Thank you once again, everyone, for the kind words. See, this is why I talk to you guys! XD
Don't worry, I'm not ever giving up. If I wanted to do that, would have done so a long time ago. It's like I said, I may not win against lupus, but I am not losing to it either.Â
It's just that sometimes I get drained of my HP and PP (happiness points and positivity points, XP) and so I need someone to replenish them, and then I talk. And I'm persistent and annoying. I don't shut up until I've finished talking.
To be quite honest, as a lupie (person who suffers from lupus) I feel like it's my responsibilty to raise my voice, and make people aware, not only about what I have to go through, but difficulties and problems people go through. Because not everyone is brave enough to admit that they are very troubled or very sick, it's only natural to be scared. And even though I have problems of my own to deal with, I am always ready and poised to help other people to the best of my abilities should they choose to confide in me, and they take precedence over me.
Thing is, when you get sick, you look at the big picture, but more than that, you look at the small little details most others miss. You look at life's little happinesses and don't look for big things, every day, every minute thing becomes a gift, and every gift one to be cherished and not taken for granted. It's true life becomes a battle, a never ending war, but despite everything, you realize: life is truly worth living, it is truly beautiful, no matter how bad. There are setbacks, there are problems, there's the fact that you can never be normal again, but it's your life, and it's worth every bit. As long as you stand by yourself (yes, there will also be people, loved ones, friends, family who will stand by you, but most important is that you are on your side) and stay positive in the face of negativity, you're living. And life is worth everything.
Most people don't understand, but to the ones that do, and to the ones that would try to understand, I am ever grateful, and am happy to know that you are there. So thank you, from the bottom of my heart.Â
For those who read all of this, you guys are awesome. Thank you. For those who tried reading it, but couldn't find themselves finishing it, thank you for trying, it means a lot to a lot of people out there.
There is so much more I could say, that I want to say, but I have said enough for now.Â
Love,Â
A Lupie
Don't worry, I'm not ever giving up. If I wanted to do that, would have done so a long time ago. It's like I said, I may not win against lupus, but I am not losing to it either.Â
It's just that sometimes I get drained of my HP and PP (happiness points and positivity points, XP) and so I need someone to replenish them, and then I talk. And I'm persistent and annoying. I don't shut up until I've finished talking.
To be quite honest, as a lupie (person who suffers from lupus) I feel like it's my responsibilty to raise my voice, and make people aware, not only about what I have to go through, but difficulties and problems people go through. Because not everyone is brave enough to admit that they are very troubled or very sick, it's only natural to be scared. And even though I have problems of my own to deal with, I am always ready and poised to help other people to the best of my abilities should they choose to confide in me, and they take precedence over me.
Thing is, when you get sick, you look at the big picture, but more than that, you look at the small little details most others miss. You look at life's little happinesses and don't look for big things, every day, every minute thing becomes a gift, and every gift one to be cherished and not taken for granted. It's true life becomes a battle, a never ending war, but despite everything, you realize: life is truly worth living, it is truly beautiful, no matter how bad. There are setbacks, there are problems, there's the fact that you can never be normal again, but it's your life, and it's worth every bit. As long as you stand by yourself (yes, there will also be people, loved ones, friends, family who will stand by you, but most important is that you are on your side) and stay positive in the face of negativity, you're living. And life is worth everything.
Most people don't understand, but to the ones that do, and to the ones that would try to understand, I am ever grateful, and am happy to know that you are there. So thank you, from the bottom of my heart.Â
For those who read all of this, you guys are awesome. Thank you. For those who tried reading it, but couldn't find themselves finishing it, thank you for trying, it means a lot to a lot of people out there.
There is so much more I could say, that I want to say, but I have said enough for now.Â
Love,Â
A Lupie
