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RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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Poe’s Journal Entry


I met up with Rose…told her what has happened. She…she is a true friend. She said how sorry she was. I know she is. And…well, that’s about it, I guess. She seemed to be doing ok, I am sure it’s a lot to get used to. In time, I am sure things will all work out for them. I couldn’t be more happy, my best friend…and, well Ace is the closest thing I have to a brother. But then Ace started to speak of a mage that approached him, Risa potentially not safe. Thankfully we were able to find her and she was ok. And I suppose it was a romantic moment….except I was there. I mean, well, Ace said he loved us both and wanted to make sure we were safe. Rose….yeah, I could tell she was hung up on that word he used, but I wasn’t. He means like a sister, well, to me and Rose…well, he’s in love her. We know that.

Davin contacted me on the pearl, Relan had fallen and taken a nasty hit to the head. I rushed over, sad to leave Ace and Rose but I needed to make sure he was ok. I patched Relan up and Davin pulled me aside. He was concerned about how tired Relan had looked lately. I…I hadn’t noticed. I have been so wrapped up in my own stuff, I hadn’t really been paying close attention. I promised Davin I would keep an eye on him…maybe talk to the old man if need be. After seeing what happened with E and Lina…I just don’t want regrets. I want everyone to know how much I care for them, be it in words or actions. Though, I may never be able to say such things to some, how much I care.

I got back to the point to find Carter there…along with just about everyone else. After tense talks, Lina accepted Carter, well, for the time. I know everyone doesn’t trust him…I just hope Carter can demonstrate he is a decent guy. I will have to pull him aside sometime and talk with him, let him know he has my support as long as he is honest and well-intentioned.

Found out Ry had taken a Fear negating potion. He started talking and I got worried he was off to get himself into trouble. A potion to make him even more stubborn and reckless? I was going to go speak with him, but he left while I was speaking to Ace…I told Ace what had happened between S’anhu and I. I just wanted to clarify, Ace looked worried when he asked how I was holding up. So I told him… Ace was livid. I tried to calm him…it was a reason I was tempted to not say anything. I just…I didn’t want any issues, I just want S’anhu left alone. I mean, about this. He doesn’t need to be reminded of an impulsive moment and false words said. Rose decided she would speak to S’anhu soon. Not about me and him, thank Menphina. Just about the general concern of how he was. It’s true, Ace pointed it out, for the past two weeks something has been off. First Rose and Ace questioned if he was possessed. I have to say, part of that hurt, contemplating the idea that it wasn’t him who said those things to me. But, they dismissed the idea, sorta. Either way, clearly S’anhu just spouted things out and didn’t mean them, he is under a lot of stress and he must have sorta broke like Kora. It’s more proof they should be together, at least they seem to even each other out.

I didn’t want to hear or think of it anymore. And Ry had gone off with a potion that made him even more reckless than before. I wasn’t going to go make sure he was ok, but I needed to focus on ways I could help this crew rather than hurt them. Lina pointed me in the right direction and I was able to track him to the small hill outside the Forgotten Spring. He was sitting, watching the water of the springs. And we talked. He feels bad for thrusting the tension between S’anhu and I out into the spotlight. Again, I said it was ok, recited it all, S’anhu and Kora are together.

I asked him what it was like, the potion. I know I was nosy…but…I need to learn to keep my mouth shut. Thankfully he was not too upset with me, if anything, he seemed upset with himself. He said he always ended up upsetting others, making them feel bad…and he doesn’t want that. He did say he was socially awkward before. I think he just needs to spend some time speaking and interacting with others so he gets used to it. I am not sure I am much help, my track record isn’t great, but I still want to try…if he will accept it.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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Things have…I don’t know where to begin. How do you start fresh? New? To keep the haunting memories and feelings for others at bay?

I have taken steps in the right direction though. I am here for the others, I need to be the glue to heal these cracks within the crew. I hope others see I am trying to heal this group…trying to…help. I am sincere when I ask how they are doing…and it has been painful to be pushed to arms length. But I have accepted that, their choice and what they need to do. The pain I feel, it’s my own insecurities, reminding me of rejection from long ago. It will fade with time.

I brought out the bells. I used to hate having to perform each evening for the family. Mother said the moon wouldn’t rest until she had heard the sweet song and voice. I had stopped singing once I left. But…tonight, when the moon was overhead, it seemed, well, right. The lyrics came back to me so easily.

I watch you spin from afar
I drink you in and breath you out
I’m camouflaged by the timeline
I’m camouflaged when the sun shines

Two ships passing in the night
Two lips pressing ground the tides

I believe the world it spins for you
We will never be, I am the moon

I long to be a part
I isolate my heart
You’ve drawn me into your world
Now I too spin limbless

One hand clapping, where’s the wind
I stand spanning at your distant wings

I believe the world it spins for you
We will never be, I am the moon

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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Where…to start? So much happened, how can I keep it all straight?

Rose pulled me aside. She had a message from Ryillin…he would just hurt me and was no good at relationships. Rose was confused and I found myself irritated. I have been trying to offer my friendship to Ryillin, he has been pushing me away and then he tells Rose this? I understand, I mean, Rose asked me had I been looking at Ry. I dunno, have I? It seems I am a sucker for the broken birds. I was ashamed to admit it, I am lonely. It’s not about sex, dear Gods. I am far too inexperienced to have a craving for something like that. I just miss…that closeness, the snuggling; being able to feel the their heartbeat. And…somehow, I have managed a lot of rejection from men. If I could find my sense of humor I would have told Rose I will only snuggle with females from now. But…I guess the rejection has still made me feel a little raw…sore. Rose better watch it! She will find me crying and spooning her at this rate. A small smiley face is beside this last statement.

Ace and S’anhu…I know sometimes males just need to sorta fight it out. But I saw Ace’s face…they got into a fight…Called over the pearl, S’anhu wasn’t breathing. Ry was going to meet me in Costa, so he quickly ported me to Ace and S’anhu. And…I had mixed emotions. I haven’t spoken to S’anhu since he…since he lied about his feelings for me. I healed him though. He started breathing…Lina showed up, which was good. S’anhu needs the ones he wants around him. I went to speak to Ace. He seemed to have plans, talking to Ruhan. Ace…damnit Ace. Why did you say it like that? I know he was just trying to let me know I could go back and make sure S’anhu was ok. But…I never said I loved him. Not…out loud. And it doesn’t matter anyway. Stupid stupid thoughts. Stupid feelings. I hate them. All of them! Everyone has done such a grand job shutting them off around me…why can’t I?

I went back to S’anhu and Lina. I sorta lost it, I just, I don’t want to see them fighting. They…are…were…they are friends…I gave my best advice. To them both, him and Lina. Ace needs his friends…but they can’t just force things back to the way they were. Ace needs…little steps. I hope they heard me…maybe I am wrong. But I think Ace is hurt…he needs others to be gentle with him. Ace needs some time.

Ry came over the pearl, sounded mad. I know some stuff went down with Ace, Ruhan, Rose and Ryillin. I missed what exactly, I know there was a question about a deal with the fateweaver…the Gods never listen to my pleas. I apologized to S’anhu. An apology would be the best way to say goodbye. Kora will take care of him, he has his friends. S’anhu will pull through.

I met Ry out at Costa. He was irritated. I tried to calm him down, he kept apologizing for being emotional. Fuck, am I not one who would understand? I brought him down to show him the space we would use. He was irritable. Gods, rejected again, I am just trying to offer innocent friendship. Alicen showed up along with Ace and Rose. If anything…they brought a smile to my face. Ace and Rose….maybe they are working things out?

Ace and Ry got into it…Ry left but returned. They argued a bit more…but in the end I think it smoothed out. And…drinking. Easy to have a lot when someone is serving the drinks. Ace and Rose left, Ry and I started arguing some more…well…I guess it was arguing. He just kept saying he would hurt me. Why don’t I ever get a choice in anything?

Seriously….why don’t I?

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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Hesitant writing fills the page…

Mota has shown up. It was confirmed this evening. Ace, Rose and Ry have all met her, spoke to her in and around town. I guess it was a matter of time. I didn’t find out right away. I had gone to the ship to say hi to everyone. It….was awkward. New Elezen seemed nice enough. Not much a fan of wine? Nev seemed ready to introduce him to all sorts of liquor. I like her.

Lina and S’anhu were at the table too. I don’t know why he spoke to me. There isn’t a lot to say, I ended up feeling awkward. They were asking him about his emotions. Menphina, I kept my mouth shut, I didn’t say anything. I…I wanted to but I didn’t. And he looked at me before he answered. I had to look away. Telling more lies others what they want to hear. That’s why he ever said it to me. I guess he didn’t want me to feel unwanted….too bad that backfired. And then S’anhu left. It was because of me. I can tell.

I…I had to get off that ship. I went to go fish, but came across Ami and Ace speaking. Talked with them both a few, I hope Ami is ok…then Rose showed up, said she had been talking to Ry. That was when I discovered Mota had been around. Mota using her typically tactics, Rose and Ace…I could sense that storm brewing. But we were able to focus on the issue. Aether crystals? I remember when I was young, my mother dragging me constantly to see this…I suppose medicine woman. Always asking about my connection with the aether flow.

Perhaps mother is jealous? Maybe she wants that power for herself…or for Mota? I know she had the medicine woman come out and do something with the very earth we had our garden in. Perhaps that power is failing, mother needs another to ‘fix’ the land so she can still continue to make a profit?

But with this discovery of Mota…came the questions about why I left the family in the first place. I tried to explain, I didn’t want my mother choosing a mate for me, for us…And I couldn’t stay there, watching Mota follow in her footsteps, caring little for those she hurts. I…I am not sure what they thought.

Ry called over the pearl and we ended up in a conversation about Keeper ways. Ry had stated to me before he had been claimed. I guess…well, we know they can be…unclaimed. Ry pulled me aside while Ace and Rose…settled their disagreement about Mota.

It’s clear by the large splotch of ink either the writing tool rested there a moment or it broke somehow…

Ry said he had feelings. That was why he kept saying he was afraid he would hurt me. Perhaps this heart of mine is a curse. I care about others….I care deeply. But I am not fragile. I would rather hear nothing than hear falsehoods. I am not sure how to take this information. I mean, we all have feelings…right? I am not sure if he meant…more intimate feelings?

Regardless…we have to go forward with finding information in Aleport. Find out why Sula needed those shipments times. I need to speak to Relan as well, not sure if his missing merchandise could have anything to do with this. I…Gods, I hope Relan is not mixed up with this.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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It has been quiet with Rose and Ace gone. I hope they are doing well. They really did deserve a break. I have been able to keep myself busy though, Ryillin and I have grown closer. He has asked a lot of questions, only makes sense since he…well, he has been in the crew for while. He has seen and heard a lot.

I know that he makes me smile, something I hadn’t been doing much of. A lot has happened, too much to write about. But each day is better. I am looking forward to the party. I just want to see people smiling and happy.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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Nervous for the party. The crew has grown of late, I am hoping this will give us a chance to spend time with it all. I rolled fifty cigars, I hope Ace remembers the flowers, I know the ingredients Ry requested were delivered this morning. Menphina, please let this go well. And let me find time to talk to Ry, he seemed to want to speak more last night but I was exhausted.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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The party went better than I expected. It was nice to see everyone smiling…well, for the most part. There were a few hitches, I should have told Ace how strong the cigars were. And Ami made it clear she would no longer acknowledge me….funny she would when Ry brought me when he first tried to help her. Seems she keeps forgetting Daevien was the one that left and had only later ‘claimed’ he cared for me. Tough to believe anything out of someone’s mouth who is being partially possessed…controlled.

Ry made this amazing meal, I think everyone loved it it too. It seemed like we had plenty to drink as well. We even got to see some of the newer faces, got a bunch of details too about that love triangle….it does remind me of ….well, it doesn’t matter anyways. Ace and Rose seemed relaxed from their trip. I need to pull her aside and ask how it went.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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It is truly amazing how time heals. I have awoken, refreshed….I feel whole. It’s an odd feeling. I look back, have I grown? Was I truly so naive when I first met this crew? I hope I have grown, I hope they see it as well. I care about them, perhaps more than what others would consider ‘normal’, but it won’t stop me. They mean too much.

Ry has been sleeping soundly, I know he worked hard for the party. He didn’t have to and he did. How different things are for us as well….We sorta fell into each other. It makes me think that he was right…perhaps being enamored with ‘daywalkers’ was not what was right for me. He understands the expectations placed upon me as a Keeper…he knows all too well. And he also knows why I have walked away from so much. I still look back to that day on the ship when I was trying to heal him and I remember his expression, his confusion and comment, my healing being intimate. I worry that Mota will try to claim him. But…I claimed him. It was probably the most traditional thing I had ever done in my whole life. But Mota would destroy him. And….unlike Daevien and S’anhu who didn’t want to be with me…

Ry broke down his emotional walls…for me. For me. So if Mota comes again…I will fight with everything I have to keep him safe…and away from her. I promised him that. And I won’t fail.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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The past few days…where to begin? A group of us met up in Ul’dah as Lina’s hand was injured. Ry had told me about what happened when they rescued Lina, it seems she hurt it then. I had tried to help but when I was casting my spell she was in pain. I have never had my spells cause pain on someone, I pride myself on being incredibly gentle with others. That Lalafell…he angers me and he angered Rose with the statements about Ace. But we set that aside to quickly get Lina to the Padjals. He was able to help her and Lina was healed. But…things blew up between Ry and Ace. I spent some time talking to Ry about it, though I can tell it still is weighing on him.

The following night Ry and I dragged Joundi out to the tavern night. I remembered my bathing suit but we didn’t end up in the springs. It was for the best though. Learned a lot more about Joundi. Tortured soul in so many ways. I suppose after he shared about killing his family…..him distancing from us seemed to be his way of trying to protect us all. I hope he thought about some of the things I said. He has stopped drinking too, not sure if it is because he slipped up and spilled his secret that night with Rose around…or..

This evening we went to this ball. There was food and games. Ry, Joundi and I were speaking when Ami and her tribe entered the same building. Ami looked at me and I just continued with what I was doing. Part of me was mad when he sighed. Hadn’t I already said my piece to him….didn’t he understand? Then he needed to take a call. Joundi went out to look around and I went and got some food. Kel found me, we had a chance to laugh and drink. He seemed to be ok….until Dash showed up. By this point Joundi and I were speaking in the bar about forgiveness. On a side note, is it a requirement for all the males to be so damn stubborn? Ry wasn’t where I had last seen him, Ami was gone too. I tried not to think about whatever was going on. Dash and Kel had this blow up, I could tell Kel was irritated with me, he seems to think I think everything is simple…and it’s not. Dear Menphina, don’t I know that? Kel split and Joundi and I had a moment to talk more. I hated it, but Joundi had a point. I worry so much about others I don’t do well giving myself time or put myself first. We might have continued that conversation but I heard Ry over the pearl. He had tried again to help Ami. He was wounded and I was able to heal that, not without tension between Ry and Cao.

And lastly, earlier today I went to see Lan-I-Mata. She was grueling. She said I was draining myself emotionally again and I needed to focus and ground myself again. Gave me more tea. I think a relaxing night at Fallgourd might be just what I need.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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I spent the morning harvesting some herbs deep within the Shroud. I want to see if I can help Ace with his nightmares. Lan-I-Mata had given me the recipe and once I had the herbs, I returned to show her. She demonstrated how to cure and process them so they could make a tincture or a tea. I have a small satchel for tea and a some vial of tincture. She did warn me though, that it could be an emotional experience. Dreamwalking, she called it, not something one should just do on a whim, but only if one seeks the truth behind what they experience at night.

I was glad to see Ace so I could tell him. I know he has a lot to do, I think when we get the chance I will ask Rose to stay with us. I think Ace would feel more at ease and I don’t want the experience to be distressing.

I checked in on the old man. Relan was in good spirits and he jokingly asked if I had grown taller since he last saw me. Clearly he wants to see me a little more often and I promised him I would. Relan asked if I had seen Mota. I hadn’t heard a word from anyone seeing her…..other than Joundi mentioning he knew her. Are they…friends?

Ry and I exchanged gifts for the holidays. He gave me this beautiful pendant, I love it. It was thoughtful too, a way to hear his voice even when he is gone training. I know he has been training over at the pugilist guild, training hard. I gave him the necklace I made. I didn’t mention what the small wooden pendant was made from. It’s not that I think he is reckless, but I figured he would need added protection and especially protection of the mind. I know the Mender would believe this was a good use for a bit of the Willow heart wood.

I have also started working on a staff for myself. For some time I have….well, I didn’t want to put myself out there as healer. I don’t wear the robes gifted to me often. Lan-I-Mata spoke of that, stating she suspected I was fearful of letting others down, so if they don’t know of my gifts, I can’t disappoint. Ugh - I didn’t want to tell her she was right, but maybe there is truth to that, you know? That odd Padjal simply laughed and gave me a list of items to gather for her. I asked what it was for and she said it would be for a new robe. Not that I should get rid of my other robe, but the new one would be catered more to my ‘specialties’ with healing. Some of the items might be difficult to get and she told me to take my time, the robes would be created when it was the appropriate time. Whatever that means.

My next harvest for the cigars is coming up. Thank the Twelve! Relan has a new place for me to store my merchandise, he even suggested I infuse some liquor with the herbs and see if that sells. He is a smart one, that old man. I think perhaps I will try to make a bottle or two and bring it to the crew to try.

And Rose! Shared such good news, we didn’t get a chance to finish speaking so I don’t even dare write down what she shared. But oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh! This was underlined SEVEN times!

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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I went up to see everyone, find out how the job went and all. Some had already left, sadly I was too late to speak with them. Joundi and Neviana were still there, Ry joining us shortly after. Chatting with them a bit, I noticed Joundi seemed to using his arm oddly, trying to tug his sleeve down. I asked to see it and he showed a branding he received from…well, you know.

Ry and I started speaking with Joundi, trying to see if there was a way around this…sorcery those twelve mages did to him. Joundi kept insisting he performed too many atrocities to the forest and the residents. It got me thinking. The Padjals prize the Willow tree wood….and, if I were to fulfill my duty as a Mender, perhaps the forest would allow forgiveness to Joundi. Even if it is only enough for the Padjals to speak with him and see if they can help, it would be worth it.

Of course, I didn’t say any of this to anyone. Gods, even Ry does not know his gifted pendant is made from that very wood. I rushed back to Relan’s and spoke with him about the idea. He could tell I was excited, trying to tell me to calm down. He asked if I was ready to take on the duty’s of a Mender. I guess…I am not sure. But I also can not see Joundi continuing like this.

Lan-I-Mata would know. She is eccentric as far as Padjals go, she knows of the Menders. I might not have a tribe but that does not mean I can not fulfill the duties of one…

I will go to see her tomorrow evening. We have a lot to discuss and I need answers.

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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My head is swimming. It is, I don’t really know what to think. I need to find Rose. She might have suggestions for me.

After I ran off to see Relan, I returned to Ry’s place. It was nice that he was home that evening, he has been training so hard. A quiet night was exactly what I needed. And…then he said it. Yup, that he loves me. I go from having never heard it in my life, to hearing it from two different men once I join this crew. I….I was nervous at first. I remember when S’anhu had said it, I know he was under duress at the time, so that makes it different…or something.

Ry said it and I felt like he meant. He means it right? I even…I don’t even know if I asked him if he meant it, or just said that he must have meant it perhaps? I was so overwhelmed. I told him the same, because I do love him. He has been there for me, even if he hasn’t always seen eye to eye with others of the crew. Was it too soon? I fell asleep easily that night.

A return to Relan in the morning and I blurted it all out to him. The old man simply smiled at me and hugged me. I could tell by his face he thinks it cute…but he must not believe it’s real. I asked him outright and he smoked his pipe a moment, finally stating that we all having to go through different experiences to learn and grow; that my heart was big and I had the ability to care for everyone. So the old man thinks I am foolish….or I have much to learn…or something.

I packed my stuff for Lan-I-Mata’s. I just wanted to check on Joundi’s arm before I met her over at Fallgourd. I was directed toward where he was staying and walked in….he was swinging his axe around and I think I startled him. No one was hurt, but I could tell he was uncomfortable. Probably…well….he wasn’t wearing a shirt. He re-emerged once he was fully dressed and we talked about his arm…but the topic got off course. And then he was saying he knew I was with Ry but he just wanted to let me know he cared for me.

Rose….Rose! I need to talk to you right now!~

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

Fall from grace

Poe had been sitting in her hammock, lounging in the window of Relan’s storefront for half the sun’s time in the sky. Not because she was nervous, Poe refused to believe that was a factor. Flopping to her side, the hammock swaying light, her gaze settled on the wooden box sitting on Relan’s table. The Mender’s box.

Her finger’s grasped the small locket Ry had gifted to her and she nodded. Getting herself up and out of the hammock, she walked to the table, eyes focused. Poe scooped the box up, tucking it safely into her satchel. Writing out a short note, it read:

Ry –
Joundi was approached by the very same mage looking for Lina. I fear we must hasten our efforts to see if the Padjals will help. I have left a message for Lan-I-Mata and I am heading to Gridania now to speak with the Elder Seedseer Kan-E-Senna. I will return with word if the Padjals will lend aid.
-Poe

Exiting Relan’s shop as she yanked her jacket on, Poe located a Moogle and gave them the instructions to deliver the note to Ry. Anxiously, she rubbed her hands together and she found a local mage who could get her to Gridania quickly.

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Arriving in Gridania, Poe hurried along, one hand clutched to her satchel. She kept her gaze low, passing through the crowded streets until she arrived. Nervously swallowing, she entered the building. Two Twin Adders nodded to her, the small waiting room still spacious and well lit. The Elezen Adder opened the engraved door into the adjoining room, motioning to Poe. Her eyes wide, Poe stood, “For me?”

The other Adder, a Midlander nodded, “She is waiting to see you.”

Poe swallowed nervously, “Of course.” Smoothing the front of her jacket once more, nervously touching her satchel, she strode through the door.

The first thing Poe noted was the plants. Large ferns, beautiful flowers, the room was filled with foliage. Elder Seedseer was looking out a window that had a view of the waterfall in the center of town. She turned, offering a warm smile, “Poe Lhyzeal.”
Poe immediately felt her knees begin to shake and she offered a bow, “Elder Seedseer, thank you for seeing me.”

Kan-E-Senna motioned for Poe to sit, the Padjal herself sitting in an oversized chair made of silk, “I don’t get requests to speak with those who have trained as high as you every day. I am interested.”

Poe nodded as she sat in an ornate wooden chair, swallowing as she placed her satchel in her lap. “I came to ask for help.”
Kan-E-Senna smiled, “What kind of help are you looking for?”

Poe took a long breath, words suddenly bursting from her lips. “It’s my friends. They are like my family, well, they are the crew, but really friends and I love them like family. But that isn’t why I am here. I mean-“

Kan-E-Senna raised a brow and lifted her hand, motioning Poe to stop, “Perhaps I shall order us some tea. You can take a moment.” Poe’s face immediately turned a hot red and she nodded, gaze falling to her lap. Kan-E-Senna walked out of the room, closing the room behind her.

Poe sighed, flopping further down in the chair, her hands resting on her satchel. Pulling the box out, she looked down at it in her hands. It contained everything.

The door opened, Kan-E-Senna and the two Adders came back inside. The door was firmly shut behind them. Poe glanced between the three, her eyes a bit wary. Looking back to Elder Seedseer, Poe’s voice was barely above a whisper, “What is going on?”

The two Adder’s shifted their weight, expressions neutral. Kan-E-Senna sat back down in her overstuffed chair, “I wanted to make sure I did indeed sense what you have brought with you. I needed a moment to clear myself.”

Poe glanced down to the box and back up at Kan-E-Senna, stunned, “You could sense the…Sacred Willow?”

The Padjal sat a moment, staring back intently at Poe before answering. “Of course I can.” Kan-E-Senna adjusted the sleeve of her robes, her gaze still on Poe, finally speaking again, “There had been no word about a new Mender for several cycles. There have always been three….but the last six cycles, only two.”

Poe nodded, leaning towards the Padjal, her hands shaking, “I brought it…to see if you could help.”
Kan-E-Senna arched a delicate brow, “I sense your heart and intentions pure. What is this help you seek?”

Poe didn’t speak immediately. She didn’t know what to say, what was too much information to share? Explain all of Lina’s story, no, that would take too long. Joundi had requested she not mention him by name. Poe sighed, realizing suddenly the Elder Seedseer was still waiting for a response. Nervously smiling, Poe nodded, “I have a friend whose life has been in danger. There are some who wish harm to her. Those behind it are using the rest of my friends, attempting to coerce them into giving her over. One of these friends who has recently been pressured has been…cursed, magic of some sort. He is incapable of receiving healing from magic.”

At first Kan-E-Senna’s face was one of caring, understanding. But once Poe started to describe Joundi, the Padjal’s eyes seemed to ice over, “So are you coming to ask for protection for your one friend or aid to help heal the other?”

Poe looked flustered, bowing her a head, “I came to ask primarily for the friend who needs aid. With him fully healed, I believe our crew could continue to protect our friend from those that hunt her.”

The Padjal’s eyes fell to the wooden box in Poe’s grasp, “And so you brought a piece of the Sacred Willow….to ask me to look the other way and aid him.” Poe nervously shook her head. She wasn’t sure if the Padjal had realized who she was speaking of, but she sensed the anger starting to brew.

“That wasn’t it at all. I felt ready, I had started to read through the information she left for me. I brought this in good faith, I realize it’s importance to Padjals, to the White Mages. I am asking for a trade, a piece of the wood for your help with my frie-“

“Enough!”

Poe shut her mouth, biting her lip nervously. Kan-E-Senna rose to her feet. Poe could hear the Adders shifting their weight behind her ear. A quick glance over her shoulder confirmed they looked tense. The Padjal moved to stand before Poe, her expression heavy, “Poe Lhyzeal. I hearby recant your membership to the Conjurer’s Guild and will no longer be acknowledged as a White Mage.”

Poe gasped, getting to her feet, “What?!” She felt one of the Adder’s touch her shoulder and she angrily shrugged from their grasp. “What is this about?”

Kan-E-Senna shook her head, “You have already made choices. You choose to help those that have not always served in Gridania’s best interest. White Mages are no strangers to corruption, but I will not allow this to happen. Per our agreement with the Menders, you will be free to roam our city as long as you continue to serve the Shroud. But hear me when I say I will be watching you.”

Poe’s large green eyes started to tear up, her ears flopping, “I…I am only trying to help my friends.” The Padjal continued to stand there, shaking her head. Poe meekly picked up the Mender box and tucked it into her satchel. She glanced to the two Adders, nodding as she moved past them to the door. With a hand on the handle, Poe turned to look at the Elder Seedseer once more.

Kan-E-Senna’s face softened and she approached Poe. “I understand you were forced to make a difficult choice without knowing the implications beforehand.” The Padjal canted her head as if debating speaking the next words, “No road is closed to those true of heart. Go speak with Lan-I-Mata.”

Poe was ushered out the door before she could ask for a clarification. What had just happened? Stripped of her membership, renounced as a white mage…how had this gone so terribly wrong?

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

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Poe’s Journal Entry


*The journal appears to have been the target of anger. The binding partially split, one corner dinged, the leather scuffed. Perhaps thrown about?*

Disgraced…

I had never hoped to be someone of importance. But then again, I also never thought that…helping…my good intentions would lead me to such a dark place. Kan-E-Senna…She knew my heart was pure, she said so….and yet…

A lengthy pause in the writing; the parchment stark white.

Relan had always warned, there would be a day where I had to make difficult choices. And that even the smallest choice could…impact in ways I could never imagine. I have not dared return to see him. Not that Relan cares for titles, for memberships, but…it is proof I failed. I have been trying to rack my brain…did I want to be a white mage? No…but I had a natural gift with healing. I found a trainer who challenged me….I have feared it is all lost now.

Kan-E-Senna told me to go speak to my trainer before she had me escorted out of her building. Will Lan-I-Mata even acknowledge me? Speak to me? I had sent her a note…asked to meet. I will go to Fallgourd in two evenings as planned, hopefully to see her. Please, please be there.

I now have to face the crew. How do I say this to any of them? Only Relan and Joundi knew of my plan to go speak to Elder Seedseer. I will face them both, tonight. I had come across an old map in Relan’s secondary storage space. I want to speak to them tonight.

I don’t want them to think of me as weak…I didn’t mean to mess this up. I fear the Adders will know Joundi is around. I am not sure, but I am hope he will be able to stay safe. Thank the Twelve I did not share more about Lina. In my innocent attempt at helping….I am seem to be leaving a trail of ruin. And what will Ryillin think? The rest of the crew?

I..I am no longer a White Mage. Who am I now?

RE: Poe's journey (Poe Lhyzeal's Journal) - Poe - 03-25-2014

Poe's Journal Entry

Lan-I-Mata has given me so much to think about. It started when I went out to Fallgourd to meet her. I…I wasn’t even sure she would show up. But there she was…I rushed over to see her and she looked me over. I could feel my ears starting to droop, I was so fearful this was it, our goodbye. She looked me over and sighed. I immediately asked her why she was sighing and then she responded. You look exactly the same…nothing has changed.

I suppose I got a little irked, I mean, what was that about. But then the odd Padjal explained. She knew beforehand that I was not meant to follow in the path of a White Mage. I couldn’t understand it then, why would she have agreed to be my trainer knowing this? Lan-I-Mata explained that she knew my predecessor, it sounds like quite well. Lan-I-Mata said she had been on the lookout for the next Mender, though she had not expected for me to just show up. To say I was baffled would be putting it lightly. She quickly asked if I had the Mender’s box with me. The two of us poured over the writings inside that the Mender had left me.

Lan-I-Mata came up with a list of things I needed to collect. She explained that it was time to truly set out on the path of a Mender. My empathic abilities will become heightened when traveling in the Shroud, so I need to be mindful. Lan-I-Mata told me I needed to gather flax harvested in the Sylph gardens. She will be able to create robes that will help me keep…some of my abilities in check while in the Shroud. She explained I was expected to look over the Eastern Shroud, so stated I needed to go out and visit, inspect, return to the lands and listen to the elements.

I suppose all of her…odd trainings, ways of speaking were her way to prepare me for what a Mender’s life means. Lan-I-Mata prepared to head off, stating she would return in two nights again. We would have tea and speak with the messengers of the Shroud, learn how I could help them.

Things have been dumped upside down…now I must find my way.