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Poe’s Journal Entry
*The journal appears to have been the target of anger. The binding partially split, one corner dinged, the leather scuffed. Perhaps thrown about?*
Disgraced…
I had never hoped to be someone of importance. But then again, I also never thought that…helping…my good intentions would lead me to such a dark place. Kan-E-Senna…She knew my heart was pure, she said so….and yet…
A lengthy pause in the writing; the parchment stark white.
Relan had always warned, there would be a day where I had to make difficult choices. And that even the smallest choice could…impact in ways I could never imagine. I have not dared return to see him. Not that Relan cares for titles, for memberships, but…it is proof I failed. I have been trying to rack my brain…did I want to be a white mage? No…but I had a natural gift with healing. I found a trainer who challenged me….I have feared it is all lost now.
Kan-E-Senna told me to go speak to my trainer before she had me escorted out of her building. Will Lan-I-Mata even acknowledge me? Speak to me? I had sent her a note…asked to meet. I will go to Fallgourd in two evenings as planned, hopefully to see her. Please, please be there.
I now have to face the crew. How do I say this to any of them? Only Relan and Joundi knew of my plan to go speak to Elder Seedseer. I will face them both, tonight. I had come across an old map in Relan’s secondary storage space. I want to speak to them tonight.
I don’t want them to think of me as weak…I didn’t mean to mess this up. I fear the Adders will know Joundi is around. I am not sure, but I am hope he will be able to stay safe. Thank the Twelve I did not share more about Lina. In my innocent attempt at helping….I am seem to be leaving a trail of ruin. And what will Ryillin think? The rest of the crew?
I..I am no longer a White Mage. Who am I now?
