Poe's Journal Entry
The past few days…where to begin? A group of us met up in Ul’dah as Lina’s hand was injured. Ry had told me about what happened when they rescued Lina, it seems she hurt it then. I had tried to help but when I was casting my spell she was in pain. I have never had my spells cause pain on someone, I pride myself on being incredibly gentle with others. That Lalafell…he angers me and he angered Rose with the statements about Ace. But we set that aside to quickly get Lina to the Padjals. He was able to help her and Lina was healed. But…things blew up between Ry and Ace. I spent some time talking to Ry about it, though I can tell it still is weighing on him.The following night Ry and I dragged Joundi out to the tavern night. I remembered my bathing suit but we didn’t end up in the springs. It was for the best though. Learned a lot more about Joundi. Tortured soul in so many ways. I suppose after he shared about killing his family…..him distancing from us seemed to be his way of trying to protect us all. I hope he thought about some of the things I said. He has stopped drinking too, not sure if it is because he slipped up and spilled his secret that night with Rose around…or..
This evening we went to this ball. There was food and games. Ry, Joundi and I were speaking when Ami and her tribe entered the same building. Ami looked at me and I just continued with what I was doing. Part of me was mad when he sighed. Hadn’t I already said my piece to him….didn’t he understand? Then he needed to take a call. Joundi went out to look around and I went and got some food. Kel found me, we had a chance to laugh and drink. He seemed to be ok….until Dash showed up. By this point Joundi and I were speaking in the bar about forgiveness. On a side note, is it a requirement for all the males to be so damn stubborn? Ry wasn’t where I had last seen him, Ami was gone too. I tried not to think about whatever was going on. Dash and Kel had this blow up, I could tell Kel was irritated with me, he seems to think I think everything is simple…and it’s not. Dear Menphina, don’t I know that? Kel split and Joundi and I had a moment to talk more. I hated it, but Joundi had a point. I worry so much about others I don’t do well giving myself time or put myself first. We might have continued that conversation but I heard Ry over the pearl. He had tried again to help Ami. He was wounded and I was able to heal that, not without tension between Ry and Cao.
And lastly, earlier today I went to see Lan-I-Mata. She was grueling. She said I was draining myself emotionally again and I needed to focus and ground myself again. Gave me more tea. I think a relaxing night at Fallgourd might be just what I need.
