I think I've felt this a lot in this game's community more than any other MMORPGs to be a bit more hostile environment and I've felt a bit hurt a lot too.Â
I can't say if I am hurt or feel aggravated, but this community in terms of roleplaying itself seems a bit too much to me sometimes. I've taken a break from roleplaying many times from this game due to OOC dramas within group of people, friends, FC and LS. I've been stressed within IRL and people pressuring me wasn't really helping me to stay healthy either.
Then there is also couple of times, when I want to enjoy my time to talk with everyone and hang out to do something and think of something to get myself to understand more roleplayers in this game, people just kind of brush it off and then start to make comments which makes me think that I am being attacked.
Despite that my English is second language, it's hard for me to comprehend when someone is taking it seriously - and it's hard for anyone to see if I am making a joke or not sometimes either. And that brings a lot of problems. I honestly wanted to make friends in here, and when people do share strong opinions to each other, it happens. But now, I am not quite sure if I even want to get to know anyone in this community at this point because I feel that everyone's too selfish for their own, or they just picked out their own favorites to RP with any not everyone else.
Despite that it is just a game, and I shouldn't take it seriously - I try really hard to not take it to another level of snapping and being upset enough to quit the game. I love FF14. No questions asked. It's really matter of whether I want to RP or not anymore since it seems like RP drama happens more than regular gaming drama. I get along with my FC members, and honestly, without them - I don't think I'd play this game any longer due to the fact that there will not be anyone to socialize with in game. I'd go back to WoW or something else for a change (I'd really not go to WoW).
IRL wise? I am just a normal guy who just wants to be successful in his life and get a successful career in the future. But in gaming, I'd also want friends in game or RP because it's something I like doing, and majority of the time - I feel like everyone seems to hate me and talk ill things behind my back and I do feel hurt a lot sometimes when many brush me off.Â
Honestly, I really wanted to make friends with people, and sometimes it felt like everyone is really just enjoying their time to pick a fight with me. I personally do not like bullying, and I'll defend someone from being bullied if it goes over the line sometimes, and then I end up being the bad guy for being a mediator.
There has been many people I've argued with (passive-aggressive term). I won't mention their names here, and honestly... I don't even want to have grudges with them or hate them. I just want to be friends with everyone, and I am sure I can't make friends with everyone anyways. but even when some of us say we might be "cool" with each other after argument, I feel like they have something against me still behind my back - because they kind of still brush me off even though I want to start a conversation. So I just end up shrugging off, but really. It's not easy to make friends in this game, and it's a bit difficult to just get along. And really? It's just hurting it's own way that I can't really enjoy RP or this game as much as I wanted it to be.
tl;dr
Honestly, communication is the biggest key to everything. But everyone has a different view in communication too and some people might not even want to communicate with you. And that's pretty rough in the end.
Though I am very reasonable person when people talk to me about problems between us. I really try to be because I don't really hate people as I wanted to be. :/
I can't say if I am hurt or feel aggravated, but this community in terms of roleplaying itself seems a bit too much to me sometimes. I've taken a break from roleplaying many times from this game due to OOC dramas within group of people, friends, FC and LS. I've been stressed within IRL and people pressuring me wasn't really helping me to stay healthy either.
Then there is also couple of times, when I want to enjoy my time to talk with everyone and hang out to do something and think of something to get myself to understand more roleplayers in this game, people just kind of brush it off and then start to make comments which makes me think that I am being attacked.
Despite that my English is second language, it's hard for me to comprehend when someone is taking it seriously - and it's hard for anyone to see if I am making a joke or not sometimes either. And that brings a lot of problems. I honestly wanted to make friends in here, and when people do share strong opinions to each other, it happens. But now, I am not quite sure if I even want to get to know anyone in this community at this point because I feel that everyone's too selfish for their own, or they just picked out their own favorites to RP with any not everyone else.
Despite that it is just a game, and I shouldn't take it seriously - I try really hard to not take it to another level of snapping and being upset enough to quit the game. I love FF14. No questions asked. It's really matter of whether I want to RP or not anymore since it seems like RP drama happens more than regular gaming drama. I get along with my FC members, and honestly, without them - I don't think I'd play this game any longer due to the fact that there will not be anyone to socialize with in game. I'd go back to WoW or something else for a change (I'd really not go to WoW).
IRL wise? I am just a normal guy who just wants to be successful in his life and get a successful career in the future. But in gaming, I'd also want friends in game or RP because it's something I like doing, and majority of the time - I feel like everyone seems to hate me and talk ill things behind my back and I do feel hurt a lot sometimes when many brush me off.Â
Honestly, I really wanted to make friends with people, and sometimes it felt like everyone is really just enjoying their time to pick a fight with me. I personally do not like bullying, and I'll defend someone from being bullied if it goes over the line sometimes, and then I end up being the bad guy for being a mediator.
There has been many people I've argued with (passive-aggressive term). I won't mention their names here, and honestly... I don't even want to have grudges with them or hate them. I just want to be friends with everyone, and I am sure I can't make friends with everyone anyways. but even when some of us say we might be "cool" with each other after argument, I feel like they have something against me still behind my back - because they kind of still brush me off even though I want to start a conversation. So I just end up shrugging off, but really. It's not easy to make friends in this game, and it's a bit difficult to just get along. And really? It's just hurting it's own way that I can't really enjoy RP or this game as much as I wanted it to be.
tl;dr
Honestly, communication is the biggest key to everything. But everyone has a different view in communication too and some people might not even want to communicate with you. And that's pretty rough in the end.
Though I am very reasonable person when people talk to me about problems between us. I really try to be because I don't really hate people as I wanted to be. :/
