Poe's Journal Entry
The writing looks hurried…Decided to hold off on going to Costa until this upcoming evening. Kind of glad I decided that, as I ran into Ryillin and S’anhu at the Drowning Wench. I tried to not be nervous, I don’t remember all my behavior from last night. Ry did tease me..Gods, I hope it was teasing. He dropped a hint that he heard me call him ‘stubborn’. I..I had to apologize, how humiliating! I did actually say it to him.
S’anhu arrived after and I snagged us some food. My stomach needed it. And then the topic turned to Ruhan and his plans. I could feel the worry start to fill me again. Ry explained that if Ruhan does go through with this, it could significantly impact what we know now. The outcomes….we could all be different, not know each other…or not even be here.
I was tempted to go start drinking. Lan-I-Mata would disapprove. I think…I think I am just overwhelmed. I don’t want to let anyone down, I want to make sure my friends - MY friends are all ok. I guess I haven’t been doing a great job at making sure I am ok so I can be there for them. So I grabbed some hot tea instead. There will be plenty of time to relax in the next few days.
I told Ry and S’anhu I was going to go to Costa. I just didn’t want anyone to worry. They surprised me actually…asked me what I was going to do there. What am I going to do there?
Fuck…I am getting into my bathing suit, eating a bowl of cherries, catch some fish in the moonlight and drink the tea Lan-I-Mata gave me. I should warn them, but hopefully they don’t notice…
I have written a few notes to send off before I head out. One for Rose, inviting her to Costa. The sun, fishing, laughing. I bet she could use it. Another to Ami, I wasn’t sure if she heard about the party at the hot springs in a few nights. She seemed to have such a good time the other night, I want to offer her another chance to spend some time. And…well lastly to S’anhu. He said he would be busy and wouldn’t be able to come to Costa. I am sure I know what that is about. I should have mentioned he could…he should bring Kora to Costa…I am sure he wants her there…
