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RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Mikh'a - 05-20-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
Mikh'a has never killed anyone, and to be completely honest I hope he never does.
In regards to other people killing, however, it's purely based on the situation in which it has been presented to him. He, personally, is a pacifist in as close a sense to the word as he can get. He does not like, nor agree with violence and avoids performing it at all costs unless he absolutely needs to be directly involved. It's one thing to punch a monster in the face, it's another to punch a person. ( And we're talking legitimate monsters, not Beast Tribes. ) He took the route of healing to save lives, not end them. That said he understands that there is a certain necessity that comes with war. His friends, those people he spends time with both in and out of the Dauntless? Most all of them have killed, and despite his poking at them to try to find better solutions he does not, and will not hold it against them.
How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
He hasn't killed, but I can guarantee you if he ever does it will be devastating for him. I've imagined several scenarios where he HAS killed, and they all usually end with him brooding and depressed and for a short time non-functional. It usually requires someone to slap him back to reality though he'd never be the same again. Killing someone would destroy something inside of him. He begged to save the life of a murderer, after all, because he firmly believes no one deserves to die.
Does your character mull over it later on?
Mikh'a mulls over stuff like this frequently, and it usually further fuels his nagging after people like Ki or Osric. If he could just prevent one pointless death...
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Telluride - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
For a man of his size, who has essentially been a survivalist for a good part of his life, and who is better with his weapons than most people know, Nathan tries to avoid killing - and violence itself, preferring to find any way he can out of a violent situation when possible at all, preferring charm and evasion to violence.
This attitude is a combination of his lust for life, his desire to spread happiness and mirth to people, and a conscious stifling of the memory of how he lost his entire family and troupe, and the little village where they were performing, to the Ixal.
However, anyone who can push him to the point where he has no choice but to use weapons will likely meet a different sort of person: cold and brutal. He legitimizes the few times (ICly, of course) he has had to be openly violent by telling himself that they insisted on bringing it upon themselves. Nathan is not a killer, and he abhors ending lives in general, but should he ever be put into a situation where he has to, it isn't even really the same man occupying his large form.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Absolutely nothing, and that's what scared him.
Aside from helping to fend off poachers and brigands from his troupe when he was young, Nathan's one experience with cold, ruthless killing was he returned to the site of his family's slaughter, to try and come to terms with it. He met up with a few Ixal at the site... and in a cold fury, killed every one of them with nothing more than raw muscles and a large rock, taking a good few wounds for his trouble. He'd hoped to find closure, and did in one sense, but found in himself a capability for violence that saved his life, but which he hopes not to need again: it was neither exciting nor frightening, just empty and hollow.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
Occasionally, but it has also made him even more determined to be the man he wants to be, one to spread good times and cheer, rather than just a burly archer and pugilist. The world has enough death and pain without making more of it.
Just don't break his lute. Do that, and you might as well put on an Ixal mask and start squawking, as far as he's concerned.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Qhora Bajihri - 05-20-2015
Death isn't quite the same as killing. Qhora lost a lot of people to death before she started killing people.
- How does your character deal with killing?
These days, it's no more exciting or provocative than handing in a homework assignment - either simple apathy or a minor sense of accomplishment. It's just something she does. Whether it's in the field as an adventurer or on a mission for unsavory clients, it usually doesn't affect her much. Depending on the particular situation, though, she can get downright gleefully sadistic.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Of an animal? She probably did dwell on it, but came to terms with it in a sort of 'this is how we eat' way. Of a person? It was devastating. It haunts her every second, awake and dreaming. But that had everything to do with who the person was, and less to do with the actual act. It was the combination of the two qualities that was massively destructive to her continued sanity.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
While there was a self-defense element that gives justification, she constantly considers how she could have avoided ending up in that situation in the first place. And its repercussions for her life shattered her identity. She's still having trouble deciding who she wants to be, and for her it resulted in an apathetic amorality behind a mask of smirking professionalism.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - cuideag - 05-20-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
Delial has made her peace with the fact that killing is just another part of her life, like eating and sleeping. If she laments anything, it is the fact that many of the people who she associates with (and, lately, have come to fight for) are unable to cope with the fact that one death might save so many more lives down the line. She views it as a practicality to be used for the benefit of the greater good, and so she does not find it hard to think that there are people who are better off dead.
How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Justified.
Does your character mull over it later on?
Rarely. There are special cases, however, and those are the ones that have lingered in her thoughts.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - shotgunbadger - 05-20-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
Zutoto has actually been around 'death' as a concept a while. Being the child of a fisher and a chef she learned very young that some animals are pets and some are food, and had seen her parents gutting/butchering their products since early childhood. Still, obviously, that's not the same as killing a fellow sentient creature.
She's a magic user, and magic is very powerful and dangerous, she accepts that even when she's 100% in control death could come to the people she fights. Because of that she's fairly slow to fight at all, seeing her magic as a weapon that has to be handled with care (and her interest in Black Magic sure is reinforcing that). She has killed, she was a pirate for a time after all, she doesn't have a big body count but it's a non-zero amount.
How did your character feel after her first kill?
Tired. Her first 'real' kill (assuming grilling a fresh carp for dinner doesn't count) was in a pitched battle with another, much more vicious, pirate crew. It was a long fight from ship to ship that left a lot of people hurt or dead. She didn't even know she killed anyone until someone pointed out that she 'had her first' and congratulated her. She wasn't happy about it, but it was a 'them or me' type thing so she didn't exactly lose any sleep over it. She really just wanted to rest.
Does your character mull over it later on?
Yes. Even when it's justified killing takes a heavy toll on someone not raised for it, Zututo has had more than a few sleepless nights from flashbacks or the like. It doesn't dominate her life, but she pretty surely has some issues that she's currently avoiding working out.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Vox_Aeternum - 05-24-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
Eiran avoids actually needing to take lives as much as she physically can, sometimes even to her detriment. She understands the idea of killing being necessary (and her religious beliefs centering so heavily on ideas of death and life after death lessens the sting somewhat), but has difficulty with even the idea of taking an active role in things. She has no problem with combat, even at this point finding battles more entertaining and exciting than anything, but still balks at the idea of striking a final and decisive blow.
How did your character feel after her first kill?
For Eiran, her first kill had depressingly little fanfare. Just her, on the brink of death; a hostile stranger, similarly wounded; and a knife taken from the latter. She sunk in the knife, watched the light in his eyes fade, and only realised what she had done hours later, in a sudden wave of horror and dread.
Does your character mull over it later on?
Eiran's first and only kill haunts her to a far greater degree than she's willing to admit or display. In quiet moments of contemplation she finds herself wondering what else she could have done, or how things would be different if she had died instead. Most inexplicably of all (to her at least), she finds herself shedding tears in mourning of the man who had tried to kill her in some desperate attempt to loot a few coins.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Hammersmith - 05-27-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Depends, a lot, on the who and the why. Â If you're a nobody, you're that. Â A footnote. Â A nothing. Â A non-entity. Â At best you'll be used as an example in some lesson in the future. Â At worst your corpse gets used as a weapon in the immediate aftermath.
If Hammer Gives a Shit it's a weight that gets carried. Â Usually brought up at a time that'll cause maximum injury for whoever's approaching it from the wrong angle.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Shock. Awe. Elation. Surprise. Â Confusion. Â It wasn't surprisingly, the first one that mattered. Â The first time opens a door. Â It's what happens once that door opened up that shaped who Hammer became.
- Does your character mull over it later on?
Yes. A lot. Â And as such he'll fish into other people's past and set hooks in their own memories of killing to see what threads come up. Â Then he'll start pulling. Â Just to see what's attached and where it goes. Â People aren't a puzzle to Hammer, but they are made up of a LOT of questions they don't seem comfortable with the answers to and he loves seeing how far that hole goes.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - DoomsdayClock - 05-27-2015
At first I wondered who to answer this as...but for now I'll just do Lho'a, and maybe later come back to this as one of the others just to see.
How does your character deal with killing?
Lho'a talks a big game about killing. He knows his overchanged magic usage is a trump card in the chance to take a life, and will boast about how easily he can do so....but he has yet to ever actually kill anyone. In fact in the instances that have come up around him that involved someone dieing, he seemed overly anxious and nervous at the outcome. I've plans to write a scene about it and post it eventually...his inability to even kill a rat scurrying through his room. Despite this he still fancies himself as quite the dark one.
How did your character feel after his first kill?
I guess we will see someday, if and when it happens. The first time he saw someone killed was when his Matron slew an attacker who had started a fight in their home. He'd watched the whole encounter and demanded no one step in, but afterwards he was quite thrown off at the sight. He used what healing he could to ease the woman's pain as she passed, knowing he couldn't actually save her...and then he curiously moved his fingers through her blood and licked them clean. He claims he wanted to consume her last memories and feelings, but I doubt he can actually do anything like that...
Does your character mull over it later on?
These days he spends a lot of time trying to preserve life. While his people fuel battles and draw out conflict, he works to resolve things so that everyone walks away with their heads, to the point of actually saving the life of one who is likely one of his Clan's worst enemies at present. He has no idea were he stands on things, and panic drives him to action. He is doing his best to never have to decide which side of the coin he has to fall on..for now at least.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Ryanti - 05-31-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Ryanti's system of beliefs and values are certainly in the 'ends-justify-the-means" realm. Because of that, he is often faced with adversaries that are opposed to everything he does. He understands that he lives in a time where it is often the one that survives that not only makes history but writes the books as well.
Because people treated him like shit in his youth, Ryanti has lost a lot of empathy for people he doesn't know. So he certainly is not going to deny that killing often is the easy solution to a complicated problem.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
His first kill was sloppy. It was botched, and it left Ryanti covered in the residue of his deed. Physiclly, his body was shivering, and he was crying. His anxiety levels were off the charts and part of him felt like panicking. But at the same time, he felt very cold, detached, and distant. What scared him more than the act of murder was that he felt nothing on the inside. He was 'cold crying' in other words. He didn't know how to handle it. His mind was confused at what was right or wrong but his body knew.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
He has had his fair share of emotional challenges because of the acts he has done. It definately effects how he feels about the people he cares about. He is very concerned about how the people he values would judge him if they see the side of himself that kills for his work in the reality he lives in. How he can basiclly do it without batting an eye. In a way, he is sociopathic towards people he does not know or who oppose him. His body count has gone up since he started taking on classified missions.
He is extremely vulnerable to watching the people he cares about suffer or die. This is what gives him sleepless nights and crying in the corner of a bathtub. He is hesitant with alcohol for this very reason, as he hss a fear of that coming out. He is also afraid that all of those emotions would eventually come to the surface and he would have a sort of mental breakdown at some point eventually. But for now it is a quiet emptiness. A shadow that follows him around.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Viola - 06-02-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
A Primal born of the wishes and prayers of a better life by oppressed and suffering lalafell have culminated into a rather merciless monster in the form of a Lalafell. Memenu Menu is not emotionless, but the ones she has killed she has no remorse.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
As indifferent as her most recent; Death is an inevitable part of the cycle of life. A Primal's concept of death is much different to that of a mortal's; if she dies, she's returned to the aether, only to come back even more pissed off than before.
- Does your character mull over it later on?
No, as of question two's reasoning.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - SunTzu7 - 06-03-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
Newton's a bit of a paradox in that while she will try to avoid killing if it's within her power to subdue instead, she has been part of a military force. She fought at Carteneau. Killing is well within her power and she'll not hesitate in a war or battle.
Outside though she'll try talking people down first. But push her too far and you'll soon see that Newton's silliness turns on and off in an instant.
How did your character feel after her first kill?
It was an ambush on her unit by a group of bandits, and reacting instinctively, she drove her blade through the first man. She was heavily armed and armoured, he was armed with a cheap sword and barely functional armour.
She barely had a second to register it before another sword came at her and she had to deflect that. All in all, she killed three people in that skirmish before they broke and ran.
They might have had their reasons, but they were attacking people she felt responsible for. In that respect, she didn't care much for the dead.
Does your character mull over it later?
Maybe the first time. Afterwards? No. Anyone who attacks something she's protecting is taking their lives into their own hands.
After Carteneau though, there's a noticeable drop in people she kills in combat. Make of that what you will.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Chill Man - 06-04-2015
(05-20-2015, 12:14 PM)Bakyn Wrote: So here are some questions for you:
- How does your character deal with killing?
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
- Javert won't go out of his way to kill, however if he kills then he'll make it as quick and efficient as he can manage.
- Javert's first kill left him feeling initiated; excited at his own success.
- Today Javert feels no regret, nor passion or self-satisfaction regarding killing.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Pumpkin - 06-05-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
She drinks and tries to act like it doesn't bother her.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Claire was forced by her captors as a child to lure civilians to be captured by pirates and taken to Sahagan. Counting that as her first time killing Claire was devastated and traumatized.Â
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
Claire will often sit and remember the lives of those she has taken, when this happens she usually starts drinking.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - -no longer matters- - 06-29-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
She's seen her fair share of death, She's been a Sell Sword, and Adventurer since she was 13 (Now 38) and has lived through quite a few bloody battles. She knows in war people dies, she can deal with it because she has to protect those that can't protect themselves.Â
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Scared, angry, and confused, she was 13, and she found out being an adventurer/Sell Sword wasn't a game.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
The kill? No, the death around her from some events still haunts her though.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Sylentmana - 06-30-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
Quickly, quietly, and professionally. Tsubaki was trained as a ninja from the time she could first walk and is is skilled in the arts of espionage, sabotage, and assassination. Â She actually enjoys assassination missions the most for two reasons:Â
First, she finds it thrilling to infiltrate a heavily guarded fortress, stalk a target unawares, then take them out before they even realize they've been killed. she also prides herself on killing the mark and ONLY the mark. Having to kill any more is sloppy. Second, her superiors only direct assassinations toward the more undesirable elements of the world such as criminals and corrupt politicians. She appreciates this shadowy justice system as it allows her to help make the world a better place for those that matter, i.e. innocents and those who protect them. It would bother her if she had to kill a friend or family member, but so far that hasn't happened.
How did your character feel after her first kill?
Hungry and a bit bored. The mission was far too easy for her skills and the target too arrogant to hire proper protection.
Does your character mull over it later?
Only if the mission was particularly memorable. If the mission was a true test of her skills, or the target was interesting or unusual, or something else that would make it worth remembering. Otherwise, she views it like any other mission she's given.