The Paladin have been making progress, venturing further and further into tougher areas and fights. However, his anxieties followed him all the way through. He found himself becoming more frustrated and he would reject even help from the Vigils. In one of those nights, he allowed himself to risk putting strain on his relations with the Vigils... The next, he found himself left to himself... Though he was not kicked from the Vigils, the conflict led him to think to himself...
Alexander wanted to be as successful as his parents... So much that he believed himself capable of making a gradually strong presence, impressing his peers and, thus, gain renown so early and have it grow so that others may know of his 'ventures. Most of all, he wanted to make his presence known as an individual who was driven and hard-working, kind, and seen as one who bears great potential.. One who is able to do well throughout all of his duties...
It was not his goal that had caused him frustration... It was his mindset...
He would get frustrated and would not be satisfied for having failed the first few times.... Considering that he will one day have to train himself to perform his duties better, but instead focuses on the rest of his duties to at least progress further and forward. He would not ask for help or would be hesitant to outright accept it not because he does not desire the support of his comrades, for he values it strongly. It was pride...He wanted to be able to be able to pull his own weight, not to come off as someone who was not strong enough to do things by himself, whereas if he were to perform the feat, it may even impress. This only serve, however, to provide hardship for himself and for those who truly mean well in supporting him...
He did not want to lose them... He had to make a decision... One that is not just for the sake of his comrades and all those after so that they may not find him hard to deal with... But for himself... For he finds and thinks that though he possess potential... He thinks himself not good enough. He feels that he had to get better and catch up with those who are further ahead in their duties than he... So that he may be at a better position to help them as the Vigils and those he had met have helped him. People who have been awesome. People who were praised for being hard-working and kind...Praises that he desired..... The Hyur Paladin had become envious... That, too, had given him hardship.
For his sake and for others... He had to make a decision... For though he still had his comrades... He cannot let them down...
Alexander Gomez, the Paladin Midlander Hyur, continued with his duties tirelessly, distraught with a wanting to apply the advises and suggestions given to him by his peers. He was beginning to learn how to seek and accept help with stride. A second missive with the Vigils turned out successful, allowing him to personally redeem himself from his performance in his first missive with the Cerulean Vigils. Everyone had done a job well done, including some of the new recruits that participated.
Afterwards, two more duties had him accompanied with some of the Vigil members in the first one, and with other adventurers in the second. Both, as well, had a positive turn out, including the second one. Though he did not do well the first few times, he maintained his composure like the rest of his allies and that finally bore fruit when one more attempt proved to be the charm that would complete their duty.
He was beginning to feel humbled... Ever since he made out for the world of Eorzea by himself... In only a few weeks... It has changed him...
His allies trust him... He knows this no matter what... He will do what he can for his sake and for theirs... To lend his strength to them... and learn to appreciate himself... To be the man that he envisions himself to be... and do right to his parents' reputation and succeeding them.
Alexander wanted to be as successful as his parents... So much that he believed himself capable of making a gradually strong presence, impressing his peers and, thus, gain renown so early and have it grow so that others may know of his 'ventures. Most of all, he wanted to make his presence known as an individual who was driven and hard-working, kind, and seen as one who bears great potential.. One who is able to do well throughout all of his duties...
It was not his goal that had caused him frustration... It was his mindset...
He would get frustrated and would not be satisfied for having failed the first few times.... Considering that he will one day have to train himself to perform his duties better, but instead focuses on the rest of his duties to at least progress further and forward. He would not ask for help or would be hesitant to outright accept it not because he does not desire the support of his comrades, for he values it strongly. It was pride...He wanted to be able to be able to pull his own weight, not to come off as someone who was not strong enough to do things by himself, whereas if he were to perform the feat, it may even impress. This only serve, however, to provide hardship for himself and for those who truly mean well in supporting him...
He did not want to lose them... He had to make a decision... One that is not just for the sake of his comrades and all those after so that they may not find him hard to deal with... But for himself... For he finds and thinks that though he possess potential... He thinks himself not good enough. He feels that he had to get better and catch up with those who are further ahead in their duties than he... So that he may be at a better position to help them as the Vigils and those he had met have helped him. People who have been awesome. People who were praised for being hard-working and kind...Praises that he desired..... The Hyur Paladin had become envious... That, too, had given him hardship.
For his sake and for others... He had to make a decision... For though he still had his comrades... He cannot let them down...
Alexander Gomez, the Paladin Midlander Hyur, continued with his duties tirelessly, distraught with a wanting to apply the advises and suggestions given to him by his peers. He was beginning to learn how to seek and accept help with stride. A second missive with the Vigils turned out successful, allowing him to personally redeem himself from his performance in his first missive with the Cerulean Vigils. Everyone had done a job well done, including some of the new recruits that participated.
Afterwards, two more duties had him accompanied with some of the Vigil members in the first one, and with other adventurers in the second. Both, as well, had a positive turn out, including the second one. Though he did not do well the first few times, he maintained his composure like the rest of his allies and that finally bore fruit when one more attempt proved to be the charm that would complete their duty.
He was beginning to feel humbled... Ever since he made out for the world of Eorzea by himself... In only a few weeks... It has changed him...
His allies trust him... He knows this no matter what... He will do what he can for his sake and for theirs... To lend his strength to them... and learn to appreciate himself... To be the man that he envisions himself to be... and do right to his parents' reputation and succeeding them.
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Alexander Gomez, a Midlander Hyur
Wa'gozah'a Nunh, a Keeper of the moon Miqo'te, who lived with the Seekers and reared by her Keeper mother
Alexander Gomez, a Midlander Hyur
Wa'gozah'a Nunh, a Keeper of the moon Miqo'te, who lived with the Seekers and reared by her Keeper mother
