[Homecoming - Part Five]
Just how long had it been. A couple of years? But, it felt like a lifetime. So much then had been uncertain. Not, "so much", really, but just about everything. There was only one thing she'd known for sure in those long moments: she would either escape Ishgard, or die trying.Â
An escape is really what it were. The Sealed Gates not only protected the city from infiltration, but also kept the working people of the city from fleeing the endless winter that left the stone towers encased in a permanent layer of frost. It had been a convenient policy: power had never before been so centralized in the hands of the Clericy and their willing accomplices amidst the Houses. The statutory trade monopolies that resulted from the limited number of passage permits allocated to merchants, only encouraged the concentration of wealth and political influence among the favored few. While the rest, those whose blood, sweat, and toil kept the city running day-to-day, were offered the tossed down scraps of a whithering economy at the sharpened point of a lancer's spear.Â
Of course, there was a war on. The only thing worse than the enemy we knew, was that we could never understand. The Dravanians, and their Heretic Allies who's machinations and assaults could mean the end of the city itself if not for the Fury's blessing, and the ceaseless toil of her flawed Church and the soldiers they inspired.
Such was the lot of Ishgard's Blessed Holy See. One could wonder why anyone bothered asking why she'd left.
Today only a gentle flurry darkened the sky. It felt strange to regard the Gates of Judgement from this angle: outside looking in. They were a monumental piece of stonework, nearly as intimidating as the sealed gates that had once locked her in the city. The last time she had set foot here had been a clear night, during a new moon when the sky was darkened to a pitch black. Crossing the bridge itself had been the most terrifying ordeal of her life: in her troubled imagination the structure spanned some ten miles or more, every foot patrolled by guardsmen angling to send her off to Witchdrop for a final test of her righteousness as an accused blasphemer.Â
How she had clung to shadow, and dangled amidst the superstructure that supports the span from below. There, there was nothing solid between her and the gaping chasm that opened like an inky black maw below. How the ferocious winter wind had howled and roared around her. It was as if a hungry beast: ready to consume everything that came its way. For years that chasm had been believed to be her grave: another foolish would-be fugitive who'd met her judgement. Her friends and family had thought it her sad fate; her father blamed himself all the while, for having set his daughter upon a path of such desperation.
Somehow, she now believed it would be different. That the years, and the passing circumstances would have softened the emotional power of the lifeless stone structure. But standing before it now, she know just how wrong she had been. Her concerns about passing the gates had been overblown: the passport restrictions had become so loose that the mere suspicion of her being an adventurer was enough to earn hand-waved passage. The cloak and adventurer's kit she wore draped over her head and body had likely been unnecessary, still the better to avoid scrutiny.
But having passed beneath the arches she now stood paralyzed before the span. How she struggled with that first step. To set foot upon the bridge that had once been the threshold between life and death. Old life and new. She tried to remember what it was like to cross as a child, entering the city for the first time: with so much ease and hopefulness. At last, she had dreamed, a proper home, even family of their own!
Now she stood motionless, imagining the faces of Uncle and Aunt, of their children, and other relatives. She imagined the faces of her brothers, to whom she had been so close, and to whom she now stood so near. She imagined her mother and father: young, and then old. She thought of her father: ailing and in bed. Wondering if he would ever see his daughter again.Â
"That stupid Verad..." she spoke aloud, as if she could really blame the Duskwight's invitation for forcing her return to the city. Her return home.
She leaned forward, drawing a foot along the way. One foot followed the next. The wind swept hard across the open span, roaring through the chasm like a hungry beast. Every moment relived that night of terror. Every step forward recalled the fear, the frostbite, the brutal, gnawing regret.Â
She girded herself as she had that lifetime ago: This was her decision. She'd come this far. Nothing could stop her.
And so, Aya Tharintreu, returned, at last, to her Tower City home.
(Screen shot by @kiskiphelone via tumblr, and used with grateful permission!)