The Heart Wins (Journal #4)
Looks like that battle between the heart and mind ended up being a short one. I’m back in my shack of an inn room but there’s been a change. I’m with Kaia again. Least I think I am. Abyss, I don’t know what’s going on really. Everything is confusing as all sands because that woman sense more thoughts into this thick head of mine and more emotions in my chest than I can even figure out.
Guess I should start with the night I went to see her. Pretty fucking terrible evening really. Had another fight in the pit which I found a way win though some pieces of chocobo dung wanted me to let the other guy win. Seems they didn’t know me well enough to know I’m not letting it get handed to me on damned purpose even if it would give me a bit of extra gil in the pocket. Anyway, they found me later with a handful of sea starved louts and attempted to take my coin and my ability to breath. Got me good with a piece of steel on my left side but I was still standing in the end and they, the ones that could, ran off when a walker by joined the fray on my behalf. Going to have to find that one and give a right thanks.
Use to getting cut I still stumbled sand filled brain headed ass to Kai’s house because I was determined to see her again. Couldn’t help it. I admit it. Shit, I missed here. You don’t see the first love of your life and the one you intended on being with for all your years after nine years separated and just forget her, right? Just don’t work that way. Not for me at least. So my bleeding ass showed up at her house hiding the cut since I know she would fret over me like she always did back in the day. Course what I didn’t expect was to see her standing in an outfit that had her damn tits nearly popping free and a skirt so shirt I wonder what was the point of even wearing the damned thing. Immediately my thoughts went to her being a lady of the evening and by the Twelve I swear my vision turned redder than a Lalafell walking in on a rutting Miqo'te. If the whoever the abyss the damned client was had been there I’d have tried to rip his damned head off.
Anyway, cutting it short, I was pissed. Tried not to show it but she knew me too well even after the time away and she was curt like she always capable of doing. One thing led to another though and she ended patching me up despite my protests. That’s when I prodded about her “client†and she walked away to the wardrobe closet to put the medical things away and she admitted to me like she didn’t want to even tell me a damned thing. Saying that she wanted me to stop asking because she didn’t want me leaving her again and to basically leave it be. Course I’m thick headed, right? Stubborn as a damned Roegadyn staring at a seven course meal. So I keep on and she straight told me.
After seeing me she didn’t want anyone touching her again if it was not me.
Well, shit, needless to say that bombshell sent me in a frenzy because here is one person who always stood by me in life. The one woman I loved before any other. The one woman that drove me in ways I couldn’t even comprehend during our years and even after we got separated. The one woman that upon finding again I couldn’t go one damned minute without thinking about. And she was telling me she still had feelings for me.
Heart won alright but that wardrobe closet of hers and then her bed didn’t because they took a damned beating. My patched wound didn’t mean a thing that evening to either of us. Just about me and her and I wasn’t letting Kai out of my eyesight for a second. Or out of my arms or off my…well you get the point there. At least she did. A few times.
Anyway, that isn’t the point. Point is I am apparently back with the woman I loved before anyone or anything else. Before I loved the sea, before I loved adventure, before I loved a good scrap, before I had feelings for Miya or anything, there was Kai, and she is back in my life. We both changed a bit though I’m sure she will still think I’m a thick-headed brute sometimes. Where will it lead? I have no fucking clue but by the sands I intend on finding out because I’ll be damned she slip away this time.
Looks like that battle between the heart and mind ended up being a short one. I’m back in my shack of an inn room but there’s been a change. I’m with Kaia again. Least I think I am. Abyss, I don’t know what’s going on really. Everything is confusing as all sands because that woman sense more thoughts into this thick head of mine and more emotions in my chest than I can even figure out.
Guess I should start with the night I went to see her. Pretty fucking terrible evening really. Had another fight in the pit which I found a way win though some pieces of chocobo dung wanted me to let the other guy win. Seems they didn’t know me well enough to know I’m not letting it get handed to me on damned purpose even if it would give me a bit of extra gil in the pocket. Anyway, they found me later with a handful of sea starved louts and attempted to take my coin and my ability to breath. Got me good with a piece of steel on my left side but I was still standing in the end and they, the ones that could, ran off when a walker by joined the fray on my behalf. Going to have to find that one and give a right thanks.
Use to getting cut I still stumbled sand filled brain headed ass to Kai’s house because I was determined to see her again. Couldn’t help it. I admit it. Shit, I missed here. You don’t see the first love of your life and the one you intended on being with for all your years after nine years separated and just forget her, right? Just don’t work that way. Not for me at least. So my bleeding ass showed up at her house hiding the cut since I know she would fret over me like she always did back in the day. Course what I didn’t expect was to see her standing in an outfit that had her damn tits nearly popping free and a skirt so shirt I wonder what was the point of even wearing the damned thing. Immediately my thoughts went to her being a lady of the evening and by the Twelve I swear my vision turned redder than a Lalafell walking in on a rutting Miqo'te. If the whoever the abyss the damned client was had been there I’d have tried to rip his damned head off.
Anyway, cutting it short, I was pissed. Tried not to show it but she knew me too well even after the time away and she was curt like she always capable of doing. One thing led to another though and she ended patching me up despite my protests. That’s when I prodded about her “client†and she walked away to the wardrobe closet to put the medical things away and she admitted to me like she didn’t want to even tell me a damned thing. Saying that she wanted me to stop asking because she didn’t want me leaving her again and to basically leave it be. Course I’m thick headed, right? Stubborn as a damned Roegadyn staring at a seven course meal. So I keep on and she straight told me.
After seeing me she didn’t want anyone touching her again if it was not me.
Well, shit, needless to say that bombshell sent me in a frenzy because here is one person who always stood by me in life. The one woman I loved before any other. The one woman that drove me in ways I couldn’t even comprehend during our years and even after we got separated. The one woman that upon finding again I couldn’t go one damned minute without thinking about. And she was telling me she still had feelings for me.
Heart won alright but that wardrobe closet of hers and then her bed didn’t because they took a damned beating. My patched wound didn’t mean a thing that evening to either of us. Just about me and her and I wasn’t letting Kai out of my eyesight for a second. Or out of my arms or off my…well you get the point there. At least she did. A few times.
Anyway, that isn’t the point. Point is I am apparently back with the woman I loved before anyone or anything else. Before I loved the sea, before I loved adventure, before I loved a good scrap, before I had feelings for Miya or anything, there was Kai, and she is back in my life. We both changed a bit though I’m sure she will still think I’m a thick-headed brute sometimes. Where will it lead? I have no fucking clue but by the sands I intend on finding out because I’ll be damned she slip away this time.
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Ryuu Kaisoto: Mateus
Zhauric Bloodsworn (Currently Retired): Balmung
