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Shadottie · **03-18-2015, 11:53 PM**

As per usual with everything Lalafellin, the book in question is smaller than a standard novel. Â Its cover is a plain brown that has seen better days. Â Corners are worn, and some pages within are dog-eared or slightly off from the rest. Â One leather flap lies attached to the book, as a way to fasten it shut. Â Should anyone try to do just that, they'll find it takes a certain hand to get it to stay clasped shut. Â This journal has been through much.

Opening it will reveal the first page to be covered in growing doodles of various creatures found in Eorzea. The detail is simple and crude, if many could be made out as actual creatures at all. The following pages recall days in only the past couple of years of Nonovi's life in Ul'dah, and those details are sparse. Â Now, the entries take a more exciting turn...

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Shadottie · **03-18-2015, 11:54 PM**

I'm going to do this.

I'm going to see about this old registry and leave the city.Â It should be easy enough to return, right?Â I can leave in themorning, return even before the night claims the sky. It's going to be exciting. I'm going to make it so!

They don't need to know. Â No one does. Only me.

You've got this in the bag, Novi!

(Feb 3rd, 2015)

Shadottie · **03-18-2015, 11:55 PM**

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So, I'm here! I did it! [blot] Sort of.Â I didn't recall where I ended up... [blot]that is how it works with attuning, right? [blot]I mean, to know where you're going-- I just do not remember.Â The Moraby Drydocks though, are what the locals called it.Â I was trying for Limsa Lim-Lominsa! Regardless, some friendly folk (let me tell you, didn't seem like there were many!) had me on my way again. They had a chocobo porter that could get me to the city. [blot]Â
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It was a spectacular view on the way there, the air was so fresh!Â The wind isn't harsh!Â It carries the sea with it, and I can hear it everywhere!Â -- The sea, I mean.Â It really is spectacular, and I know I intended to return home today, but that's not happening.Â Let me tell you, those chocobo do notstop for anything, I mean, anything!! I wanted to stop and look at some flowers along the way, and [blot] ended up falling off. What else was I going to do, right?Â
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Well, I got my flowers, and the sight-seeing went well into the night. Incredibly dark outside, and raining! I guess I picked a bad time to go falling off a chocobo, but!Â I met a shady man cloaked in black with a chocobo to match (really though, I just could not see the thing, it had to be something other than yellow). Â That's optimistic, right?Â He's nice though, tall, and odd.Â Something about his aether presence was really strange though. [blot] Anyway, he got me to Limsa Lominsa, and didn't stay long-- seemed really edgy in the city.Â
Can't say that I'll miss him-- I mean, interesting! But-- sand-blisters,of all the people to meet, I know who wouldn't be pleased with that! [blot]

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So, here I am! In an Inn! It smells! The bed is comfy though, the quilt is nice and big, I don't think I'll actually be sleeping in the bed though, on top! Rolled up in a blanket!
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Mhm, that sounds fun. There's a window too!Â I can look out-- [blot] and see some light,and a lighthouse!Â It's too bad I couldn't come on a clearer day.. [blot] what with the moon, I could probably see the sea!Â Oh well, maybe there'll be another time.Â

(Feb 5th, 2015)

Shadottie · **03-18-2015, 11:57 PM**

So, [blot] I got home safe.Â Later than I intended-- [blot] fortunately there-- wasn't anyone to ask.[blot]
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I got sick. [blot] I mean, I found the aetheryte home, but--I just couldn't shake a feeling that it [blot] was causing it, and lo and behold! Here I am,-- okay for now.Â I ran into mister shady-bookseller-in-black while I was still in La Noscea. [blot] He's practicing conjury, I guess, without any proper tutor.Â I thought that was strange, considering how unstable his aether presence seemed to be-- and I was right on that.Â He knows it too, but still trying"for the sake of knowledge" which is all-- good and what not, but-- well, I guess he'd know to what end. [blot]

I got snippy with him, but now that I'm looking back, I don't really know why. [blot] I've never been in that sort of situation before-- what right do I have to tell him how to do what he wants?Â [blot] No hard feelings though.We talked a bit more. It was a nice view where we sat. There are many places to climb, and so many mountains! I would love to scale one someday.Â I wonder what could be found!
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I can't [blot] push that for a while though-- I'm lucky enough as it is that nobody noticed-- or [blot] is speaking up -- or really around. [blot]
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[blot] Good timing, I guess.

(Feb-12-2015)

Shadottie · **03-19-2015, 01:26 AM**

This.. [blot] this was a good night!Â I spent far too long reading, the information is just thought soup--. I went for a walk -- Eiji seems to always be in the right place at the right time whenever I do that so-- I thought he'd show up eventually.Â Â I went people-watching at the Quicksand-- [blot] I think I counted a few dozen and repeats coming and going-- and-- someone noticed. [blot]
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His name is Lainseworth, Lainse for short, and he was concerned for my boredom. Odd, right..?Â
It was amusing. [blot] We spoke some, he's quite the gentleman!Â I [blot] kind of hope I get to see him around more!Â -- I mean, I'll have to keep this to myself, but he gave me quite a bit of coin from his last venture (he is a scout!).Â I mean-- I dream to leave Ul'dah on my own terms without having to sneak of course but-- this was so sudden, and I'm grateful for it.Â Perhaps this is sort of abrupt motivator I need to actually leave. But what do I say? How do I ask Eiji to maybe come with me if he's going to be doing that still? He'd probably find it suspicious-- all of this.Â
I mean, I am stir-crazy, maybe that's enough of a reason. I'll-- think about it, this is just... too much.
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Of course, I want to get to know Lainse better if I do see him again-- I mean, he gave me a linkpearl, that's enough of an indicator he wants to, right? Not just dumping some dirty money on me for a gang to trace to me, right? [blot] No that's-- too amusing to consider a possibility!Â He was very nice, and I look forward to seeing him again. He lives here, he should be easy enough to stumble across again!

(feb 21 2015)

Shadottie · **03-19-2015, 02:29 AM**

(Feb 25 2015)
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Coincidence is funny like this. Â [blot] I was looking into perhaps joining a company to make better use of this opportunity given by Lainse.Â As it turns out, he is also in the company I have chosen! They are called the Harbingers of Dawn. [blot]Â I'm not adept in much, but it seemed interesting anyway. I submitted an application of interest in these last few days, and had the pleasure of running into Lainse again, as well as his employer.Â They invited me to the estate--- outside of the city-- near Gridania to be precise!
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Oh, it was so beautiful there! The trees! The smells! The flowers and life! It was so nice! I was near tempted to find some place to stay for the night just to remain there-- but-- I can't do that.Â It was amazing though!Â I guess Lainse is a bit new too, he had some trouble finding the place when he was leading me. The poor man, having to deal with my distractions.Â I think I could have given up seeing the estate for just that evening if I could have a look around and enjoy the view.Â I did pick some lavender though, because I'd like to work out some sort of a thank you letter to Lainse for everything so far.Â

He's been so incredibly nice!-- It's just so very different than whatI'm used to. [blot] Just what shifted in fate to have things going alright now?Â
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Anyway, I'm going to see about maybe going again soon to perhaps visit other members of the company.Â
We ventured in rather late and only had the opportunity to meet a miqo'te lady in our short visit!Â
Any excuse for me to get out of here will be taken!

Shadottie · **03-19-2015, 02:46 AM**

(Feb 27th 2015)

I'll have to get something figured out soon.Â
The scouts watching the roads in the Shroud are sort of cranky, and coin can only do so much for an escort. [blot] I haven't had it in me to ask Eiji to take me either.Â Seems odd to, I mean, I know he wouldn't mind! ... Actually, I can't tell if he would or not. Maybe I'll just pester him about this anyway, and see if maybe he wants to give this Harbinger business a try too.Â I think he could use more friends.Â I don't even know if he has any. I should ask.
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The estate certainly has many potential candidates.Â I met many of them!Â ... Well, saw a lot of them, only talked to a handful of them.Â There was a miqo'te named Technic? -- Ah, well, who am I to ask about cultural reference. Â There was a very friendly lalafell working the bar, his name is Al!Â I'm finding myself more and more in the company of those who know me before I know them.Â Lainse has been speaking much of me. [blot]

Ah.-- Some people fought in the bar-- yeah they have a little tavern in the basement of their building. Pretty impressive!Â [blot] I had a chance to meet the head of the branch I'm interested in! Her name's --[blot] Mimiru.Â Our conversation was brief, and she already accepted me into her fold.Â I'm not sure how to feel about that, [blot] but I'm going to try and work my way up through it anyway.
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[blot] It-- bothered Lainse when he found out. Â He was rather vague and polite when he spoke of Mimiru-- when I found him
anyway.Â He worried that we couldn't be friends anymore if I was to be speaking with Mimiru-- how odd is that!Â Absolutely silly and I would never do that.Â Well, I mean, let the opinion of someone else's way my own.Â Lainse has been nothing but kind, and-- to note! He is an excellent artist!Â
I saw some of his sketches-- lands, people, and he even drew me!Â -- I don't think I ever did ask if it was from memory, that would be ----Â [blot] impressive!

Shadottie · **03-19-2015, 03:43 AM**

(March 4th, 2015)

[The hand-writing is shaky, as if the writer is suffering from some fatigue]

Not sure how long I'll be able to keep this up. I don't understand. You'd think that with more practice, then things would come with ease? [blot] Anyway... I have been making my way to the estate more. I told Eiji, and I think he is considering coming with me sometime.

I've mostly been visiting with Lainse when I do go to the estate. [blot] He-- suffered venom from a bite while picking flowers for me recently. The poor man-- it wasn't necessary but the flowers were beautiful all the same! I have some hanging in my window now to dry. He wished to give them to me for Little Ladies day-- it was.. so thoughtful! [blot] I had even given him a little kiss on the cheek as thanks-- I hope that wasn't offensive or invasive of his personal space. Lainse doesn't seem like the type to say so either way. Regardless, he's recovering well enough too. I helped Mimiru-- only a little-- to make sure Lainse was properly taken care of when we found out about his bite. I stayed with him sometime after then, but I couldn't be there all night. I'm glad he slept soundly. [blot]

I made him some tea-- since he's always wanted to share tea with me in my visits. I don't know that he's had any yet. That's okay! I'm sure he'll like it anyway. I visited a different part of the Shroud to gather the flowers for the ingredients. It smelled nice! I met a miqo'te out there who was tending to a chocobo stable-- and rather forward about my helping him. It made for interesting conversation anyway...! He was also... very complimentary! I guess that's a nice quality to have as a mercenary--as that is what he is. I can't remember the name though, I wonder if he'll remember a face.

Not important anyway-- I'm really excited about this festival! Lainse and I talked about going together, and I'd really like that...! I've had some strange things going on tied to him anyway, and [blot] I don't want that being in the way. Maybe I'll find a good time then to talk about it..?

Shadottie · **03-20-2015, 04:09 AM**

(March 5th, 2015)
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[The handwriting is loose, messier than the last]
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We went on a date yesterday, a very long, and very exciting date! Yes, I'm-- [blot] going to call it that, I mean, we were both rather blatant about it anyway--Â but it still ended... on an awkward note. [blot] This seems to be a trend. I didn't actually get to voice my concerns, maybe another day. [blot]
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The day was nice though, yesterday, and I was feeling better.Â I made a trip to see Lainse, got all dressed up and stuff, and it turns out he did too!Â He [blot] had a corsage done for me-- and we decided that we would go enjoy the festival just then.Â Lainse made it even better-- they celebrate the festivities in the major cities too! It was so beautiful in Gridania!
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The peach blossoms seemed so natural, and Lainse took me toa pretty Â waterfall just out of the way to the Aetherite Plaza. I seriously could have probably stayed there the whole night and talked with him-- if he wanted to anyway.Â I didn't want to leave. [blot]Â He had so many stories to tell too-- It seems the Harbingers have quite the reputation out here, and held many events and gatherings in the city.Â There was apparently a dating auction once, and Lainse was bid off pretty high.Â Â It was funny to listen to.
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Oh, I'll need to ask him to show me how to skip rocks someday. I'm so curious. Maybe he can show me and not have to do it himself if he doesn't like it!
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After Gridania, he took me to a restaurant in Limsa Lominsa-- the Bismark, I think? I tried one of his favorite dishes there, and it was delicious.Â The view was amazing there too, we were sitting right over the harbor, and I couldn't keep my eyes off the ships and everything! Sand blisters, if I had any way to capture all the moments. It was great!
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Last, Lainse took me to a rather strange place.... it seemed like a resort, but with many, many ruins around.Â I guess the damaged structures are a result of [blot] what happened before.Â Lainse was a part of that as well, and branded as such. [blot] He told me about his friends, people he used to work with, and I realized a little too late that ... there are likely a lot of them he'll never see again.Â I know too well. [blot]
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Anyway. It was a nice day for the most part.Â Again, if I had a way to commit more tomemory than just writing it down. Lainse has a gift to draw-- he even drew me again! I can't wait to see how it turns out. I'll probably see in the next few days or so! We came back to the mansion after our little trip, to see more people and whatnot. I would have preferred just to stay out with Lainse-- but I think I was making him uncomfortable.
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There was a very rude Miqo'te when we arrived, and did I want to give him a piece of my mind! I let it be though. [blot]
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So, not only is Lainse talented in sketching, but he plays music really well too?Â [blot] Really well--. And sings!Â [blot]Today [blot] it was a good day! I'm really grateful for Lainse taking me where he did-- it was worth having to -- stay here for Twelve know how long. [blot]

Â He sang how much he enjoyed my company-- my features, how-- [blot] pretty I am? I don't [blot] know what to think about that. It's flattering-- of course, and, it makes me happy to be around Lainse, to share these moments with him but--.[blot]Â Is this some sort of infatuation? He shared so much with me, Â trusted me, and-- I haven't said much for myself at all. [blot]Â Â We're going to give this thing a try!Â I mean, I enjoy his company and want to share more memories with him, but -- I still feel like there's so much to Know. Maybe I've just gotten so used to the monotony I see here at home-- the change is so different.
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I don't doubt I made him feel uncomfortable yet again-.[blot] He worries about lose me so quickly and often-- and it confuses me. I'm not sure what he sees just yet that's worth that sort of worry, but we'll get to know each other better in time, and maybe I'll understand. Â I'm happy that he seems to be happy save for that.

Shadottie · **03-20-2015, 04:17 AM**

(March 7th, 2015)

I messed up so badly. [blot]

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Â Â I had other things to write, but I don't feel like it anymore. Â Lainse has another worry in Eiji, and Eiji-- [blot] Well, I messed up. I'm making it up to him soon! Â Lainse too.Â

It's all getting strangely suspicious too. Mimiru asked how I felt about Lainse recently, if IÂ was happy. Am I right on this afterall? Â If something happened between them, and they're really not over it...[blot]

I need to talk to him about it. This isn't healthy if I'm right!

Shadottie · **03-20-2015, 04:35 AM**

(March 13th, 2015)
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[Like past entries, this one is written with an unsteady and fatigued hand]

Not much has changed from the last entry. I never did talkto Lainse about Mimiru-- not really.Â I'ma little stuck in my confusion. He speaks so highly of me-- and I even got to see that finished piece from our date!Â It was beautiful-- and with more detail in additional wings to make me into an illustrated angel.Â It was very sweet.Â Again, I-- it is so hard to tell if this is some enamored feeling or if there is something genuine.Â When I can ask, I think I'll have some peace on it. This is so difficult.
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It seems the more I think about it, the harder it is to reach him.Â I-- still have his linkpearl, I turned everything else in. -- [blot] I'm not going to be with the Harbingers afterall-- for now! [blot] My handwriting is so bad, am I even going to be able to read this later? Â [blot] The traveling has been taxing-- I don't understand. First it's the headaches, passing out if I'm not careful. I'm so glad that hasn't happened yet-- that would be so embarrassing.. [blot] Â I'm not sure how I'll tell Lainse about this either-- leaving. He seemed so excited about me being there, that we may venture the world together through this company. Â I wonder what he'll do-- if he'll be disappointed.
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Not that I should care? [blot] I mean, I'd be sad if we couldn't see each other-- but-- I didn't think this would bother me?Â I'm getting sick from travel, why would anyone [blot] be disappointed..Â I mean, I would imagine he knows by now.[blot] If news travels fast?Â Their company was rather large in numbers.. [blot]Â I do feel guilty that I'm holding Eiji back with that too-- I think he might have done some good to meet people there, get out of Ul'dah too. He doesn't seem to like it very much already.Â Oh! I found out that he actually has a friend in the Shroud? We mingled at the tavern together recently-- it was ... awkward! Not for us-- ..[blot] one of the members mistook Taj for a waitress and spoke so little of her when Taq was away-- well, not little per se but-- as if she was primitive?Â I didn't know what to say. I guess I don't know Taq well enough to defend, and her fiance Brannon said little of it! I'm sure he would know!
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I was hoping to-- but I didn't get to see Lainse that night either. He had that expedition-- he may be doing that right now as I write.Â I hope he's doing alright,anyway. Maybe I'll try a letter, I'd hate to disturb while he's working. Can't imagine how pleasant that is to have someone yammering in your ear while you're trying to take down some feral beast!Â
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I might have missed him now-- but I'm making a goal, anyway.If he still wants to talk with me, and see the world together-- I'm still going to make a goal to be able to defend myself-- or be more helpful in a way when the next opportunity comes!Â I'm leaving for Gridania soon, to learn theways of Conjury if someone is willing!

Shadottie · **03-20-2015, 05:22 AM**

(March 18th, 2015)
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I have nothing else to do at the moment. Finally, that headache's gone and I can think, but it's a hot day today. When isn't it?Â
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Conjury lessons went well for the most part. There was a point that I got to take a break from my lessons, so [blot] I thought perhaps I could find an escort scout to take me to the Lavender Beds to possibly visit people-- maybe hear about Lainse. Time works at a crawl in boredom, but with a destination, it spared me no mercy! [blot] I wasn't going to make it, so I mingled in Bent Branch, "attempting" to skip rocks. I've only caused for big splashes at the moment.Â I still need to ask-- but anyway, Lainse was there too, in Bent Branch, it was such a nice surprise, and I was so happy to see him too!Â We caught up, quite a bit, got those things out in the open and-- [blot] I realize just how bad I am at this.Â I only mean well with what I say, but it came out so... [blot] bad. I didn't really have time to clarify, only to hope that he understands what I mean.. and we can go from there! It turns out his expedition was cancelled... I missed nothing, but I still want to prepare for a next time!Â I guess he wasn't informed about mine and Eiji's leaving from Harbingers.Â

That's alright, I'm glad I got to say it myself anyway, and I worried over nothing!Â

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That caused for a pretty big distraction when I got back to my lessons.Â Those mentoring us could sense it, well, not that-- that would be uncomfortable if it could be specific!Â Anyway, they asked that I go meditate with nature for the time being, and "come back when my head has cleared".Â Who knows how long that would take, right?Â I could use the excuse to get out though.Â I thought maybe Lainse would still be around, but he wasn't.Â Logical that talking it out more would clear my head, right?Â They wouldn't have needed to know!

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So,Â walking along the river was the next best thing.Â There were some sprites on the water-- I thought maybe I could practice-- not with spells, but try to feel something with meditation? Because, honestly, doing that with the incense in the actual guild hall wasn't doing anything for me besides building my stamina to hold in sneezes. [blot] I know that's terrible to say, but-- anyway. It was a peaceful experience, for as long as it lasted.Â [blot] I can't remember what I felt anymore, but I do know it was interrupted.Â

There was this giant water-skater of a creature that I completely missedin my wandering that made itself a little too close.Â I panicked-- I--[blot] hit it with water? Not splashing, that' s stupid-- but I actually willedsome conjury in the water? I pushed the creature away from me and ran-- oh the headache that came after. I could barely see. Â I don't know if it's something to be concernedabout.Â People talk about aether sickness,just something to get used to. [blot] Something I think I'd be used to by now. [blot]
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Anyway, just as luck would have it, Â guess who had to come find me like that out in the woods?Â I felt awful.Â I feel like a big enough jerk doing what I did with my sneaking out before-- I'm trying not to do this anymore.Â The guy doesn't deserve it. Â He seemed okay with it though, well, not the situation, but... proud I managed to defend myself? -- Not that I did, really, kind of. Sort of.
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I thought it was later than it was when we did get back to the Aetherite plaza-- Oh, and let me say, getting back was a not-so-pretty sight...Â But- anyway, I thought I had been dumb enough to be wandering the woods way too close to the time I was supposed to go home with Eiji but-- the bells were off.Â Good timing as always with Eiji, I guess! I'm lucky for that.
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I'm taking it easy for now. [blot] I'm finding some odd jobs around the city because I'm tired of sitting around with my craft if I'm not out getting myself sick with excessive travel and weird situations!! [blot] Â Â I could have sworn I was going to convince someone to give me a chocobo today, but it didn't happen.Â I mean, I'm not surprised.Â I found out that night too that I'm all Eiji has out here, apparently. Yeah-- he was around while I was taking care of birds.Â He said he was just enjoying the quiet night, but I'm curious just how long he was sitting there, across the street.Â Enjoying the quiet night. InUl'dah. Busiest city ever.Â Yes, alright,Eiji.
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This obligatory guardianship --- if I can call it that? I'll make it work, so we can be friends, and not some strange rendition of Guard-to-Sultana-Commonfolk Edition!

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It's going to happen!

Shadottie · **03-24-2015, 02:05 AM**

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I don't really know what to say, why I'm writing.Â I don't know what to talk about and it's probably evident there's a something if anyone saw me.Â
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After some [blot] alright talk in the Quicksand, I managed a trip back to Gridania for lessons again. They're taking it slow with me for now because of the headaches. They've been really reserved after my first mistake out in the Shroud. I mean, when I told them about it anyway. I guess I probably should have said something when Eiji found me the one time. [blot]
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Anyroad-.. [blot] I got to see Lainse tonight! He's [blot]not doing too well, and I'm sure I'm contributing to that. I said so! He says no.Â I can't really believe him but what are you going to do about that, right? Push someone enough, it's going to make them mad.Â Trust, I guess.
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He needed me last night. He took me to the graves of his fallen friends.Â Â It was hard to watch him cope-- [blot] we talked about it and I don't know if anything I said was heard. [blot] I haven't had that sort of loss really [blot] what would my words do?Â That's-- okay. I'm not upset by it,just hope he can find the words and help he needs if any. I might try to visit or wri-- [blot] Right. Maybe activate that link pearl and see if he wants to talk.Â I made sure he got somewhere safe for the night -- [blot] and I couldn't stay.Â
If it's been on my mind, and probably will later, I can imagine he's going through much worse.
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Tomorrow.

Shadottie · **03-25-2015, 12:29 AM**

I think I'm going to miss seeing him today. Â I slept so long, the day was well into its course. The nurses are so certain they will get him on his feet soon enough.Â He doesn't know where I live--he'll probably just return to wherever he was.
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I spoke with him last night-- Lainse.Â Brave enough to go over Link Pearl!Â Sarcasm- to note later if you decide to read this, Novi.Â Â Well, not that I knew where he was, but -- he came to speak with me in person, seemed better, and that's all well. I'm sure it'll take time for him to fully heal from that, and more now.
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Some sod of a drunkard thought it wise to snatch me up--[blot] it was frightening but -- I was so mad!Â
I should have known better-- I should have told Lainse not to-- [blot] I don't know. Terrible as that is to say to give someone money, that is just begging for trouble in Ul'Dah. I'm not hurt at all--- well, there was the headache after Lainse-- [blot]
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Lainse-- tried to incinerate the man when he got me free. He took himself in the blast too.Â It was a phenomenal spell, but at a terrible price.Â
The man ended up getting away...Â Â
Â I'm really worried, yet here writing it all down in a book.Â That's helpful, right?Â [blot] Sarcasm, again.Â I managed to heal him somewhat though-- It was only a little taxing-- the mentors said that would only happen if something was going wrong. [blot] I didn't and don't really care still.Â I hope it alleviated some, but I know there are people that are better.
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Time to see if food and drink will help this nausea.Â

The Journal of Nonovi

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