Poe's Journal Entry
The writing seems a bit wobbly and loose.I stopped by the ship. I wanted to let those there know I was going to go over to Aleport, ask some questions. At the moment, only Ry really knows what is happening. Well, some of it. I haven’t dared mention my harvest is gone and I am down to my last coin. A time like this, yeah, I wish Ambrosia was still open. I would be down there working my ass off.
Showed up and the new girl, Alicen and X’hayu were chatting. Lina arrived shortly after. Alicen is sweet, I hope we can shield her from some of the horrors, but I think we have already failed. The mess…the blood was still there. Alicen joked she still had cleaning to do. Poor thing, if I have time tomorrow I am coming back to help clean. She could use the help.
Lina had some impressive armor on, beautiful and shiny. Lina seemed…Gods, I don’t know. How is one supposed to feel after they have been through what she has?
Ry showed up and Kora as well. I could feel the tension, the awkward…Fuck, she has every reason to hate me. Every reason for her give me those cold stares. I am not sure if the others had noticed. By the time Alicen and Lina left and I had a slight buzz from the wine, I decided it be best to just address the issue.
I told her I was sorry and I was not going to interfere and I reiterated again that S’anhu has already made his choice. She started to act oddly, Ry demanding to know what was going on. She didn’t know her name? Ry hit her with a fireball. I…I know she was acting odd, but… Was this the same guy I was sharing a bag of cherries with last night at the point?
Kora was hit, but she hadn’t tried to dodge it, falling over. Ry’s next spell put her to sleep and he did something, using his aether energy to scan her mind. After he, he asked me to heal her up. I did quickly, worried. Kora wasn’t herself. She talked oddly and looked at me. I asked…whatever, whoever this was to tell Kora I was sorry, I would not meddle, S’anhu was her’s and her’s alone.
After she left, I asked Ry what that was about. He explained, she had some sort of other…identity inside, to help her handle the pain of what I have put her and S’anhu through. It was out, protecting her while she tried to heal. Ry also said S’anhu did not know about this other…self?
I guess that is it. Caused enough pain to literally split another’s very mind, forcing it to protect itself from my words and actions. I continued to drink now, feeling sick. Finally, I realized I needed to sleep. The wine wasn’t enough to numb this out, I needed absolute silence. Ry was kind enough to let me stay in his room on the ship. He doesn’t use it. It’s simple, very sterile. It doesn’t have the homey feel I had tried to create in the room I shared with Daevien. But it’s free of these emotional ghosts that haunt me.
Tomorrow, Aleport. I need to distance myself so no one else is hurt.
