(It's not my best writing, but I hope it proves enjoyable. I will also port my previously written background setting story over here at some point after some edits for lore consistency.)
When she stared at the white expanse before her, a rolling desert of pale sand and cyan crystal, the small girl finally grasped the enormity of the world beyond the islands of Lymlaen's Necklace.
Traveling to Eorzea had been a study inthe incomprehensible. Such a wilderness could fit ten of her insignificant atoll homeland within itself easily. Yet the Ishgardians and their foes, of which Virara knew little, did not use the snow-draped landscape for much other than as a place to slay one another. It was a burial ground for memories, frozen in time. Snow was still a new experience to the island girl, an alien phenomenon she'd only heard of when half submerged in a mountain of moldy imported tomes and bootleg parchment scrolls. A few trips to the foothills of Ishgard to test the limits of her stamina early in her journey had done little to mitigate its power of fascination.
If Ishgard could not build upon the highlands, and the Dravinians did not nest there, then perhaps it was a sea and not land. The snow's depth was indistinct, fluxing with each fulm seemingly at random to an outsider like her. The hilly current of snow waned and waxed like an unending cresting wave, repeated upon itself infinitely, only parted by the occasional cliff or frozen hulk. Long abandoned wrecks would make sorry abodes compared to the myriad flat-bottomed boats the refugees had salvaged from their beached vessels. Lashed together with thick ropes like those of a Doman shrine, Virara could glance downward from their Even in such an inhospitable wasteland, the island was not far from her mind.
Likewise, the calming heat of the midday ocean breeze was within her, but it proved little succor against the Western Highlands' chilling breath. Virara thick hide coat, worn and threadbare along the edges from countless suns of use, trapped her body's irregular heat well. Most of her kind were not accustomed to the cold. They were either of desert or island stock, and while Virara found the sparkling vapors suffused with ice captivating in a way she never put conscious thought to, the endless winter registered on a neglected list of things she recognized as unpleasant. Within her a furnace boiled, a cauldron of flame that never went out. Others recoiled at her touch when she was riled up, one of the more mild effects of her particular constitution. Yet in the Highlands frosted wasteland, the telltale sign of Virara's strength carried added perks.
The cold scourged her bare cheeks when she lowered her hood. Her every breath and exertion would become a torment under duress. If she carelessly lingered, as she had in the Pillars square that one day, she would pay in flesh. It was a hard land with no semblance of mercy. The perfect place for Virara to test the limits of her stamina once more. It would deliver unto her overwhelming strength, the power to slay her foes, to obliterate all that stood in front of her fist. A force like a god or demon, the force befitting her Master's style. Only then would the thirst inside of her subside. When Virara swung her fists and felt her lungs greedily devour the cold air, every nerve in her body sent a flood of sensations and thought to her mind. How to position herself, the distance of her hypothetical foe, the shadow she boxed with, a solo dance. How to fold her fingers upon themselves so as not to shatter their fragile bones. When Virara swung her fists, her mind and body devoted themselves to the tasks her Master felt she had been born to do. There was no room for doubt, or feeling, or extraneous thought. She became an engine of causality, a law that erased everything it could grasp, a beast without reason, without sentience.
When she obtained that sublime state, she no longer felt what she had in the square. She no longer recalled the misty depths and the crumbling stone at the edge of the Pillars' great railing. Her shattered concentration pieced itself into a haphazard mosaic, and Virara found it obscured the face of the girl with pink hair. Her other eye, whose cheap facsimile of her own eye patch still rested within her coat pocket. The utter senselessness behind her disappearance, the yawning lack she left behind, were concepts she could not spare thought to. Wounds were for the flesh, Virara reasoned. The world in which Master resided was a place where softness and light could not reach.
“She could not follow me.â€
Virara's utterance crouched wretchedly beneath her tortured white breathing. That was what she'd told the other girl. There was a widening gap between them that had only grown into a chasm with time. For as much as one wanted to bridge it, Virara moved only in one direction. To the place where Master resided. Her mounting pace had proven too much for the girl who would call Virara friend. A term she understood poorly and yet was somehow eager to oblige. It had been farce, hadn't it? A waste of time that could have been spent training. What strength was gained there, from knowing that girl, from purging her demons? The terror she knew paled in comparison to what lay at the end of Master's hellish path.
Her hand trembled with a familiar warmth, the grasp of soft fingers utterly unlike her own. The feeling of one other, unlike Master and yet like Master, a person who seized Virara's concentration, like the boy who desired to be a 'hero.' They spoke nonsense. They confused her. She desired something from Virara the island girl could not offer. And yet, much the same, she could not be apart from them. No thought was spared, none that she could recognize, for Virara had nothing to offer. To triumph over the immaculate being that trained her, her sole goddess who ruled the realm of force itself, every unbidden process had to be wrenched from the throes of idleness and thrust onward towards her goal. She was a zealot and a heretic, desirous of accord and conflict. Until her fists found their destined resting place in Master's chest, Virara could not afford to be distracted. But an invisible gravity drew her to the girl that fell, and her strange toy.
“Why?â€
Virara's monotone voice resounded unconsciously against Coerthas's winds. As much reflex as a question, it had no inflection to define it as either. The nonsense of the leather eye patch in her pocket and its likeness upon her face, the symbol of her training, stabbed deep into the furthest reaches of her mind, the muscle she could not harden and steel against pain.
She could not think of that eye patch,but neither could she throw it away. It would cling to her unbidden until she trained hard enough to escape its grasp. Virara's eye remained covered, and she could not afford to be blinded by a second one. Beneath the shield of goatskin and bronzed rivets, the skin of her face and the tightness of her pupil retained her Master's touch. The naked eye was disaffected, calm, almost sleepy, a star ruby set in milky ivory. The covered eye was dark with dilation, a trembling red point paralyzed in murderous rage, the feeling in it numbed until it could harbor no other expression. Only one woman had seen that frozen eye. Virara believed so, at least. To show it to anyone else was akin to being laid utterly bare, and no one had the right to gaze upon her in such a way.
But the impossible girl who clung to herand asked things that didn't make sense knew the eye. No shield of calm expression or a barrier of goatskin could conceal the black desire within Virara, and she knew it, despite all of the island girl's wishes. Virara recoiled in disgust, feeling the probing half-stone gaze upon her even in its absence. Her thoughts belonged to no one else. They were simple, uncomplicated, monomaniacal because they had to be. There couldn't be any other way, so why did she insist on complicating things? If Virara was precious to her, and she to Virara, why the fall?
“You trouble me.â€
Had they never met, Virara would not know the distraction that grasped the instinctive, lizard part of her brain. Her neglected byways of thought would stay in the shadows, and her brain could focus on firing the bursts of intent that jolted limbs into position and gauged distance, predicted movement, weighed options within the comfortable, safe confines of the melee. The unmentionable force pawing at the back of her mind since the square was a far greater threat.
“You troubled me.... Mel-â€
She seized upon the sound of crunching snow behind her with a starving girl's hunger. Her ears would not deceive or confuse her, not in the emptiness of the wasteland. Had she been followed? Virara's mind raced for the succor of regimented thought, and immediately set about the task of identifying threats.
Two. Three. Four. Elezen. Male. One female? Walking in single-file. The crunches of hardening snow grew softer in their succession. The sound was confident, assured. They knew the area and were without fear. 'He' did not have such clumsy steps. The spider that shadowed her every move, even from La Noscea would never be so careless as to let his footsteps be heard. Then, were they of the Ishgardian banner? No, Virara reasoned in silence, such soldiers, no matter how trained, exhibited wariness when in enemy territory. They were of the heretics party no doubt, too trained to be bandits, too calm to be of the Holy See's enlisted. Virara had done her research, but in typical fashion, she cared nothing for motivations or the history behind their hostility, only their way of doing things, their manpower, their equipment, their method of killing. She had no sympathy or interest in the cause of their grievances towards the city state, and felt no desire to protect the citizens the Ishgardian military swore to protect. What only mattered were their numbers, their skills and their intentions. These were solid, tangible things. Virara liked it better that way.
Virara exhaled into the collar of her winter coat, feeling the rising heat of her breath. Her sinews twitched in anticipation, a boiling sensation coiling up within her innards. Her eye trembled, darting about as the crushing footsteps spread out in long, winding paths about her. She was being encircled, a cautious move. Most of the larger folk didn't bother with such shrewd positioning, given her relatively small size. They were not men and women who took risks. A wise choice given the hostility of their crystalline home and its bounty of fatal promises.
“A child? Out here in the snow?â€
Virara's soft-ear twitched at the hissing whisper that followed the snowy winds behind her. A single glance over her shoulder revealed to her the gaunt shadows slouching through the white mists.
“No.They're uncommon. 'Round here. Might be she's just a 'venturer, not of the Holy See.â€
“Even so, she's unwelcome.â€
The Lalafell girl was certainly an unusual sight. Clad in raven tones that stood out stark as a sun in the depth of night against the tundra, her posture betrayed no exhaustion or doubt. Her controlled breaths, long since sanded in the merciless hands of her Master, were even, identical puffs of white steam, too uniform and large to belong to any normal girl her size. And her crimson gaze overflowed with a muted hostility that followed Virara everywhere she went. A gaze that could flay alive, an eye that promised agony beyond mortal comprehension. The stare was a gift from Master's empty smile. When Virara's two mismatched gazes aligned fully, she would become a demon that thirsted only for battle. Within her tiny, compact form lay the groundwork for a fatal art centuries in the making, forgotten to history and Hydaelyn itself, for it was a mark of vile shame that should not have existed. Master, for all her strength, could not change the course of history back in Othard. But even the tiniest fraction of that power would be enough for Virara to bury them, if it proved necessary.
Skulking deep within her mind, a tiny child,lost on an island in Sea of Jade, hoped it proved necessary. She did not know doubt, or the agony of Memeli's gaze, or the confusion of Chachanji's words. The child knew hunger and thirst, and one language, spoken with hands, feet and teeth.
When she stared at the white expanse before her, a rolling desert of pale sand and cyan crystal, the small girl finally grasped the enormity of the world beyond the islands of Lymlaen's Necklace.
Traveling to Eorzea had been a study inthe incomprehensible. Such a wilderness could fit ten of her insignificant atoll homeland within itself easily. Yet the Ishgardians and their foes, of which Virara knew little, did not use the snow-draped landscape for much other than as a place to slay one another. It was a burial ground for memories, frozen in time. Snow was still a new experience to the island girl, an alien phenomenon she'd only heard of when half submerged in a mountain of moldy imported tomes and bootleg parchment scrolls. A few trips to the foothills of Ishgard to test the limits of her stamina early in her journey had done little to mitigate its power of fascination.
If Ishgard could not build upon the highlands, and the Dravinians did not nest there, then perhaps it was a sea and not land. The snow's depth was indistinct, fluxing with each fulm seemingly at random to an outsider like her. The hilly current of snow waned and waxed like an unending cresting wave, repeated upon itself infinitely, only parted by the occasional cliff or frozen hulk. Long abandoned wrecks would make sorry abodes compared to the myriad flat-bottomed boats the refugees had salvaged from their beached vessels. Lashed together with thick ropes like those of a Doman shrine, Virara could glance downward from their Even in such an inhospitable wasteland, the island was not far from her mind.
Likewise, the calming heat of the midday ocean breeze was within her, but it proved little succor against the Western Highlands' chilling breath. Virara thick hide coat, worn and threadbare along the edges from countless suns of use, trapped her body's irregular heat well. Most of her kind were not accustomed to the cold. They were either of desert or island stock, and while Virara found the sparkling vapors suffused with ice captivating in a way she never put conscious thought to, the endless winter registered on a neglected list of things she recognized as unpleasant. Within her a furnace boiled, a cauldron of flame that never went out. Others recoiled at her touch when she was riled up, one of the more mild effects of her particular constitution. Yet in the Highlands frosted wasteland, the telltale sign of Virara's strength carried added perks.
The cold scourged her bare cheeks when she lowered her hood. Her every breath and exertion would become a torment under duress. If she carelessly lingered, as she had in the Pillars square that one day, she would pay in flesh. It was a hard land with no semblance of mercy. The perfect place for Virara to test the limits of her stamina once more. It would deliver unto her overwhelming strength, the power to slay her foes, to obliterate all that stood in front of her fist. A force like a god or demon, the force befitting her Master's style. Only then would the thirst inside of her subside. When Virara swung her fists and felt her lungs greedily devour the cold air, every nerve in her body sent a flood of sensations and thought to her mind. How to position herself, the distance of her hypothetical foe, the shadow she boxed with, a solo dance. How to fold her fingers upon themselves so as not to shatter their fragile bones. When Virara swung her fists, her mind and body devoted themselves to the tasks her Master felt she had been born to do. There was no room for doubt, or feeling, or extraneous thought. She became an engine of causality, a law that erased everything it could grasp, a beast without reason, without sentience.
When she obtained that sublime state, she no longer felt what she had in the square. She no longer recalled the misty depths and the crumbling stone at the edge of the Pillars' great railing. Her shattered concentration pieced itself into a haphazard mosaic, and Virara found it obscured the face of the girl with pink hair. Her other eye, whose cheap facsimile of her own eye patch still rested within her coat pocket. The utter senselessness behind her disappearance, the yawning lack she left behind, were concepts she could not spare thought to. Wounds were for the flesh, Virara reasoned. The world in which Master resided was a place where softness and light could not reach.
“She could not follow me.â€
Virara's utterance crouched wretchedly beneath her tortured white breathing. That was what she'd told the other girl. There was a widening gap between them that had only grown into a chasm with time. For as much as one wanted to bridge it, Virara moved only in one direction. To the place where Master resided. Her mounting pace had proven too much for the girl who would call Virara friend. A term she understood poorly and yet was somehow eager to oblige. It had been farce, hadn't it? A waste of time that could have been spent training. What strength was gained there, from knowing that girl, from purging her demons? The terror she knew paled in comparison to what lay at the end of Master's hellish path.
Her hand trembled with a familiar warmth, the grasp of soft fingers utterly unlike her own. The feeling of one other, unlike Master and yet like Master, a person who seized Virara's concentration, like the boy who desired to be a 'hero.' They spoke nonsense. They confused her. She desired something from Virara the island girl could not offer. And yet, much the same, she could not be apart from them. No thought was spared, none that she could recognize, for Virara had nothing to offer. To triumph over the immaculate being that trained her, her sole goddess who ruled the realm of force itself, every unbidden process had to be wrenched from the throes of idleness and thrust onward towards her goal. She was a zealot and a heretic, desirous of accord and conflict. Until her fists found their destined resting place in Master's chest, Virara could not afford to be distracted. But an invisible gravity drew her to the girl that fell, and her strange toy.
“Why?â€
Virara's monotone voice resounded unconsciously against Coerthas's winds. As much reflex as a question, it had no inflection to define it as either. The nonsense of the leather eye patch in her pocket and its likeness upon her face, the symbol of her training, stabbed deep into the furthest reaches of her mind, the muscle she could not harden and steel against pain.
She could not think of that eye patch,but neither could she throw it away. It would cling to her unbidden until she trained hard enough to escape its grasp. Virara's eye remained covered, and she could not afford to be blinded by a second one. Beneath the shield of goatskin and bronzed rivets, the skin of her face and the tightness of her pupil retained her Master's touch. The naked eye was disaffected, calm, almost sleepy, a star ruby set in milky ivory. The covered eye was dark with dilation, a trembling red point paralyzed in murderous rage, the feeling in it numbed until it could harbor no other expression. Only one woman had seen that frozen eye. Virara believed so, at least. To show it to anyone else was akin to being laid utterly bare, and no one had the right to gaze upon her in such a way.
But the impossible girl who clung to herand asked things that didn't make sense knew the eye. No shield of calm expression or a barrier of goatskin could conceal the black desire within Virara, and she knew it, despite all of the island girl's wishes. Virara recoiled in disgust, feeling the probing half-stone gaze upon her even in its absence. Her thoughts belonged to no one else. They were simple, uncomplicated, monomaniacal because they had to be. There couldn't be any other way, so why did she insist on complicating things? If Virara was precious to her, and she to Virara, why the fall?
“You trouble me.â€
Had they never met, Virara would not know the distraction that grasped the instinctive, lizard part of her brain. Her neglected byways of thought would stay in the shadows, and her brain could focus on firing the bursts of intent that jolted limbs into position and gauged distance, predicted movement, weighed options within the comfortable, safe confines of the melee. The unmentionable force pawing at the back of her mind since the square was a far greater threat.
“You troubled me.... Mel-â€
She seized upon the sound of crunching snow behind her with a starving girl's hunger. Her ears would not deceive or confuse her, not in the emptiness of the wasteland. Had she been followed? Virara's mind raced for the succor of regimented thought, and immediately set about the task of identifying threats.
Two. Three. Four. Elezen. Male. One female? Walking in single-file. The crunches of hardening snow grew softer in their succession. The sound was confident, assured. They knew the area and were without fear. 'He' did not have such clumsy steps. The spider that shadowed her every move, even from La Noscea would never be so careless as to let his footsteps be heard. Then, were they of the Ishgardian banner? No, Virara reasoned in silence, such soldiers, no matter how trained, exhibited wariness when in enemy territory. They were of the heretics party no doubt, too trained to be bandits, too calm to be of the Holy See's enlisted. Virara had done her research, but in typical fashion, she cared nothing for motivations or the history behind their hostility, only their way of doing things, their manpower, their equipment, their method of killing. She had no sympathy or interest in the cause of their grievances towards the city state, and felt no desire to protect the citizens the Ishgardian military swore to protect. What only mattered were their numbers, their skills and their intentions. These were solid, tangible things. Virara liked it better that way.
Virara exhaled into the collar of her winter coat, feeling the rising heat of her breath. Her sinews twitched in anticipation, a boiling sensation coiling up within her innards. Her eye trembled, darting about as the crushing footsteps spread out in long, winding paths about her. She was being encircled, a cautious move. Most of the larger folk didn't bother with such shrewd positioning, given her relatively small size. They were not men and women who took risks. A wise choice given the hostility of their crystalline home and its bounty of fatal promises.
“A child? Out here in the snow?â€
Virara's soft-ear twitched at the hissing whisper that followed the snowy winds behind her. A single glance over her shoulder revealed to her the gaunt shadows slouching through the white mists.
“No.They're uncommon. 'Round here. Might be she's just a 'venturer, not of the Holy See.â€
“Even so, she's unwelcome.â€
The Lalafell girl was certainly an unusual sight. Clad in raven tones that stood out stark as a sun in the depth of night against the tundra, her posture betrayed no exhaustion or doubt. Her controlled breaths, long since sanded in the merciless hands of her Master, were even, identical puffs of white steam, too uniform and large to belong to any normal girl her size. And her crimson gaze overflowed with a muted hostility that followed Virara everywhere she went. A gaze that could flay alive, an eye that promised agony beyond mortal comprehension. The stare was a gift from Master's empty smile. When Virara's two mismatched gazes aligned fully, she would become a demon that thirsted only for battle. Within her tiny, compact form lay the groundwork for a fatal art centuries in the making, forgotten to history and Hydaelyn itself, for it was a mark of vile shame that should not have existed. Master, for all her strength, could not change the course of history back in Othard. But even the tiniest fraction of that power would be enough for Virara to bury them, if it proved necessary.
Skulking deep within her mind, a tiny child,lost on an island in Sea of Jade, hoped it proved necessary. She did not know doubt, or the agony of Memeli's gaze, or the confusion of Chachanji's words. The child knew hunger and thirst, and one language, spoken with hands, feet and teeth.
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AV by Kura-Ou
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AV by Kura-Ou
Wiki (Last updated 01/16)
My Balmung profile.