Hey Warren, I completely understand the feeling. I normally am able to keep myself relatively objective when rping Askier(well as object as one can be while rping a part of you lol), but during the recent rp event with Roen and Itar, I got gut punched.
Basically, Itar said he was going to torture Askier IC. At first I had no problem with it, once I established the rules of how far he could go. but then Itar sent me an email describing what exactly was happening to Askier aboard the boat in that torture chamber and I'll admit, I just stared at the e-mail and had to re-read it. I'll admit I was kinda numb. It hadn't -really- hit how much I had agreed to put Askier through -until- that moment and I couldn't bring myself to reply to Itar's post IC cause how brutally damaged Askier was and i didn't want to read anymore. I felt powerless, honestly, too, since Askier had no way to stop Itar at this point.Â
Even now, my rping while on Askier has been, well, subdued. Osric, Kanaria, or Kahn'a can tell you Askier is certainly more humble and while most of that is IC reasoning, part of -me- feels, well bad for having a character I love to rp end up so badly mangled and mentally broken and I prefer to keep him out of harms way currently, least for a bit.....knowing Askier, I give him a week before he does something rash, sorry Osric =p.....lol.
Just wanted to let you know, you aren't alone when it comes to characters affecting the roleplayer.
Basically, Itar said he was going to torture Askier IC. At first I had no problem with it, once I established the rules of how far he could go. but then Itar sent me an email describing what exactly was happening to Askier aboard the boat in that torture chamber and I'll admit, I just stared at the e-mail and had to re-read it. I'll admit I was kinda numb. It hadn't -really- hit how much I had agreed to put Askier through -until- that moment and I couldn't bring myself to reply to Itar's post IC cause how brutally damaged Askier was and i didn't want to read anymore. I felt powerless, honestly, too, since Askier had no way to stop Itar at this point.Â
Even now, my rping while on Askier has been, well, subdued. Osric, Kanaria, or Kahn'a can tell you Askier is certainly more humble and while most of that is IC reasoning, part of -me- feels, well bad for having a character I love to rp end up so badly mangled and mentally broken and I prefer to keep him out of harms way currently, least for a bit.....knowing Askier, I give him a week before he does something rash, sorry Osric =p.....lol.
Just wanted to let you know, you aren't alone when it comes to characters affecting the roleplayer.
