(02-25-2015, 10:47 AM)Coatleque Wrote: Computers have been a staple of our lives for almost 20 years now.  If you don't know the difference between the 'address' bar and the 'search' bar, GTFO of the internet.

So tired of spoon feeding people over the phone how to browse to a simple web page.

(02-25-2015, 11:10 AM)Khoure Wrote: Let me preface this rant by mentioning that I'd never actually follow through on these urges, and I know the thoughts I get are wrong and very unfair to my fellow human, so trust me, I'm not an asshole. But at the same time, I can't really control getting those urges in the first place, short of hightailing it out of there. I guess this is less "why humanity" and more "why brain why". It is still IRL tho, so on topic?

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okay, so the sound of eating. The sound of someone mashing a slimy wet mushy wad of food with their mouth WIDE FREAKING OPEN IN THE MIDDLE OF PUBLIC. No matter how I try to reason with myself, it's impossible for me not to consider them a disgusting pig, a vile shit covered cow of a person, almost anything that invokes disgust that I can call them, I've done it in my head.

Trust me, I tell myself all the time, food eating is such a small thing, and to think it has any indicator on intelligence is really messed up. But if you're making easily preventable eating noises I will without a doubt compare your intelligence to an animal as I fill with a rage no human should ever have over something so ridiculous.

When someone is not just eating with their mouths open, but also talking with food still in their mouths, or loudly sucking sauce off their fingers, or making that completely unnecessary smacking noise with the wad of chewed up paste in their mouth?  there are few things I want to do more than jump over to them and tear the food from their mouth, hit them, slap,, throw them to the ground, stomp on their face, etc.. the worst is how much the thought of watching them cry and bleed in some way makes me happy in those moments and then also distressed because what the hell is wrong with me.

And of course, there's the flipside where sometimes I just feel so trapped and panicked, and I end unable to do anything cause my hearts racing and I just want to get out of there so badly. So I bite my cheek, cover my ears, squeezing  down with the base of my thumbs until my earlobes ache, hoping that if I'm obvious enough they might take pity and if they aren't, at least it's muffled a bit.

I also hate it how so many people bring apples to lecture because I legit can NOT work or concentrate on anything when that hell-fruit is being consumed in my vicinity.

(02-25-2015, 11:49 AM)Gegenji Wrote: I eat with my mouth open... sometimes?

I'm pretty sure I don't do it much anymore, but I can't say I've never not done it (and I'm not so bold to state that I never do it now, I'm sure there's a couple cases where I still do that just slip my mind). I think my biggest offender with it when I was younger was with mashed potatoes. And I love me my mashed potatoes, so I got a stern talking to more than once.

(02-25-2015, 11:44 AM)Unnamed Mercenary Wrote:

(02-25-2015, 11:10 AM)Khoure Wrote: Let me preface this rant by mentioning that I'd never actually follow through on these urges, and I know the thoughts I get are wrong and very unfair to my fellow human, so trust me, I'm not an asshole. But at the same time, I can't really control getting those urges in the first place, short of hightailing it out of there. I guess this is less "why humanity" and more "why brain why". It is still IRL tho, so on topic?

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okay, so the sound of eating. The sound of someone mashing a slimy wet mushy wad of food with their mouth WIDE FREAKING OPEN IN THE MIDDLE OF PUBLIC. No matter how I try to reason with myself, it's impossible for me not to consider them a disgusting pig, a vile shit covered cow of a person, almost anything that invokes disgust that I can call them, I've done it in my head.

Trust me, I tell myself all the time, food eating is such a small thing, and to think it has any indicator on intelligence is really messed up. But if you're making easily preventable eating noises I will without a doubt compare your intelligence to an animal as I fill with a rage no human should ever have over something so ridiculous.

When someone is not just eating with their mouths open, but also talking with food still in their mouths, or loudly sucking sauce off their fingers, or making that completely unnecessary smacking noise with the wad of chewed up paste in their mouth?  there are few things I want to do more than jump over to them and tear the food from their mouth, hit them, slap,, throw them to the ground, stomp on their face, etc.. the worst is how much the thought of watching them cry and bleed in some way makes me happy in those moments and then also distressed because what the hell is wrong with me.

And of course, there's the flipside where sometimes I just feel so trapped and panicked, and I end unable to do anything cause my hearts racing and I just want to get out of there so badly. So I bite my cheek, cover my ears, squeezing  down with the base of my thumbs until my earlobes ache, hoping that if I'm obvious enough they might take pity and if they aren't, at least it's muffled a bit.

I also hate it how so many people bring apples to lecture because I legit can NOT work or concentrate on anything when that hell-fruit is being consumed in my vicinity.

yes. YES. ALL OF IT SO MUCH. You have described a person I live with. But might I add. Oatmeal. Lip-smacking. And demon noodles (instant ramen). When this person eats, I usually immediately reach for anything that can make noise. (Usually computer headset or headphones). ...if I can't think of a good excuse for a song, I put on white noise. Sweet, blissful, white noise.

(02-25-2015, 11:46 AM)Kage Wrote: My mother works in the same semiconductor manufacturing place that I do. Occasionally I eat lunch with her.

... I keep trying to tell her in Mandarin (most people are Vietnamese here, next subsets are Mexicans or Filipino) to close her mouth when she's chewing or to not speak when she's got food in her mouth still. It's gross. And sometimes I'm sitting right in front of her and :c

(02-25-2015, 11:49 AM)Gegenji Wrote: I eat with my mouth open... sometimes?

I'm pretty sure I don't do it much anymore, but I can't say I've never not done it (and I'm not so bold to state that I never do it now, I'm sure there's a couple cases where I still do that just slip my mind). I think my biggest offender with it when I was younger was with mashed potatoes. And I love me my mashed potatoes, so I got a stern talking to more than once.

I do make sure to never talk when my mouth is full, though. Which has led to me sometimes being asked to hurry up and finish eating because I spent more time in conversation than actually working on the meal.

(02-25-2015, 12:04 PM)Khoure Wrote:

(02-25-2015, 11:44 AM)Unnamed Mercenary Wrote:

(02-25-2015, 11:10 AM)Khoure Wrote: Let me preface this rant by mentioning that I'd never actually follow through on these urges, and I know the thoughts I get are wrong and very unfair to my fellow human, so trust me, I'm not an asshole. But at the same time, I can't really control getting those urges in the first place, short of hightailing it out of there. I guess this is less "why humanity" and more "why brain why". It is still IRL tho, so on topic?

Show Content

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okay, so the sound of eating. The sound of someone mashing a slimy wet mushy wad of food with their mouth WIDE FREAKING OPEN IN THE MIDDLE OF PUBLIC. No matter how I try to reason with myself, it's impossible for me not to consider them a disgusting pig, a vile shit covered cow of a person, almost anything that invokes disgust that I can call them, I've done it in my head.

Trust me, I tell myself all the time, food eating is such a small thing, and to think it has any indicator on intelligence is really messed up. But if you're making easily preventable eating noises I will without a doubt compare your intelligence to an animal as I fill with a rage no human should ever have over something so ridiculous.

When someone is not just eating with their mouths open, but also talking with food still in their mouths, or loudly sucking sauce off their fingers, or making that completely unnecessary smacking noise with the wad of chewed up paste in their mouth?  there are few things I want to do more than jump over to them and tear the food from their mouth, hit them, slap,, throw them to the ground, stomp on their face, etc.. the worst is how much the thought of watching them cry and bleed in some way makes me happy in those moments and then also distressed because what the hell is wrong with me.

And of course, there's the flipside where sometimes I just feel so trapped and panicked, and I end unable to do anything cause my hearts racing and I just want to get out of there so badly. So I bite my cheek, cover my ears, squeezing  down with the base of my thumbs until my earlobes ache, hoping that if I'm obvious enough they might take pity and if they aren't, at least it's muffled a bit.

I also hate it how so many people bring apples to lecture because I legit can NOT work or concentrate on anything when that hell-fruit is being consumed in my vicinity.

yes. YES. ALL OF IT SO MUCH. You have described a person I live with. But might I add. Oatmeal. Lip-smacking. And demon noodles (instant ramen). When this person eats, I usually immediately reach for anything that can make noise. (Usually computer headset or headphones). ...if I can't think of a good excuse for a song, I put on white noise. Sweet, blissful, white noise.

(02-25-2015, 11:46 AM)Kage Wrote: My mother works in the same semiconductor manufacturing place that I do. Occasionally I eat lunch with her.

... I keep trying to tell her in Mandarin (most people are Vietnamese here, next subsets are Mexicans or Filipino) to close her mouth when she's chewing or to not speak when she's got food in her mouth still. It's gross. And sometimes I'm sitting right in front of her and :c

That must suck so much, I can't imagine it. The worst is, if it were just gross and annoying, it would be one thing. But it's never just that. There's that completely out of character intense anger, the actual violent urges (I wasn't actually using hyperbole unfortunately, the dissonance between "I want to watch you cry with pain I inflicted" and "what in the holy eff is wrong with me" isn't fun). The stress of being unable to stop those feelings, unable to focus on anything else, and unable to not listen for the next sound. And the times where it's panic instead are also hell, like sometimes you're just flinching every time you hear it because the urge to react is so strong. My roommates friend last year liked to do the things I described earlier and now I'm wired to despise her voice at all times because there were so many memories of being subjected to that stress and being unable to escape because it was in my room. She came over to eat almost every day during exam season, and I just could not handle it, since my good headphones had broken and there was nothing to block the sound