K'ailia felt her father crushing the earth made message. But she paid him no attention. Her ears listened instead to K'takka. Hearing she may be done with her, that she knows neither peace nor silence, nor consideration but herself she knew was wrong. But it was clear the elders seem to think she thinks only of herself.
Disobedience is disrespect... so that was what family was to the tribe? Absolute obedience? Now she understood why the elders were so angry. They were expecting from family, obedience only.
She could not help but think back to the first argument she had with her mother. She was afraid the elders would choose to remain in Sagolii, to sentence the tribe to death. But before she could tell of how she felt like an outsider already within the tribe her mother had an explosion of anger. But soon after K'ile talked to her, as a friend, as an uncle would to a wayward niece. And she had decided she would not leave the tribe then, and she apologized to her mother, just as her mother apologized to her.
She thought back to their stay in Eastern Thanalan, where she was left alone with nothing to do at their camp site. She'd taken trips then to Drybone, to the church. Beheld the suffering of the people. And she knew then, she wanted to help both her tribe and the outsiders. She had started to learn to read. Her intentions was, once they returned to the tribe, to offer to teach the tribe shamans conjury. To teach those who knew not how to read, how to do so. She had so much to offer. But seeing her mother's reaction to magic, to K'ile's statement that if she offered herself to learn to be a proper tribe mate, he'd force her to mate...
The tribe was not ready. If her mother was that strongly afraid of magic, then teaching the shamans of the tribe would be pointless. Such magics is probably why she was treated as an outsider as it was. Other Miqo'te tribes have already integrated themselves into Eorzean cultures, because they were ready. Her branch of the tribe though, was not.
But K'takka had given her hints if she was to speak, let alone walk. So she remained in there here, and now. She remained silent. They wanted her to remain silent for a long time. They wanted her to remain in place and do nothing the entire time. She now understood what K'takka wanted. So there she stayed. No tears. No anger. No magic, though she could still feel the powder irritating her lungs.
But she needn't have physical magic to take care of that. The monk training she underwent from the Hyur she calls Big Brother showed her she could move her aether within her, or as he called it... her chakra, to repair the damage herself. So she remained still, listening to the elders while moving her aether to deal with the immediate problem. She would not die for the tribe. And should her father attempt to assault her further with the powder, she would be left with no recourse but the defend herself. But she would not attack. There are ways to keep ones self from harm, without attack. She would do as the elder has now instructed.
Thus, she stayed still. Silent. Even if it took all night, the elder hinted she would eventually be allowed to speak, and move. There would be no more meditation. Her limits were reached. And she prayed to Azeyma that her father would attempt no further assaults.
Disobedience is disrespect... so that was what family was to the tribe? Absolute obedience? Now she understood why the elders were so angry. They were expecting from family, obedience only.
She could not help but think back to the first argument she had with her mother. She was afraid the elders would choose to remain in Sagolii, to sentence the tribe to death. But before she could tell of how she felt like an outsider already within the tribe her mother had an explosion of anger. But soon after K'ile talked to her, as a friend, as an uncle would to a wayward niece. And she had decided she would not leave the tribe then, and she apologized to her mother, just as her mother apologized to her.
She thought back to their stay in Eastern Thanalan, where she was left alone with nothing to do at their camp site. She'd taken trips then to Drybone, to the church. Beheld the suffering of the people. And she knew then, she wanted to help both her tribe and the outsiders. She had started to learn to read. Her intentions was, once they returned to the tribe, to offer to teach the tribe shamans conjury. To teach those who knew not how to read, how to do so. She had so much to offer. But seeing her mother's reaction to magic, to K'ile's statement that if she offered herself to learn to be a proper tribe mate, he'd force her to mate...
The tribe was not ready. If her mother was that strongly afraid of magic, then teaching the shamans of the tribe would be pointless. Such magics is probably why she was treated as an outsider as it was. Other Miqo'te tribes have already integrated themselves into Eorzean cultures, because they were ready. Her branch of the tribe though, was not.
But K'takka had given her hints if she was to speak, let alone walk. So she remained in there here, and now. She remained silent. They wanted her to remain silent for a long time. They wanted her to remain in place and do nothing the entire time. She now understood what K'takka wanted. So there she stayed. No tears. No anger. No magic, though she could still feel the powder irritating her lungs.
But she needn't have physical magic to take care of that. The monk training she underwent from the Hyur she calls Big Brother showed her she could move her aether within her, or as he called it... her chakra, to repair the damage herself. So she remained still, listening to the elders while moving her aether to deal with the immediate problem. She would not die for the tribe. And should her father attempt to assault her further with the powder, she would be left with no recourse but the defend herself. But she would not attack. There are ways to keep ones self from harm, without attack. She would do as the elder has now instructed.
Thus, she stayed still. Silent. Even if it took all night, the elder hinted she would eventually be allowed to speak, and move. There would be no more meditation. Her limits were reached. And she prayed to Azeyma that her father would attempt no further assaults.
