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Death and how your character handles it. - Makyn Loneseeker - 05-20-2015
So, recently, I remebered a previous RP with which Makyn was asked if he had killed, and how he felt about it. He deals with killing just fine, though his first made him throw up. Later on, though, he sometimes shakes awake from nightmares, as his mind went back to those kills.
So here are some questions for you:
- How does your character deal with killing?
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Cynel1 - 05-20-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
-Cyneler is a Solider He is Forced to Kill in the Line of Duty.
 How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
- He Felt some remorse after this first kill.
Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
- For a while he Started to have PTSD induced Nightmares from the Killings.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Max - 05-20-2015
Canonically, neither of my characters have taken a life yet (Although, Pairo might have indirectly through arson) But I'll answer theoretically!
- How does your character deal with killing?
Pairo is unapologetic and a wee-bit divergent. He'd probably absolve himself of all guilt and place the blame on the victim. 'They shouldn't of gotten in the way.' 'They should have ran.' 'They attacked me first.'
Max on the other hand wouldn't resort to killing if he could help it. He's more the type to incapacitate his enemy or beat them to submission. He's more mindful, I think, of life and the value of it. He couldn't stomach the burden of murder.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Pairo wouldn't be too in his feelings about it. He (ridiculously) justifies everything he does in his head.
If Max were to kill someone, it would've been a complete accident. He'd probably freak out.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
Definitely not for Pairo. It would be yesterday's news.
Max... he'd probably mull over it the rest of his days.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Manari - 05-20-2015
Manari has been dealing with loss of life and having to learn to kill since a young age due to the territorial conflicts and clan wars her tribe was involved in when she was young. However, she is also a traditional Keeper huntress and was taught that you hunt to survive and not for sport or profit.
It's all come together in her current mindset to form a personal code that causes her to harm or even kill anyone she personally feels is a threat to the safety of herself, her clan, or her Twelveswood. Unfortunately she's killed enough to no longer feel much doubt or regret about it afterwards.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Ignacius - 05-20-2015
Ignacius was almost born to kill. Â Though he wasn't initially raised to be a soldier, when the Garleans took his family and pressed him into service, he proved to be exceptionally capable. Â He was in the field and killing at a time when most people were still in school and doing just fine about it.
Not that it's led to any long-term damage short of Orleans seeing all life as transient and bereft of value.
That's the biggest problem with Orleans. Â He's been exposed to so much death, destruction, and mayhem that he simply sees it as a natural state of the world. Â He killed the only person he felt something resembling love for. Â He now kills for money and money alone, because killing is all he's ever been good at and killing is all he's really ever been trained to do. Â It's still up in the air whether or not he'd have been fine if left to his own devices and his own family, but more than a little of his killer instinct is completely natural. Â Maybe he would have ended up being a killer anyway.
Ignacius completely compartmentalizes death, seeing it as akin to animals killing each other for food in the wild. Â So complete was his training or natural state of being that he has done this ever since the first life he took in combat. Â He rarely thinks about it afterwards except in vague abstracts. Â He is completely remorseless.
Just about the only reason he refrains from killing, when he does, is because it often attracts undue attention from local authorities. Â He isn't a serial killer, and he doesn't derive pleasure from it. Â To him, it's simply a tool in his toolbox, the means to his ends, just another fact of his life. Â He will kill and continue to kill until something finally manages to kill him first.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Asmodean - 05-20-2015
Asmodean isn't a killer at heart and will go out of his way to not kill, but if the person should die ( murderer, slaver, someone out to kill him, ect) he will end a life. He, however, never treats the act as something that should be common place for him. His first kill was for a job to protect a traveling merchant.
A contract had be put on the merchant, something Asmodean was not informed about, and as such he had end a few lives during the journey. It clearly had an effect on the young man for a time but now he had come to terms with it as a fact of life... at time he will have to kill or else be killed. A sad truth for Asmo but something he had come to except.Â
Asmodean at first he wasn't deeply effected as one might seem but he has come to the thinking for those who lives have ended, he has to live to carry on their memories but this isn't just for those who he's killed.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - KHMarie - 05-20-2015
Serylda may have been raised to disregard the death of those around her without remorse like her Ishgardian adoptive blood, however the compassion in her heart inherited by her real kin was never something she could easily keep from surfacing.
- How does your character deal with killing?
She deals with it with the mindset of "it must be done." Everything she does is in the name and honor of her foster family. However this does not change the fact she does not like killing, and that she thinks very highly of life.
She tries very hard to avoid this, but she will almost always tear up over having to kill a human or a beast after the deed is done. Her heart is far large than the steel she wields, proving to be a large weakness of hers.
She also deals with each kill by writing the name/being/appearance of whom she took down.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Probably one of the few, if not only, times she ever really broke down. She was made to kill a mere rabbit, and yet she felt as if her duty far out ranged her abilities and emotions. She worked to overcome that, so she could also prove that she was just as worthy to hold the duty of being the chosen Dragoon of their clan as her brother. She has since come a long way.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
She killed beasts long before she had ever killed any humans, and in those times when she was still just a child, she did find that those she ended would stay in her thoughts. When she was much younger, she would have nightmares on the beasts she killed, her guilt practically consuming her. Her family, wanting to obviously try and help her overcome this, gave her a journal to record who she killed. They stated that in Ishgard, for those who would struggle with keeping a calm mind in the midst of these situations, they needed a place other than their mind to keep these thoughts so they could focus on their priorities.
This method was typically used among very young Ishgardian children; however seeing as she was not of their blood, being detached was not a trait that could be easily obtained if not already inherited/learned by mid teens.
She has since recorded every kill she has had to commit. She has come far where she feels little remorse for killing smaller beasts, but still writes the names [if she was able to learn their name] and appearances of any humans or large beasts she takes down. She considers this her way of honoring them, so they would not be forgotten.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Uther - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
He's not a sadist, but understands the necessity. FFXIV takes place in a chaotic time. Things happen.Â
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Proud. He's a knight. He went off to battle as a squire at thirteen and felt he was helping his family and the war effort by killing something.
- Does your character mull over it later on?
No. Not really. If it was something incredibly horrific, he might feel bad about it, but he doesn't have nightmares or PTSD. He knows this is war and some people have to go. He wishes it didn't have to be that way, but he's not going to be a saint about it.
Overall, Uther isn't a stranger to death, but he doesn't go around killing people for the sake of killing. It's not something he speaks about lightly, but it isn't something he'll shy away from. He's a former knight and a member of Misericorde, and it's a cruel world. He can't afford the luxury of pacifism.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Zac Evans - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Being raised on a farm Zac was no stranger to killing animals for meals, but he never enjoyed or felt neutral towards it. It always made him feel guilty. This didn't mean he stopped doing it, he simply never lingered on it. When he came to Eorzea though and began needing to kill living breathing people is when he started developing. . . . problems.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
It was a Limsan pirate he first killed when he was sailing to Eorzea. The ship he was on was attacked, and while Maelstrom guards on the ship did a fine job of keeping the pirates away from where the passengers were, one slipped by. In all honesty, it was a complete fluke he managed to kill the man. On of the pirates apparently lit a blackpowder bomb in the adjacent room during the fighting, and when it went off it took out a section of the wall, causing both Zac and the pirate to be knocked back. The pirate got up first and lunged at Zac only to fall on the point of his sword. When the fighting died down, Zac was thanked by his fellow passengers, but was in shock over the entire situation.Â
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
He likes to pretend it didn't happen. he's quick to change the subject when people bring it up and even quicker to walk away when they insist on not letting the matter die. In rare situations he can even get violent over people not allowing the subject to change or allow him to flee the situation. In all honesty, Zac's terrified of death and all its trappings. When ever he sees a dead body he starts seeing the people he's killed and begins thinking about who they were, and if they had a family. If there's anyone to mis them and so on and so forth.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Aduu Avagnar - 05-20-2015
How does your character deal with killing?
Coldly, and matter of factly. It's his job, and he is good at it. Anyone he has killed has been a target of importance to either himself or Ul'dah.
How did he feel after his first kill?
Given it was his sister, pretty damn shitty.
Does your character mull it over later on?
When he doesn't drink himself into a drunken stupor, yes, he has nightmares where he see's the face of every person he has killed. They stopped for a bit recently, but have come back since.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Erik Mynhier - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Well, and professionally. On the field of battle or in a quiet mission, Erik is a stoic and clean killer. Now on a handful of occasions he has killed in anger, and it was brutal and messy. I have in the past used these "anger kills" to show his "highlander side". As the game paints highlanders as harsher then Erik is with the Ishgardian influences of his upbringing.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
It was during the invasion of Ala Mhigo, he was thirteen, and caved in the skull of an Imperial mage with a stone. As he and his mother were running for their lives, he had no time to deal with it at that point. The anger of that time insulated him from guilt, though both before the event until he became a part of Ul'dah's mercenary armies, he was a soft and gentle child, so it changed him.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
Not really the acts themselves, but he does wonder, when time allows he does at times contemplate how different his life would have been had he become a full time priest as he had wanted and was destined to before Gyr's fall.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Maril - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Strangely Nailah always seems to do things like that with a calm head on her shoulders. She has issued several kill orders, and I think the fact that she's had other people do it for her has spared her in part from some of the grimness. However when she took a life by her own hands, she never reacted much to it - it was in self defense, and more of a reaction than anything. She is at heart chaotic neutral, and survival is her main motivation - so the justifications of self defense appears to be enough to keep it from haunting her.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
I'm not entirely sure she felt anything, if I am honest. She does not to the present day feel guilt, if anything emotions of disgust may be targeted at the memory of how it felt to sink a dagger into someone else.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
Not as per se. With some of her kill orders, she may worry that it's getting traced back to her. She has nightmares - but they are not about the actions she's done against others.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Faye - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Faye doesn't usually kill anyone herself anymore (she has people for that!), but she's very swift, tries to eliminate anyone as quickly and painlessly as possible. She believes it's "for the greater good" because for criminals who refuse to reform, death is the only option.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
The first time she killed anyone was in self-defense. She comes from a military family, so I think she was better prepared for the experience than she would have been otherwise. I don't think she regrets killing the person since it was necessary for her own survival, but she was a little traumatized by the experience no less.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
Not consciously; she pushes it out of her thoughts and is more or less in denial about it. It does linger at the back of her mind, however, and breed doubt.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Sounsyy - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Usually a bottle of wine and a hot bath do the trick. Sounsyy doesn't like killing, but she's become very good at it over the years. As a mercy, she always tries to make her kills quick, unless they deserve worse. Which is usually reserved for Garleans.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Enraged. Sounsyy took her first life at the age of 11 in Ala Mhigo during the Garlean occupation. She killed the man who killed her father, so justifiable in her mind. However, the kill didn't make her feel any better. Instead, it made her feel more powerless, small, and worthless. So she had to kill more Garleans.
- Does your character mull over it later on? (Exe. The nightmares)
Sounsyy suffers severe PTSD (and alcoholism). Most of this comes from the loss of close friends and people she feels she could've saved, but there are some kills in her past which come back to haunt her every waking moment. Or... come back to take a finger.
RE: Death and how your character handles it. - Leanne - 05-20-2015
- How does your character deal with killing?
Leanne has a very strict mentality of killing only if she deems necessary and/or in self defense, thinking of life as something to be treasured. She doesn't like it, but if push comes to shove, she's not afraid of it, and is as respectful as she can be about it. Her kills tend to be quick and clean, consequence of her archery. One arrow to a vital organ, a point laced with poison, anything to bring her opponent down swiftly.
- How did your character feel after his/her first kill?
Bad, yet humbled before her kill. Her first target was one of the several animals that roam about in the Shroud. It was taught to her to respect the life that you are/you've taken, for it is giving theirs to extend your own or others.
- Does your character mull over it later on?
Rarely. She's not proud of killing and avoids it if possible, but she doesn't let it affect her.