Quote:As a philosophy, kintsugi can be seen to have similarities to the Japanese philosophy of wabi-sabi, an embracing of the flawed or imperfect. Japanese æsthetics values marks of wear by the use of an object. This can be seen as a rationale for keeping an object around even after it has broken and as a justification of kintsugi itself, highlighting the cracks and repairs as simply an event in the life of an object rather than allowing its service to end at the time of its damage or breakage.
Shaded halls were only lit by a singular light at the end of the corridor. Along wood, lacquered walls, were portraits of fellow men and women that served them well and earned recognition. Her face was not present. Here, in the den of snakes, she was a shadow, one whose name was lost in memory. She was the Viper, for some she was the Bowmaiden, and though she did serve her countrymen well, she was not be made known to those who worked not in the shadows.
It was here that the head of the Adders gather, business is discussed, matters are solved, and missions are made into light. Whispers in the dark are heard at times, but prying ears knew well not to listen, and hungry eyes understood that classified information was meant to be just that.
Rivienne was not often present. She came and went with the wind. Her assignments were sealed behind falsified paperwork and coded mostly for their protection, more than herself. Every thing she did was not supposed to exist, all the cloak and dagger work were just rumors. For a select few, it was all so real.
In these halls she walked, brushed by shadows, listening to the subtle him of the ceiling fans. She was adorned in her uniform, brandishing the emblem of the twin serpents. Earthy colors made her nearly blend into the walls she walked close to, if it wasn't for the lustrous gold of her hair dancing behind, due to her brisk and long strides. Cradled, in her arms, were files that needed to be purged of shy additional information. Though on the outside of it, it was completely inconspicuous, nothing splashed on it that screamed this was classified.
Except buried between false orders for supplies, and random maps, was the list of every target she was ordered to keep surveillance of, to kill if they moved, their family names, the areas they frequent. Every personal detail was etched onto the parchment, and thus it was kept close to her beating heart. Glances were were shared, but her eyes did not stray long before reaching the hall to turn toward the Commander’s room. Unannounced she came.
Coincidence.
Silent foot-falls carried her forth toward the door, though the sudden slamming of a desk halted her immediately. His mood was soured, his anger was resonating into the very room. She could feel it seep out from the door. It was best to turn away and return at a later time.
“Three moon cycles past, we can not afford anymore men. Tell me, what do you think I should do, send more men to the jaws of dragons? This is not our fight.†The growl came from another who she failed to recognize, and intrigued as she was, Rivienne turned to face the opposite end of the hall. However her gut told her to stay. Something ensnared her completely, something pulled at every fiber of her being. Just one heart-beat more is what she needed. And one heart-beat is what she got to hear the all familiar voice of her Commander.
“Then continue with these reports, it is all I ask. We can not jeopardize it all yet. Night turns to day, wounds will fade in time. She will understand as she always have. She is durable. She is not expendable.â€
“You want to continue this mockery then? Even after you pronounced him dead. Lies begets lies.â€
She turned to the door, a quizzical expression plagued her features and curiosity kept her planted her firmly; her legs refused to move, not yet. Golden eyes stared at the wood grain, as if wanting to burn a hole through it. Something was amiss, and within her, something else stirred with warning. We all know that familiar bad feeling, the one that makes your skin crawl, that causes ones stomach to twist.
“We need her focused, if she begins to question his whereabouts, we will partner her with another. He will bring her the comfort she needs. Do whatever it takes..â€
“Whatever it takes?â€
“To keep the Viper set on the path of what is important.â€
The words echo into the ravines of her thoughts and she felt something inside release. What held her in place relinquished its hold. A breath escaped her. It was a shaky sound that was hardly audible past the door. Golden eyes stared forward at the dancing shadow of the ceiling fan splashed against the wall. The humming, of the fan, blended into the background, and she swallowed the soft sound that would have been a broken gasp.
“..Her strike is unkind, Commander. How many lies will you bathe in before you too are covered in the same blood. Your love for her has created a web of deceit. You wove it..â€
She closed her eyes and tilted her back to the wall adjacent to the door, torturing herself as she took in each and every word, hung on to them and allowed it to sink into her skin like venom. Little pieces of herself shattered and scattered along with these pages. Names of those who fell to her were listed. Names of those who would be without families. Whose friends would mourn them. Names of fathers and mothers who will not see their children again.
“The Viper knows well her place in this web. I will not surrender her to seek one who is dead. The dead do not hear prayers. The dead can not wipe tears from her eyes. She knows this lesson well, for she delivers such death herself..â€
For she was a weapon in the end.
Rivienne’s hold on the papers loosens as the shadows begin to snuff away the light. The glimmer of gold is eaten away by the dark. Lashes sink down, peppering her cheeks as she feels the burden in her arms give away. Descending papers fell languidly as time slowed, but the beating of her heart increased. The pulse beats in her ears, muffling any further sound from penetrating her thoughts other than the falling papers and a heartbeat that threatens to fade into the dark. Teeth pierce her lower lip and she finds strength in her trembling hand. Immediately, she seeks the blade secured in its scabbard, against her waist, and unsheathes it. It scrapes the leather roughly, but she cares not if it is heard.
Glassy eyes reflect what little light is left from the dancing light from the ceiling fan and she spins on her heel with a free hand extended to the door as their talks continue. Yet, she can not comprehend the words, the sounds die as the screaming within deafens her. The taste of blood dances along her tongue, a bitter and sweet flavor, and at his moment, she longs to satisfy her thirst. But, her fingers stop at the handle of the door, hovering dangerously close to its surface.
“If she questions this --â€
She felt the air sizzle with electricity as the surge to end this nearly overwhelmed her. Perhaps it was fate, perhaps luck was on their side, for she withdrew from the handle as if it was lit by a flame. Footsteps had come far too close and she didn’t realize it until the young man had come a few ilms behind her.
“--then you make sure she never questions her loyalties again.â€
Eyes widened as she spun on her heel, weapon now twisted so the blade was pointed away. The hand that sought the handle had an open palm that came far too quickly for the youth to find a proper reaction to the impact. Fingers wrapped around his cheeks and the palm of her hand suffocates any sound of surprise that would have alerted her superior officers.
Unfortunately, his head bounced off the surface of the wall and Rivienne leaned close to him that he could smell the Earth and flowers from her golden tresses. Her eyes were burning, an image that shook him to the very core. In her he saw the flash of anger, the touch of turmoil, the burn of pain. The moment seemed to have slowed down, and when time presumed, she had already pulled her hand away.
“Bowmaiden..?â€
He was rewarded with silence as she looked past her shoulder and whipped her head back to him. He grew rigid in posture and glanced to the floor with just his eyes, for he dared not to move and alarm her further. She could have been having a bad day, he thought, she could have been scolded, reprimanded. He knew well how that went.
He was fortunate to be ignorant.
Motion took place behind the door and Rivienne’s body twists to face the end of the corridor. The mention of those words were fresh, still burning into her like a brand. Her throat ran dry, her eyes were aching to fight back the rivulets of pain, but her body was moving on its own, knowing what she needed to do, it was all automatic, and she barely had a moment to think of what to do next. The motions were natural. Swiftly, and discreetly, the blade was secured against the muscle of her thigh before reaching turning out from the hall. There, familiar faces smiled at her, some greeted her.
“Good evening, M’lady Navarre,â€
Their voices were distorted, their faces blurred. Her gaze was set on the light peering underneath the door of this endless hall. The exit. She needed to leave first. Before the walls crushed her all together. What started as a walk of a woman determined, turned into a sprint of a woman seeking to regain her lost breath. Within her, she felt an overwhelming pain, as if the same blade she wore on her person, ripped through her ribs. Clouded thoughts were sanguine, the smell of copper filled her senses, and the shadows threaten to drown her. People surrounded her, their smells asphyxiate the senses.
Out.
Get out.
When the door of the office opened, The Commander found a young soldier standing where Rivi once stood, gathering the falling papers. She was not in sight, but her perfume followed her, fading the further she went. He barely could catch the shadow chasing her into the hall.
“What exactly are you doing here, report,†Commander Heuloix stood above the young man, his eyes set on the papers. Little details of coordinates, maps, nothing of importance was noticed, until he saw the all too familiar handscript of the one he trained, the one he was all too careful with..
..the one who could easily sink her fangs into the unsuspecting.
His hand came swift and the young man fell back on his rear as he watched the Commander scrambling to grab these insignificant documents. The Marshal soon followed behind him and looked to the young man. Unbeknownst to the private was the information he nearly was privy to. He didn’t know how much was read, or if the hyur even bothered, but he wastes little time getting the attention of the man, who jumps to his feet upright to give him a salute and is dismissed.
When the hall was empty, when only they and the shadows stood, the Marshal’s blue eyes hardened to steel and he took a hold of Heuloix’s collar, bringing him to nearly brush noses. Anger blazed hotly in his words and a threat was finely placed in his tone.
“Fix this. Or demotion is the least of your concerns.â€
( to be continued )