~7th Sun of the 6th Astral Moon, 1577~
(11/7/13)
Lhei and I have been rivals for a very long time. No, that is not completely accurate... I see it as a one-sided rivalry. And I say this not out of vanity or spite. I say it because while Lhei may have wanted our friendship to end, I never did.
Today I saw her in the Arcanist's Guild and she snatched my grimoire away, ripping the pages to shreds and heavily damaging the cover. She told me that I was a failure as an arcanist and suggested that I leave. Emotions swirled within me. I was unsure how to respond. That is when Lhei brought my sister into it, declaring I would never live up to her reputation. I could not contain myself after that. I began crying terribly and fled. I dare not even glance at Alice, who had witnessed the entire thing.
She comforted me afterwards... Apparently she even gave Lhei a good smack. It is unladylike of me, but a tiny part of me wishes that I could have seen that. Just a little bit.
Lhei was one of two Miqo'te I grew up with. The other, a Sun Seeker called C'senja, was my first crush. When I was around the age of thirteen, I told her how beautiful I thought she was. Her hair was a gorgeous strawberry blonde. She had these huge honey brown eyes. I was so nervous. I almost tremble thinking about it even now. The luck of the Twelve was shining upon me that day, however. C'senja seemed to share my feelings.
It was a short-lived bliss, however. Her family moved away. I have never told anyone about her, with the exceptions of Lhei and Ingrid. (Well, Alice now knows the story, too.) I told them almost everything. Three years later, Lhei walked into the Thaumaturge's Guild one day and was my enemy. Not to mention there was a grand shift in her personality. She has not given me an explanation for either occurrence.
How can I show my face at the Arcanist's Guild again? Surely Lhei will antagonize me every chance she gets. I am afraid to go back there.
