
I am well aware that most of you will either see who started this and disregard it, or get midway through do the old "tl;dr" and just chime out, so i'll make this as brief as possible. the events of the past few days in game, and the events of the past couple of months within my former LS...have made me..well, sick, saddend, frankly embarrassed, and mostly..disappointed...and all of these things are not directed towards anyone but myself.
Maybe if i tempered my passions with more patience, maybe if i tried to council about moving past differences instead of commiserating and egging on the back and forths between people, i wouldn't have a "former" linkshell. Navei, Sasha, and the members of Nebulous who didn't engage in such behavior, do not deserve to be saddled with whatever bad opinions that may occur from all of what has transpired, and i, even though this may be just a hollow sounding apology, i for what my part may have been am sorry.
If i have caused any uncomfortable feelings, or any outright anger...whatever..i truly am sorry. that being said, i have decided to...maybe walk away from RP and the game for a while...honestly right now...my heart isn't into it. frankly, it hasn't been for a while, and whatever reasons i may feel about rp that lead me to ...act in such fashion i won't really go into...there's really no excuse for my behavior, so i will not try to make any.
I feel as if i let myself and my linkmates, people who do/did like or have a passing liking to me, mostly the community as whole down. looking back, i know there were times, i should have taken the high road, or tried to be just...better than my actions, but that's niether here nor there now.
So..with all that said, goodbye for now...i'm not quitting FFXIV, so you'll still see me probably in game...but maybe not anytime soon i'm just not going to log in for a bit...let cooler heads prevail. and if i do decide to RP again...i hope...i still have a community that will welcome me back.
Like i said in the begining, most of you probably will not even make it to the end of this...or won't care...but if at least one of you reads and responds...then..well i at least know somebody might miss having me around.
Maybe if i tempered my passions with more patience, maybe if i tried to council about moving past differences instead of commiserating and egging on the back and forths between people, i wouldn't have a "former" linkshell. Navei, Sasha, and the members of Nebulous who didn't engage in such behavior, do not deserve to be saddled with whatever bad opinions that may occur from all of what has transpired, and i, even though this may be just a hollow sounding apology, i for what my part may have been am sorry.
If i have caused any uncomfortable feelings, or any outright anger...whatever..i truly am sorry. that being said, i have decided to...maybe walk away from RP and the game for a while...honestly right now...my heart isn't into it. frankly, it hasn't been for a while, and whatever reasons i may feel about rp that lead me to ...act in such fashion i won't really go into...there's really no excuse for my behavior, so i will not try to make any.
I feel as if i let myself and my linkmates, people who do/did like or have a passing liking to me, mostly the community as whole down. looking back, i know there were times, i should have taken the high road, or tried to be just...better than my actions, but that's niether here nor there now.
So..with all that said, goodbye for now...i'm not quitting FFXIV, so you'll still see me probably in game...but maybe not anytime soon i'm just not going to log in for a bit...let cooler heads prevail. and if i do decide to RP again...i hope...i still have a community that will welcome me back.
Like i said in the begining, most of you probably will not even make it to the end of this...or won't care...but if at least one of you reads and responds...then..well i at least know somebody might miss having me around.
