, you were going that direction. I'd assumed you would have continued onward. You had every reason and opportunity to do so."
Roen stared straight ahead. Her gaze bore holes into the bronze shield of Halone that seemed to dominate her view now. "I no longer have such a reason. I am here." There was an annoyed sigh to her side.
"Then he has eluded you? Or he has left you behind."
"He is no longer here." The paladin's response was immediate. "That is all that matters, is it not?" Roen's posture straightened as if called to attention by the Flame General himself. Her frame tensed.
The other woman barely shook her head. "Gone from here? You had the chance to go with him. To leave Eorze behind and be happy. Why did you stay?"
Roen's lips pressed into a tight thin line. Another long pause fell between them as the music pressed down with an opportune crescendo of descending scales. Her response came hoarsely. "Because his vision of what should be and mine were not the same. It was never the same. It could have never reconciled with each other." A sharp look was thrown to her side. "I was not willing to throw away all of my beliefs for simple delusions of love."
Coatleque sat silent and unsure. As Roen's words resounded through her mind they took on an increasingly accusational tone. "And why must one throw away their beliefs to share love with another?" Her own voice managed to retain the same slow, measured emotion. Perhaps it was this place keeping her in check.
Roen's attention turned back to the cold, stone deity before her. She exhaled slowly to calm herself. "If such is not required, then that love is a fortuitous one. One that I have not known. Have you?"
"... perhaps once." There was clear hesitation in her voice as Coatleque responded. "You cannot change a man in my experience, you can only love who he is and hope he betters himself."
"Such hopes will only bring sorry and regret." Roen replied.
"Will they? Perhaps such things should be left to the Twelve to decide. Do you remember so many moons ago when we spoke of Taeros and I asked you if he was worthy of redemption?"
"The same Twelve that saw the Calamity happen? That allow starvation, disease, and war to continue?" Roen shook her head. "Such a thing as love should not be left to the silent 'gods'. Would you leave the fate of one's soul to the same?"
Coatleque sat quietly for another moment to allow both their passions to subside. "You make the mistake of thinking all suffering is an evil. I am no priestess though, t'is not my place to preach."
"I have heard the religious platitudes." Roen stated, breaking the silence quietly. "Having been here for many moons, it is hard not to learn how this entire city-state feels about their goddess. Their unconditional acceptance of something they perceive as her judgement. I think it placates peoples' guilt, uncertainty, and fears." Roen shook her head. "A part of me understands why people seek it out. Why they hold on to it so fervently." She glanced to the statue again. "All I see is a stony image, erected by people who need something to believe in. She... as well as the Twelve, holds no answers for me."
The two sat in silence again, neither daring to look at each other now. The age-old conflicts of logic between the faithful and the faithless, arguments that have felled entire kingdoms and caused immeasurable suffering to both sides.
"Perhaps you have not asked the right questions then." Coatleque said at length.
"Are you telling me that the Twelve answer your prayers?"
"Mmm. Without turning philosophical on you, or whatever, I should say yes" She turned turned her hand over to wave it idly. "Keeping in mind that 'no' is still an answer."
Roen snorted lightly. "Hmph. Then perhaps I should have taken all the silences as a 'no'. Life oft does that already, I need not pray to some deity for it."
Coatleque's even expression finally broke into the smallest of smiles at that. She looked back to the floor, her hands clasped together over her knee. "Silence? You expect perhaps an audible answer? Some shaking of the earth perhaps? A lightning strike just outside your window?"
Roen shook her head. "Nay, but some sign. How many centuries have the citizens of this city prayed for peace? Defeat of their enemies? How long has the war been waged? Nothing. They gained no answer for their prayers. The Dragonsong War still wages on."
"Then it is not meant to end yet," was all the consolation she could give. "Aye, it continues on and the city survives still. What has kept it from falling centuries prior?"
Another long breath was let lose from the side closer to the aisle. "I... envy you for such unwavering faith." Roen lowered her head. It was then that Coatleque finally turned towards her with the intent of giving the woman a sidelong glance. Her gaze lingered however. "It is not hard to see if you know what to look for. Do you remember the question I asked you about but a few moments ago?"
"Redemption." Roen nodded but did not look back up. "Did you find your answer?"
"For him? I knew it the day I asked you. However I have found myself asking the same question of another man only recently."
Roen studied the pattern carved upon the wooden pew in front of her. "Was it the same answer?" she asked absently.
"Perhaps. The circumstances were different. I may have made the wrong decision, but only time will prove that. And even so, if the Spinner willed it was it truly the wrong one? What would you have done in my stead I wonder? Is Anden Anduron worthy enough to seek his redemption?"
Roen's eyes widened as the name echoed through the room. She blinked but kept her gaze straight ahead. Another pause fell between them and the organ's constant stream of lengthy cords began to fill the room like a thin fog. Her head turned slowly to her right and their eyes met for the first time in what seemed ages. Her expression was not kind.
"Do you actually believe him? That he seeks atonement for all that he has done?"
"I believe that I want to believe him. A priestess of Menphina vouched for him as well. And he did sit atop the bell tower of Whitebrim for over an hour before I dared interrupt his meditations." Her voice trailed off with some sense of wonder.
Roen's eyes narrowed, her tone colder still. "Priestesses, magistrates, knights... they can all be corrupt. No one is untouchable. As I recall, he was wanted for murder."
The Sworn quirked one brow then turned away finally with a nod of agreement. "True enough. Though I find it is the ones who are given their positions free of suffering who are more easily tempted to use it for gain. Anden caused a great deal of suffering in his life, and now he has lost everything it seems."
Roen turned away sharply now as well, almost forcing her gaze back to the front of the altar. "As he should have. And much more."
"I would agree."
"But you let him go."
"And what if the Twelve have something else intended? Who are we to try to alter his fate? Perhaps the suffering he caused in the past will lead to great good in the future as he seeks his atonement. Aye, I let him go. He knows he cannot simply return to Thanalan. What if the very tide of the war is turned because of his future service to Ishgard?"
"Do you truly believe that?" A tinge of disbelief dripped from her words. "You said you want to believe him, but do you?"
Coatleque closed her eyes and bowed her head once more. "That is why I am here."
"For answers? Or for comfort?"
The Knight's head turned back to the side slightly. "Perhaps they are one and the same. Have you ever stood at the crossroads before, Roen? Many roads before you but only one may be walked? Yet no matter how much you desire the trail to the left your heart pulls you to the right?"
Roen's expression fell slowly, despite her attempt to maintain her mask of neutrality. "I have," she rasped. "And chose against my heart. I chose what I knew needed to be done." An angry glance shot forth to the visage of the warden before her. "And I have sat here, sun after sun. Seeking answers. Comfort. Anything!" She found her hire trailing to her side again, with a sharp look. "The deity gave me nothing. It was by the grace of another kind soul that I found anything resembling comfort here."
The sharpness of her words gave Coatleque pause, and her eyes opened to regard Roen from afar. Her expression turning quizzical, yet still quite oblivious to whatever the paladin may be trying to tell her. "I do not believe I have ever seen you so distressed. Is this about the aid you gave to Lazarov?"
Roen turned away quickly, refusing to meet the woman's gaze for long. She shook her head imperceptibly. No words came, and once more the silence was filled by thick tones of a sustained A-minor chord. Coatleque also looked up and away not to the statue of Halone rather than seeing her former shield sister in such a state. It was Roen who decided to break the now awkward silence, her voice having regained its composure.
"Anduron will prove you wrong."
"Me? Or Halone?"
"If you believe you act in her grace... then both of you."
There was a slight shrug followed by another deafening silence filled with descending scales.
"Whitebrim. He is in Coerthas." There was a grim realization to her words, ominous even. Coatleque clenched and relaxed her jaw twice before interrupting that thought. "Do not search for him."
"Because he is a redeemed man?"
"Because I would counsel you away from a rash decision."
"You speak of rash decisions." Roen's voice remained oddly calm. "Have you also come here seeking Banurein? You still search for Taeros, do you not?"
"I have official orders." Coatleque's words regained that same slow and measured stride as she carefully considered what information to divulge. "As I said, I do not wish to remain in Coerthas longer than necessary."
Roen's gaze lifted to the stained glass windows around the sides of the cathedral. "You always have official orders. It never stopped you from chasing your heart's wishes."
The Sworn's gaze returned to her lap. Her hand turned upwards to allow a glimpse of something she had all this time been clasping tightly. "If I am not disobeying my orders, what does it matter?"
Roen shook her head now taking on an odd expression of her own. "You always did know how to walk that thin line." She exhaled through her nose, slowly. "Seek out Kage and Delial. They too are here, searching for the woman."
Coatleque's hand closed tightly upon whatever she had been holding. A small glint of pain as the metallic object nearly cut into her palm. "Thin line..." Her words turned sharply cold as she weighed the accusation followed by the command. "I got close to the man to try and find this woman for you, and what thanks did I get? The man is attacked by a group of vigilantes, almost killed, then whisked away from before my eyes! I do not believe I care to find this woman any longer. Not for you. I will find Jameson and take him away from here. You can do what you will with the rest."
Roen stiffened, her tone also turning bitter immediately. "I am well aware of the sacrifices people have made in my stead. If I have shown no gratitude for it, then that is my folly. But you fell in love with the man, lured me out to be arrested to be delivered to some private dungeon for information I did not have! I had a chance to kill the same man, suns before he was shot. I left him be! I hope you find him, follow your heart, whisk him away and live a happy life away from everything and anything you know and believe!"
She rose quickly to her feet, retrieving her sword and shield and flinging the latter about her back. She spun back to Coatleque. "But know that the man you fell in love with... he is not all you want him to be. He is not who your heart wishes he becomes!"
"And is Lazarov?"
Roen's expression hardened. "I am only imparting the lessons that I have learned. I do not wish for you to come upon them as I did." She turned to leave. "I wish you no ill will. But you know that the path you walk, and the hope of redemption you hold for someone you love, at the end only sorrow awaits you."
"Time will reveal all." Coatleque bowed her head yet again with eyes closed and sniffled a deep sigh. Roen began to leave then stopped with a glance as if to say something more, but with a shake of her head she left. The echo of boot steps slowly dipping below the mournful chords that filled the room. The Sworn's mouth parted again with the same absence of audible words, but this time one may have read Roen's name upon her breathless whispering.
The heavy clap of armored boots slowly rose to match the sound of the music; the tell-tale sign of another approaching to either pay homage or offer supplications to Halone. It did not register at first that the newcomer had stopped just before the very row she sat within. Scanning the room with determined grey eyes, the familiar silhouette she was looking for was not present today. Her head canted when she spotted someone else. Someone she did not seek but was no less familiar.
Roen exhaled a long, measured breath. Her feet froze where she stood, an obvious hesitation in her balance as she shifted her weight from one foot to the other. She may have even considered simply leaving at that moment. Finally she set her shoulders straight and decided to approach the woman before her. A few more steps brought her to the edge of the row where she stopped once more to examine her from the side.
"Ser Crofte." The name was spoken quietly as if to keep it from traveling too far to disturb others yet just enough to carry over the sound of the organs. Coatleque made no move or acknowledgement at first. Her eyes remained closed, brows slowly creasing as she continued her own supplications. Whatever whispers may have carried to the other gave the impression of one asking guidance and forgiveness. She stopped at length yet did not turn her head. "Ser Deneith. You are here."
Only then did the realization occur to Roen that her former friend may have been in prayer. The gathering of her own thoughts and nerves to approach the Sworn had left no consideration to her meditative state. Not that it was an odd thing to find in this place - it is why most came to the cathedral. Yet she herself had yet to utter a single one herself. A few steps more were ventured into the row of seats but she did not rest herself. Not just yet. "I am surprised to find you here."
Coatleque's mouth twitched just at the edge but broke no smile nor belied any change of emotion. Yet the tenseness in her brow seemed to relax. "I could say the same of you, if not for Miss Llorn." She ventured no further explanation as none would be needed between the two of them. A slight tightness came to Roen's lips though her tone remained quiet and neutral. "Spahro." The woman's name was all she could say. There was another pause before she unhooked the scabbard from her belt and set it with her shield aside to take her own seat. A few fulms were left between them. A visible sign of the tension present in the air.
"Have you been looking for me?" The Sworn finally opened her eyes at the question but did not turn her head. She focused on a particular crack in the stone tile at her feet. Perhaps she was not ready to actually see the woman next to her. Perhaps she did not want to believe it was even her yet. "No," she replied matter-of-factly. "We've made our peace, or so I had thought. I've no reason to dig up wounds; no matter how old or fresh they are. I had hoped not to find you, in truth."
Roen nodded and some of the tension in her frame ebbed away. She had been expecting quite another answer, and felt relieved to hear otherwise. A few moments of silence passed as the music ebbed and flowed. "A bit far from the Sultana's side, are you not?"
Coatleque's voice came slow and measured now as if she was weighing her response carefully. "We go where we are needed. I only pray my time here is short. I dislike the snow. And you? A bit far from Othard, is it not?"
The woman flinched not an ilm... no movement was made at all. "Why Othard?" Roen's voice grew slightly hoarse.
The Sworn's head tilted to her left with the barest of turns. "When last we spoke, you were going that direction. I'd assumed you would have continued onward. You had every reason and opportunity to do so."
Roen stared straight ahead. Her gaze bore holes into the bronze shield of Halone that seemed to dominate her view now. "I no longer have such a reason. I am here." There was an annoyed sigh to her side.
"Then he has eluded you? Or he has left you behind."
"He is no longer here." The paladin's response was immediate. "That is all that matters, is it not?" Roen's posture straightened as if called to attention by the Flame General himself. Her frame tensed.
The other woman barely shook her head. "Gone from here? You had the chance to go with him. To leave Eorze behind and be happy. Why did you stay?"
Roen's lips pressed into a tight thin line. Another long pause fell between them as the music pressed down with an opportune crescendo of descending scales. Her response came hoarsely. "Because his vision of what should be and mine were not the same. It was never the same. It could have never reconciled with each other." A sharp look was thrown to her side. "I was not willing to throw away all of my beliefs for simple delusions of love."
Coatleque sat silent and unsure. As Roen's words resounded through her mind they took on an increasingly accusational tone. "And why must one throw away their beliefs to share love with another?" Her own voice managed to retain the same slow, measured emotion. Perhaps it was this place keeping her in check.
Roen's attention turned back to the cold, stone deity before her. She exhaled slowly to calm herself. "If such is not required, then that love is a fortuitous one. One that I have not known. Have you?"
"... perhaps once." There was clear hesitation in her voice as Coatleque responded. "You cannot change a man in my experience, you can only love who he is and hope he betters himself."
"Such hopes will only bring sorry and regret." Roen replied.
"Will they? Perhaps such things should be left to the Twelve to decide. Do you remember so many moons ago when we spoke of Taeros and I asked you if he was worthy of redemption?"
"The same Twelve that saw the Calamity happen? That allow starvation, disease, and war to continue?" Roen shook her head. "Such a thing as love should not be left to the silent 'gods'. Would you leave the fate of one's soul to the same?"
Coatleque sat quietly for another moment to allow both their passions to subside. "You make the mistake of thinking all suffering is an evil. I am no priestess though, t'is not my place to preach."
"I have heard the religious platitudes." Roen stated, breaking the silence quietly. "Having been here for many moons, it is hard not to learn how this entire city-state feels about their goddess. Their unconditional acceptance of something they perceive as her judgement. I think it placates peoples' guilt, uncertainty, and fears." Roen shook her head. "A part of me understands why people seek it out. Why they hold on to it so fervently." She glanced to the statue again. "All I see is a stony image, erected by people who need something to believe in. She... as well as the Twelve, holds no answers for me."
The two sat in silence again, neither daring to look at each other now. The age-old conflicts of logic between the faithful and the faithless, arguments that have felled entire kingdoms and caused immeasurable suffering to both sides.
"Perhaps you have not asked the right questions then." Coatleque said at length.
"Are you telling me that the Twelve answer your prayers?"
"Mmm. Without turning philosophical on you, or whatever, I should say yes" She turned turned her hand over to wave it idly. "Keeping in mind that 'no' is still an answer."
Roen snorted lightly. "Hmph. Then perhaps I should have taken all the silences as a 'no'. Life oft does that already, I need not pray to some deity for it."
Coatleque's even expression finally broke into the smallest of smiles at that. She looked back to the floor, her hands clasped together over her knee. "Silence? You expect perhaps an audible answer? Some shaking of the earth perhaps? A lightning strike just outside your window?"
Roen shook her head. "Nay, but some sign. How many centuries have the citizens of this city prayed for peace? Defeat of their enemies? How long has the war been waged? Nothing. They gained no answer for their prayers. The Dragonsong War still wages on."
"Then it is not meant to end yet," was all the consolation she could give. "Aye, it continues on and the city survives still. What has kept it from falling centuries prior?"
Another long breath was let lose from the side closer to the aisle. "I... envy you for such unwavering faith." Roen lowered her head. It was then that Coatleque finally turned towards her with the intent of giving the woman a sidelong glance. Her gaze lingered however. "It is not hard to see if you know what to look for. Do you remember the question I asked you about but a few moments ago?"
"Redemption." Roen nodded but did not look back up. "Did you find your answer?"
"For him? I knew it the day I asked you. However I have found myself asking the same question of another man only recently."
Roen studied the pattern carved upon the wooden pew in front of her. "Was it the same answer?" she asked absently.
"Perhaps. The circumstances were different. I may have made the wrong decision, but only time will prove that. And even so, if the Spinner willed it was it truly the wrong one? What would you have done in my stead I wonder? Is Anden Anduron worthy enough to seek his redemption?"
Roen's eyes widened as the name echoed through the room. She blinked but kept her gaze straight ahead. Another pause fell between them and the organ's constant stream of lengthy cords began to fill the room like a thin fog. Her head turned slowly to her right and their eyes met for the first time in what seemed ages. Her expression was not kind.
"Do you actually believe him? That he seeks atonement for all that he has done?"
"I believe that I want to believe him. A priestess of Menphina vouched for him as well. And he did sit atop the bell tower of Whitebrim for over an hour before I dared interrupt his meditations." Her voice trailed off with some sense of wonder.
Roen's eyes narrowed, her tone colder still. "Priestesses, magistrates, knights... they can all be corrupt. No one is untouchable. As I recall, he was wanted for murder."
The Sworn quirked one brow then turned away finally with a nod of agreement. "True enough. Though I find it is the ones who are given their positions free of suffering who are more easily tempted to use it for gain. Anden caused a great deal of suffering in his life, and now he has lost everything it seems."
Roen turned away sharply now as well, almost forcing her gaze back to the front of the altar. "As he should have. And much more."
"I would agree."
"But you let him go."
"And what if the Twelve have something else intended? Who are we to try to alter his fate? Perhaps the suffering he caused in the past will lead to great good in the future as he seeks his atonement. Aye, I let him go. He knows he cannot simply return to Thanalan. What if the very tide of the war is turned because of his future service to Ishgard?"
"Do you truly believe that?" A tinge of disbelief dripped from her words. "You said you want to believe him, but do you?"
Coatleque closed her eyes and bowed her head once more. "That is why I am here."
"For answers? Or for comfort?"
The Knight's head turned back to the side slightly. "Perhaps they are one and the same. Have you ever stood at the crossroads before, Roen? Many roads before you but only one may be walked? Yet no matter how much you desire the trail to the left your heart pulls you to the right?"
Roen's expression fell slowly, despite her attempt to maintain her mask of neutrality. "I have," she rasped. "And chose against my heart. I chose what I knew needed to be done." An angry glance shot forth to the visage of the warden before her. "And I have sat here, sun after sun. Seeking answers. Comfort. Anything!" She found her hire trailing to her side again, with a sharp look. "The deity gave me nothing. It was by the grace of another kind soul that I found anything resembling comfort here."
The sharpness of her words gave Coatleque pause, and her eyes opened to regard Roen from afar. Her expression turning quizzical, yet still quite oblivious to whatever the paladin may be trying to tell her. "I do not believe I have ever seen you so distressed. Is this about the aid you gave to Lazarov?"
Roen turned away quickly, refusing to meet the woman's gaze for long. She shook her head imperceptibly. No words came, and once more the silence was filled by thick tones of a sustained A-minor chord. Coatleque also looked up and away not to the statue of Halone rather than seeing her former shield sister in such a state. It was Roen who decided to break the now awkward silence, her voice having regained its composure.
"Anduron will prove you wrong."
"Me? Or Halone?"
"If you believe you act in her grace... then both of you."
There was a slight shrug followed by another deafening silence filled with descending scales.
"Whitebrim. He is in Coerthas." There was a grim realization to her words, ominous even. Coatleque clenched and relaxed her jaw twice before interrupting that thought. "Do not search for him."
"Because he is a redeemed man?"
"Because I would counsel you away from a rash decision."
"You speak of rash decisions." Roen's voice remained oddly calm. "Have you also come here seeking Banurein? You still search for Taeros, do you not?"
"I have official orders." Coatleque's words regained that same slow and measured stride as she carefully considered what information to divulge. "As I said, I do not wish to remain in Coerthas longer than necessary."
Roen's gaze lifted to the stained glass windows around the sides of the cathedral. "You always have official orders. It never stopped you from chasing your heart's wishes."
The Sworn's gaze returned to her lap. Her hand turned upwards to allow a glimpse of something she had all this time been clasping tightly. "If I am not disobeying my orders, what does it matter?"
Roen shook her head now taking on an odd expression of her own. "You always did know how to walk that thin line." She exhaled through her nose, slowly. "Seek out Kage and Delial. They too are here, searching for the woman."
Coatleque's hand closed tightly upon whatever she had been holding. A small glint of pain as the metallic object nearly cut into her palm. "Thin line..." Her words turned sharply cold as she weighed the accusation followed by the command. "I got close to the man to try and find this woman for you, and what thanks did I get? The man is attacked by a group of vigilantes, almost killed, then whisked away from before my eyes! I do not believe I care to find this woman any longer. Not for you. I will find Jameson and take him away from here. You can do what you will with the rest."
Roen stiffened, her tone also turning bitter immediately. "I am well aware of the sacrifices people have made in my stead. If I have shown no gratitude for it, then that is my folly. But you fell in love with the man, lured me out to be arrested to be delivered to some private dungeon for information I did not have! I had a chance to kill the same man, suns before he was shot. I left him be! I hope you find him, follow your heart, whisk him away and live a happy life away from everything and anything you know and believe!"
She rose quickly to her feet, retrieving her sword and shield and flinging the latter about her back. She spun back to Coatleque. "But know that the man you fell in love with... he is not all you want him to be. He is not who your heart wishes he becomes!"
"And is Lazarov?"
Roen's expression hardened. "I am only imparting the lessons that I have learned. I do not wish for you to come upon them as I did." She turned to leave. "I wish you no ill will. But you know that the path you walk, and the hope of redemption you hold for someone you love, at the end only sorrow awaits you."
"Time will reveal all." Coatleque bowed her head yet again with eyes closed and sniffled a deep sigh. Roen began to leave then stopped with a glance as if to say something more, but with a shake of her head she left. The echo of boot steps slowly dipping below the mournful chords that filled the room. The Sworn's mouth parted again with the same absence of audible words, but this time one may have read Roen's name upon her breathless whispering.