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RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Parth Makeo - 12-21-2015
Oh i just picked up something else I have some insecurity about...
RPing and Building villains!
In the past i have been on both sides. I've played villain characters in RP before and was usually told how great they were. Either they had a great reason to be a villain or just how irredeemable they are yet still loveable (I remember this one character I had that was the Majordomo to a dark lord and when he shows up, straight up kills her without any remorse. Everyone cheered she died but then were like 'Oh right...main bad guy.')
But in terms of FF14, this is a world where in lore, the villains are either "EMREGERD PRIMALS" or "EMEGERD CERRUPTION!" or "EMEGERD VERD!" (aka: Primals, Corruption and Void)
and i'll admit the villains i have in place fall under one or all of these. Many people I know from past RP experiences in Forums usually have this irk about a villain being either TOO much like lore or TOO lore breaking. there is no real fine line in my eyes. I feel as if my villains in this RP event will either not live up to expectations or worse would ruin the game for people if I say use what is considered plot relevant in this realm for villainy.
"Then don't make a villain who is apart of <insert villain group>"
I have...and they were so bland and boring i had to get rid of them super fast. The past villains i had were nothing but cannon fodder for the bigger picture for my friends...Whom recently stopped RPing a lot for some reason
"You should of done this earlier"
I could but then waste character building and actual story progression. It can't be done in a week...
And you pretty much get what kind of pressure i am feeling at this time. I like writing both sides. Especially villains...but when it comes to an MMO scape it changes how i approach the whole thing. I've met a few people on other toons and dropped some hints and what not for the event in case they wish to come and see. I know not everyone will be pleased but i'd rather not piss the whole server off or come off as someone who is a bad RPer.
In short: I feel as if the near year long villain thing i had planned and slowly hinted at over the last few months will not be met with open arms when it finally comes and as such be shunned for said RP from Everyone...
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Ha'uruh Nunh - 12-21-2015
I've lost most of my RP partners. I can't help but feel like it's my fault.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - McBeefâ„¢ - 12-21-2015
(12-21-2015, 04:51 PM)Ha Wrote: I've lost most of my RP partners. I can't help but feel like it's my fault.Well.
Did you murder them irl?
I go crazy a lot and push people away, I can't rely deny that. I just try to do the best I can with my mental baggage. It'd not so much a fear as something I know I do. Maybe someday I'll get my shit together.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Ha'uruh Nunh - 12-21-2015
(12-21-2015, 04:54 PM)McBeefâ„¢ Wrote:(12-21-2015, 04:51 PM)Ha Wrote: I've lost most of my RP partners. I can't help but feel like it's my fault.Well.
Did you murder them irl?
I go crazy a lot and push people away, I can't rely deny that. I just try to do the best I can with my mental baggage. It'd not so much a fear as something I know I do. Maybe someday I'll get my shit together.
No. Hence the insecurity.
Was it my character? Was it my OOC personality? Was it the RP? Past RP, or where it was going?
That I'll never know doesn't help. And even my friends are calling me a worrywart and the like, which makes me worry more that I'm driving them off, too. When will the next shoe drop?
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Pascaleret - 12-21-2015
My characters are all prejudiced towards other races for some reason or another. They're not hostile to anyone, but I still worry offhand remarks will offend people OOC.
I worry that one of my characters being a habitual liar will cause offense, too. I've seen people get angry OOC just because a character was lying to another character about something.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Aya - 12-21-2015
(12-21-2015, 04:51 PM)Ha Wrote: I've lost most of my RP partners. I can't help but feel like it's my fault.Losing RP partners and friends is life
. Â It really cannot be avoided. Â What really makes the difference is meeting new people and making new friends to keep things going.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Arcian - 12-21-2015
I just worry that my characters and I are boring, and that my writing isn't descriptive or engaging enough.
Between that and being nervous about approaching folks in case I am boring, I'm kind of shooting myself in the foot.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Lydia Lightfoot - 12-21-2015
(12-21-2015, 04:51 PM)Ha Wrote: I've lost most of my RP partners. I can't help but feel like it's my fault.
Doubtful. It's more likely that they just got burned out on the game, or, some other game or character simply was more engaging to them, annnnnnd... they couldn't just be honest about that. So here you are, left to wonder. Same "family of insecurity" as I get.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Teadrinker - 12-21-2015
(12-21-2015, 05:00 PM)Ha Wrote:(12-21-2015, 04:54 PM)McBeefâ„¢ Wrote:(12-21-2015, 04:51 PM)Ha Wrote: I've lost most of my RP partners. I can't help but feel like it's my fault.Well.
Did you murder them irl?
I go crazy a lot and push people away, I can't rely deny that. I just try to do the best I can with my mental baggage. It'd not so much a fear as something I know I do. Maybe someday I'll get my shit together.
No. Hence the insecurity.
Was it my character? Was it my OOC personality? Was it the RP? Past RP, or where it was going?
That I'll never know doesn't help. And even my friends are calling me a worrywart and the like, which makes me worry more that I'm driving them off, too. When will the next shoe drop?
I feel like this happens to everyone at some point. Lemmie know if you wanna RP ever at all!
(12-21-2015, 05:24 PM)Arcian Wrote: I just worry that my characters and I are boring, and that my writing isn't descriptive or engaging enough.
Between that and being nervous about approaching folks in case I am boring, I'm kind of shooting myself in the foot.
I think maybe some players and character combinations just click better than others. It's possible to get on a roll or string of people that don't quite seem to mesh.
I'm bad at this too, really. Sometimes I think I'm massively doing something wrong when I have a night/week of a character not being received well.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Steel Wolf - 12-21-2015
I feel like I'm poison to guilds/FC's. I love the folks I get with but something about the experience falls short and so I agonize over the thing, and then leave and then never hear back from former guildlings. Which makes me think I'm a giant stinky jerkface.
And so I get gunshy about joining. But then try again. Amd it happens again.
Am I crazy or just...?
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Coda - 12-21-2015
Sometimes I feel like a pushy tryhard about RPing with people and planning plots. Its reeeally hard to tell if people are actually into it without face to face cues to go off of, and it drives me crazy wondering.
Then on the flipside, sometimes I just want some alone time and don't want to talk to anyone, and I come off as moody or suddenly uninterested. Its just a break, I promise ><
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Melkire - 12-21-2015
My insecurities regarding roleplay have less to do with myself and more to do with my writing. I am constantly worried that my character might be a nuisance given a tendency to bully his way into plots, dominate a scene or two by hogging some spotlight, and then derail the expected direction for said plot (which isn't even mine, so I have no right) by throwing spanners into the works, as it were.
I have at least one alt who is also somewhat overbearing. I like to think that the rest are most certainly "side characters" in that they have no potential for standing front and center... but when it comes to the characters I play most, I worry.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Telluride - 12-21-2015
Twelve help, but I could say a lot.
I worry that people think I'm aloof because I RP a bit with them, and then, hardly ever, if ever, encounter them again. It's not on purpose... Frankly, there are dozens and dozens of people I want to RP with again, but there's just not enough time in the day to get to all of them, keep up with the game progression, advance my too-many in-game projects and actually log out now and then... even if I had no job and never logged out, I fear I'd still never be able to get with everyone as much as I'd like or they deserve.
Others have mentioned worrying about partners; I'm still gripped by having had several of my characters from previous games stuck on shelves for weeks, months (many months in one case), when a partner either disappears or, worse, gets bored and wants to play other characters. That's fine, but don't tie me up so far into your old personal story that I can't get out of it without having to look like the guilty party when I try to play the characters I've worked on... so, I get a bit paranoid about that sort of lockdown happening, especially since, unlike some others, I do NOT want to abandon characters to whom this happens. Why should -I- ditch -my- toon? If you're gonna run off, have the courtesy to give me a way out. So.. yeah, I'm a bit oversensitive about the concern, and it sometimes bleeds over.
Also... well, my main in FFXIV occasionally pushes really, really hard on the 4th wall with his random songs. I enjoy it, and many also seem to do so, but I do worry that someone's immersion may suffer for my little lore-stretching indiscretions.
Amusingly, I'm opposite of many people in that I feel very comfortable in open and sudden RP, and have no problems with barreling into random RP encounters when the mood suits. However, I kinda wonder if I'm TOO direct with some folks in this way, but I guess taking that chance is just something I'll do.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Star Lin - 12-21-2015
(12-21-2015, 05:00 PM)Ha Wrote: No. Hence the insecurity.That's it, I need to get John to grab you for some nice friendship RP chats. We really don't get too enough.
Was it my character? Was it my OOC personality? Was it the RP? Past RP, or where it was going?
That I'll never know doesn't help. And even my friends are calling me a worrywart and the like, which makes me worry more that I'm driving them off, too. When will the next shoe drop?
But on topic, for John, I'm worry over having him say something that might make people see him in the wrong light. I made him so...likeable, that even in times that he should lose his temper, I have him bury it just to keep people of ooc not liking me. Shoot, John ended up working on one person just about the entire GS, with characters that new the person yelling at each other and I had him yell at them to be quiet. The reset of the night, I then worried about them thinking that he had anger issue.
As for Kestlona...well, I'm not on her enough to have RP partners. In fact, I kind of feel left off to the side in the FC she's in because of not being on her so much. The one time I suggest that I was interested in doing RP in the FC chat...I didn't have any takers. And I don't want anyone to think I just want my characters to be the center of attention.
RE: Roleplayer Uncertainty/Insecurity Theater - Ashe - 12-21-2015
I get worried about how my IC decisions OOCly affect other people...
Like sometimes Ashe does weird things or gets into weird situation and I'm always scared to OOCly piss someone else off because of it.
I'm also scared to plot things with new people 'cause I'm worried if the idea is stupid...also scared to plot things with people I know...I'm afraid that I'm too....overbearing about ideas even when I try to step back from IC situations I get worried then that people think I am ignoring their characters.
Another insecurity would be that my insecurities to people I don't usually RP with come off as stand-offish in OOC or people think I am intentionally slighting them when it's really just me being unsure how to proceed or trying to be general in communication when my character is surrounded by 10 other people >.<