Roen always believed that killing someone was a vile act. That violence should always be the last resort. When she fell in love with a man who used these means for what he believed to be for the greater good, she condemned his methods and tried to turn him away from that path.
Only in the end, she ended up killing him.
It was the first time she took anyone's life, and the act shattered her core beliefs. Heartbroken and riddled with guilt, she ran away from everyone she knew. It has been almost a year since the incident, and she is still struggling with bouts of depression and doubt. Her coping mechanism has been to isolate herself and dive into mercenary work, killing beasts and monsters. Only, even monsters sometimes turn out not to be clear cut evil things.
I haven't mapped out exactly how she comes out in the end; I will let circumstances, stories, and interactions decide that somewhat. I have an idea, but how and if it comes about, who knows? But yes, my characters struggles with the consequences after killing one person, albeit a person she loved. While it may not all be obviously present right there on the surface, it has not been easy for her, and in my opinion, it shouldn't be.
Only in the end, she ended up killing him.
It was the first time she took anyone's life, and the act shattered her core beliefs. Heartbroken and riddled with guilt, she ran away from everyone she knew. It has been almost a year since the incident, and she is still struggling with bouts of depression and doubt. Her coping mechanism has been to isolate herself and dive into mercenary work, killing beasts and monsters. Only, even monsters sometimes turn out not to be clear cut evil things.
I haven't mapped out exactly how she comes out in the end; I will let circumstances, stories, and interactions decide that somewhat. I have an idea, but how and if it comes about, who knows? But yes, my characters struggles with the consequences after killing one person, albeit a person she loved. While it may not all be obviously present right there on the surface, it has not been easy for her, and in my opinion, it shouldn't be.