Sazhi'to lost most of his family during the Calamity, and was under the impression that ALL of them had in fact been killed until several years later.
1) Denial:Â He kept telling himself that without recovered bodies, there was no reason to think anyone had been killed. You can't arbitrarily pronounce a missing person dead, after all. If he just kept helping the Arcanists' Guild with the rebuilding and healing, he would find word of at least someone.
2) Anger:Â Neither an easy nor common emotion for Sazhi'to, he felt the rage that all Eorzeans had over what the Garleans had done, but also some anger at himself for not being skilled enough to have joined his family on the front lines nor quick enough to return to his family in the Black Shroud.
3) Bargaining: Shortly after the Calamity Sazhi'to began to pester his teachers about ways to track down survivors. He was told to simply be patient and do whatever he could to help those around him, and the good he did would be seen and rewarded by the Twelve. Although unsure, Sazhi'to took that to heart and began studying anything and everything he could.
4) Depression: Three moons of fixing fishing nets, repairing cracked cook-pots, and reading when he wasn't doing other myriad odd-jobs with no word of any family having somehow survived began to take a toll on him. Sazhi'to found that no matter how hard he tried, there was still no result, and as soon as he began to accept that he was the last of his family he began having vivid nightmares. All of his self-loathing which he had pushed through came back full force with each nightmare, and he would be unable to sleep for days after. Eventually he simply stopped sleeping until he would pass out wherever he sat.
5) Â Acceptance: It took being found by the wizards of the Tower for him to finally begin to accept that he needed to move on with his life. However reluctantly. What truly set him on the path to peace with his loss was meeting his mentor, and eventual life-mate K'hane. As if just beginning to accept things was enough to set the rest in motion, it was not long before he learned that his sister and cousin had, in fact, survived and been in similar situations of isolation to himself.
1) Denial:Â He kept telling himself that without recovered bodies, there was no reason to think anyone had been killed. You can't arbitrarily pronounce a missing person dead, after all. If he just kept helping the Arcanists' Guild with the rebuilding and healing, he would find word of at least someone.
2) Anger:Â Neither an easy nor common emotion for Sazhi'to, he felt the rage that all Eorzeans had over what the Garleans had done, but also some anger at himself for not being skilled enough to have joined his family on the front lines nor quick enough to return to his family in the Black Shroud.
3) Bargaining: Shortly after the Calamity Sazhi'to began to pester his teachers about ways to track down survivors. He was told to simply be patient and do whatever he could to help those around him, and the good he did would be seen and rewarded by the Twelve. Although unsure, Sazhi'to took that to heart and began studying anything and everything he could.
4) Depression: Three moons of fixing fishing nets, repairing cracked cook-pots, and reading when he wasn't doing other myriad odd-jobs with no word of any family having somehow survived began to take a toll on him. Sazhi'to found that no matter how hard he tried, there was still no result, and as soon as he began to accept that he was the last of his family he began having vivid nightmares. All of his self-loathing which he had pushed through came back full force with each nightmare, and he would be unable to sleep for days after. Eventually he simply stopped sleeping until he would pass out wherever he sat.
5) Â Acceptance: It took being found by the wizards of the Tower for him to finally begin to accept that he needed to move on with his life. However reluctantly. What truly set him on the path to peace with his loss was meeting his mentor, and eventual life-mate K'hane. As if just beginning to accept things was enough to set the rest in motion, it was not long before he learned that his sister and cousin had, in fact, survived and been in similar situations of isolation to himself.
