28th Sun of the 4th Astral Moon
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I seem to have a knack for making an awful fool of myself, despite all of my efforts to the contrary.
As you and none others, my journal, know, I had the lady Defiant over for rather a lot longer than usual the other night. Rather a lot closer, as well. I could only pray that I did not harm her during our time together, mind or body. It has been rather difficult indeed adjusting truly apart from what I learned as an adolescent, and this has been my first real opportunity to put into practice the things I have learned since departing from Othard.
I was under the impression that I did not harm her. At least, not directly. By the end of it, she was in rather a hurry to leave, and I suppose I ought to have been more suspicious of that fact at the time. As it is, it has been several days since… and she has not spoken with me directly at all.
We had a conversation, of sorts, by the Acronycal yesterday… but no meaningful words came out of it, and I begin to wonder if she hasn’t lost interest in me, or if I haven’t done some dreadful thing to offend her of which I am not aware. I would ask her sister, only I’m reasonably certain she’d just murder me if it became evident I had done something wrong. I am somewhat adrift.
If you ask me, the sooner I can go back to focussing on actual work instead of on the mess that is my social relations, the better.
