(I might drop the poor spelling. If I am on a roll, I might just have her suddenly be a lot more confident in her writing and for sake of flow, not bother putting in artificial errors. Some sections I tried to maintain the spelling error stuff, but meh, good thought, hard to follow through. My OCD has never felt so bad than trying to write well by writing poorly.)
Dated: (Lore Equivalent) Dec. 29th, 2014
"Wel, I guess thers a bunch of stuf that hapened today. I ended up talking to Karase, a Keeper who dances for a living? He said he'd start teeching me and Tyaa the ways of the old tribes, and today he folowed throogh with his promiss with the first oficial lesson.
Oh, you should have seen how many Keepers showed up that day. I can't really remember their names too good, but there was a second born, another female that'd been taken in before like Karase was willing to do with me and Tyaa. Oh! and Xha showed up, haha, albeit he was hiding in a corner. He seems really timid but I dunno. There's something about him that strikes me funny. I'll keep testing him and see if he don't nudge into be something worth pursuing. I always wanted to find a little dimond in the ruf.
But the lesson, right. Karase says that females are the ones in charg of providing and leeding for the tribes while the males typicaly take care of their young. He taught us about the meaning behind naming offspring the way they do. Females are given a unique name at birth to signify the beginning of a new tribe matriarch. Males receive the mother's name with a suffix to signify which born son they are in the tribal line. So had I'd been born a male, I might have a major clue to my family I lost. Nyagi is all I ever knew to call myself since I was little. But I don't know my last name. I might never discover who my tribe was.-- but! That aside, Karase's lesson was quite the eye opener. I feel as though I've gone through some sort of paradigm shift. Keepers of the Moon revere females... we are like a reflection of Menphina or something in their traditions. So kind of explains why I'm a bit of a firecracker when I feel I'm being looked down on. Karase also mentioned that it is not always, but typical that Keepers maintain a sort of... polyamorous lifestyle? Within the tribes, I guess it's practiced amongsted peers to have fleeting and multiple romances with others, not necessarily as solely committed to one lover. Not in the sense like Hyur people practice. So that's something to mill over. I feel like it'd be natural, if anything. I mean, goodness, I play games so much with all sorts, maybe it'll be the same to take it that next step further..? I sense a moral dilemma approaching, but for another time perhaps...
I'm sure there were other revelations in that lesson, however this is by far the longest entry I've put in my journal to date and I've still much to discuss. The hour draws late and the next bell is just beyond the horizon so I will try to be succincted.
I was surprised when Tyaa said she didn't want to do the tribal stuf with me, after I'd acepted the ofer. Karase had said some kind of odd things here and there, probably hinting to a hidden ilk towards anything and anyone outside of Keeper tradition, but I'm going to play hells' advocate and assume it's just because of how passionate he is in preserving the Keeper traditions. He almost crossed a line, seeming to attack Ninifae's friend, whom I think is Leih'a, I don't know, call it a hunch, haha. But he was probably just perplexed at to how a hyur/keeper mix even adapts to society. I guess to some it just comes off as really odd. I mean personally, it probably is a threat to culture and tradition to mate with others outside of race. It's like a saying I picked up years ago from a goodie two-shoe adventurer: "Just because it's possible, does it make it right?" -- I forget the reason he said that, but I think it applies here. I mean, if I started popping out kits that ended up not being kits but little blue Roegadyn's or heaven forbid, lalafellin kits..? That kind of seems just too weird for me to even tarry on the thought. Not to mention, I mean, what would it do to the little one? Being brought into a world where neither society would accept them? It wouldn't be fair. --Ah, well ranting aside... I promised to be succincted, gods damn it, haha. Just one more thing, little bookie.
Tyaa and I finally had come to a head with our fighting. Oh how embarrassed I was though in the midst of it, because Xha had shown up at one point to let me vent... Anyways, I got mad at her again, and asked her to go. Then she, once again, follows me when I didn't want her to follow... it was a mess. I'm just going to cut out all the fluff and jot down that I finally gave up and reconciled with Tyaa later on that night. Tyaa came to me later that night while I was at the Quicksand, and just apologised... I guess I finally broke down after that. I don't think what I was mad at her for was worth the point of pushing her away. I think if there were something actually wrong between me and her, it'd come up with renewed clarity or if it was just me having an off week, we'd move past it. Either way I dragged Tyaa away from the drone of the Quicksand and spoke frankly with her at the fountain in the Steps of Thal. I guess being just straight forward was all she wanted because when I finally worked in my head what was wrong, and then expressed it to Tyaa, I felt like we finally understood each other a bit more. So I'm going to just let bygones be bygones and give it another try. I mean, she loves me so I shouldn't push her away for feeling that way towards me.
Anyways, I'm about to faint from exhaustion. Looking at this compared to what I wrote before, it's kind of embarrassing the earlier entries. Oh well... but goes to show how awesome today was."
Dated: (Lore Equivalent) Dec. 29th, 2014
"Wel, I guess thers a bunch of stuf that hapened today. I ended up talking to Karase, a Keeper who dances for a living? He said he'd start teeching me and Tyaa the ways of the old tribes, and today he folowed throogh with his promiss with the first oficial lesson.
Oh, you should have seen how many Keepers showed up that day. I can't really remember their names too good, but there was a second born, another female that'd been taken in before like Karase was willing to do with me and Tyaa. Oh! and Xha showed up, haha, albeit he was hiding in a corner. He seems really timid but I dunno. There's something about him that strikes me funny. I'll keep testing him and see if he don't nudge into be something worth pursuing. I always wanted to find a little dimond in the ruf.
But the lesson, right. Karase says that females are the ones in charg of providing and leeding for the tribes while the males typicaly take care of their young. He taught us about the meaning behind naming offspring the way they do. Females are given a unique name at birth to signify the beginning of a new tribe matriarch. Males receive the mother's name with a suffix to signify which born son they are in the tribal line. So had I'd been born a male, I might have a major clue to my family I lost. Nyagi is all I ever knew to call myself since I was little. But I don't know my last name. I might never discover who my tribe was.-- but! That aside, Karase's lesson was quite the eye opener. I feel as though I've gone through some sort of paradigm shift. Keepers of the Moon revere females... we are like a reflection of Menphina or something in their traditions. So kind of explains why I'm a bit of a firecracker when I feel I'm being looked down on. Karase also mentioned that it is not always, but typical that Keepers maintain a sort of... polyamorous lifestyle? Within the tribes, I guess it's practiced amongsted peers to have fleeting and multiple romances with others, not necessarily as solely committed to one lover. Not in the sense like Hyur people practice. So that's something to mill over. I feel like it'd be natural, if anything. I mean, goodness, I play games so much with all sorts, maybe it'll be the same to take it that next step further..? I sense a moral dilemma approaching, but for another time perhaps...
I'm sure there were other revelations in that lesson, however this is by far the longest entry I've put in my journal to date and I've still much to discuss. The hour draws late and the next bell is just beyond the horizon so I will try to be succincted.
I was surprised when Tyaa said she didn't want to do the tribal stuf with me, after I'd acepted the ofer. Karase had said some kind of odd things here and there, probably hinting to a hidden ilk towards anything and anyone outside of Keeper tradition, but I'm going to play hells' advocate and assume it's just because of how passionate he is in preserving the Keeper traditions. He almost crossed a line, seeming to attack Ninifae's friend, whom I think is Leih'a, I don't know, call it a hunch, haha. But he was probably just perplexed at to how a hyur/keeper mix even adapts to society. I guess to some it just comes off as really odd. I mean personally, it probably is a threat to culture and tradition to mate with others outside of race. It's like a saying I picked up years ago from a goodie two-shoe adventurer: "Just because it's possible, does it make it right?" -- I forget the reason he said that, but I think it applies here. I mean, if I started popping out kits that ended up not being kits but little blue Roegadyn's or heaven forbid, lalafellin kits..? That kind of seems just too weird for me to even tarry on the thought. Not to mention, I mean, what would it do to the little one? Being brought into a world where neither society would accept them? It wouldn't be fair. --Ah, well ranting aside... I promised to be succincted, gods damn it, haha. Just one more thing, little bookie.
Tyaa and I finally had come to a head with our fighting. Oh how embarrassed I was though in the midst of it, because Xha had shown up at one point to let me vent... Anyways, I got mad at her again, and asked her to go. Then she, once again, follows me when I didn't want her to follow... it was a mess. I'm just going to cut out all the fluff and jot down that I finally gave up and reconciled with Tyaa later on that night. Tyaa came to me later that night while I was at the Quicksand, and just apologised... I guess I finally broke down after that. I don't think what I was mad at her for was worth the point of pushing her away. I think if there were something actually wrong between me and her, it'd come up with renewed clarity or if it was just me having an off week, we'd move past it. Either way I dragged Tyaa away from the drone of the Quicksand and spoke frankly with her at the fountain in the Steps of Thal. I guess being just straight forward was all she wanted because when I finally worked in my head what was wrong, and then expressed it to Tyaa, I felt like we finally understood each other a bit more. So I'm going to just let bygones be bygones and give it another try. I mean, she loves me so I shouldn't push her away for feeling that way towards me.
Anyways, I'm about to faint from exhaustion. Looking at this compared to what I wrote before, it's kind of embarrassing the earlier entries. Oh well... but goes to show how awesome today was."
