I have suffered through major depression and anxiety for over half of my life, (and I'm 30 this month) as well as suffering from both epilepsy and non epileptic attack disorder (which is linked to my anxiety). I just lost 2 grandparents in one month
I got through August, and now I am welcomed into September with seizures. The epileptic kind. I've had 6 in 3 days so far. I know this isn't a thread about me and my problems, so I'll stop whining about mine. What I'm eluding to is the fact that there have literally been 3 things that have gotten me through August and September so far:
- My mother (and the fact that she is visiting me in 2 weeks. I haven't seen her in 10 years).
-My boyfriend (who provides comedy and love to keep me happy when I need to be happy).
-And my writing. My writing always helps me through my problems, even when literally nothing else is available. If my boyfriend isn't around, and my mother can't Skype, I write. It works.Â
So even if you can't meet deadlines, or don't want the pressure of commissions, still don't give up on your art. Never give up on it. I looked at your work, and you're actually very good. Please don't give it up. It will help you through. You may not see it at the time, but eventually you will look back, and understand that it helped.
Lastly, NEVER apologize for being sad. You don't need to be sorry for having emotions. Emotions are natural human occurrences. Some of us have severe depression, and even we don't need to apologize. I'm not sorry I get depressed. I have a mental illness. I take medication. I'm not sorry. I'm sorry if I don't get the chance to RP with people because of it, I'm sorry if you don't see me in game because I sleep after having seizures, but I'm not sorry I have seizures. So don't be sorry. Own your depression, don't let it own you.
I got through August, and now I am welcomed into September with seizures. The epileptic kind. I've had 6 in 3 days so far. I know this isn't a thread about me and my problems, so I'll stop whining about mine. What I'm eluding to is the fact that there have literally been 3 things that have gotten me through August and September so far:
- My mother (and the fact that she is visiting me in 2 weeks. I haven't seen her in 10 years).
-My boyfriend (who provides comedy and love to keep me happy when I need to be happy).
-And my writing. My writing always helps me through my problems, even when literally nothing else is available. If my boyfriend isn't around, and my mother can't Skype, I write. It works.Â
So even if you can't meet deadlines, or don't want the pressure of commissions, still don't give up on your art. Never give up on it. I looked at your work, and you're actually very good. Please don't give it up. It will help you through. You may not see it at the time, but eventually you will look back, and understand that it helped.
Lastly, NEVER apologize for being sad. You don't need to be sorry for having emotions. Emotions are natural human occurrences. Some of us have severe depression, and even we don't need to apologize. I'm not sorry I get depressed. I have a mental illness. I take medication. I'm not sorry. I'm sorry if I don't get the chance to RP with people because of it, I'm sorry if you don't see me in game because I sleep after having seizures, but I'm not sorry I have seizures. So don't be sorry. Own your depression, don't let it own you.
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